Randomness :)

Log on to google and see this.



For a moment I am shocked... But then i saw it was only www.google.co.za. But nevertheless, great that they did that anyway :) Can you tell I'm proudly South African

Random thoughts/events for the morning...

* If I'm not a coloured because that is what the apartheid government labelled us, then what am I? And even Mandela in his book speaks about coloured people even before the apartheid regime began. According to me I am coloured/of mixed heritage and personally want to discover more about that...but for all those that say we not at all then what are we? Are you just defining who you are by the colour of your skin and if I take it further that you not white in colour. Cause as i said for me it's to do with the blood, the heritage and a little bit of the culture. (Note to those who have never had a conversation with me before on this, I am not saying my colouredness is more important than my christianity, in fact for me if u know me that doesnt feature much in certain aspects...but this was just the thought for the morning on this topic. (dont let me get to the illegitimate/bastard mentality thought)

* Watched snippets of Music and Lyrics this morning. I really like that movie. Really :) Even like what she says about how music is the feeling when u first meet someone, the atmosphere and lyrics is the lives of the people, who they are, where they come from, the detail :). However one not so nice thought about all of this. Her sister says "Dont tell me you slept with him..." Anyway was just thinking in these movies, it's like on the first date they kiss, then if they really like each other it's shown by when they sleep together, then after that they normally have a fall out,but get back together. But the sign of love and connection in these movies is always sex. Which makes me think how many teens are having sex. As a teacher I've seen first hand how really the media is defining them. I've even thought perhaps I should watch kiddies cartoons for 2 weeks and see if it has an effect on me and my values. But here's the thing they fail to include in these movies. The issues that goes with sleeping with someone,regardless of who they are boyfriend, or one night stand...(except marriage),that it is deep with a whole lot of issues, and uncomfortableness attached. It is not merely just like a kiss showing that there is something between the two, yet that is how it is portrayed in nearly every chick flick, so how many are losing their virginities by this, and no. 2 correct me if I'm wrong but doesnt the 2 sleeping together just open up a whole lot of other issues. Or have people hardened themselves to the point where sleeping with someone is like a first kiss. I dont know if someone will tell me that open and honestly but would like to know...Anyway if Not,then i'm very irritated with Hollywood for exposing and flooding us with that mentality..

Ok well thats all for now.

Introduction...

I decided to do the "read the bible in 3 months" which should have ended Aug 9.It's September and I'm still at Nehemiah as we speak. I am really enjoying my study and really have seen the fruit of it. Not needing to be on arthritis tablets, no misunderstandings and lots of complements the day I'm in the word, open doors :) and just an increase in knowing and understanding God and his ways. The point of this category is just for me to blog these thoughts As I get there....

Updated Hair...

I like to keep u updated cause there's just one pic of when my hair was really really short and my friend said she doesnt know where those pics are so this captures the look over time. So here's the latest since last saturday...dyed my hair black again. Not the best pics, but the best with what i have to take it.Also everyone is going on and i jsut realised last dec my hair was black which wasnt too long ago. My conclusion is when I look vertrap it completely erases from people's memory how i look if my hair is blowed out, dyed etc...

Extremely tired at this point so just blogging this then off to bed ;)

Long Time no Blog

Dunno if I blogged this before, but after hearing the news that Jason and Lize got engaged yesterday (WOOHOO)just been thinking about where I am at in terms of relationships and it's still just this peace when I think of this "Keep on Waiting on the Lord, Keep on Waiting on the Lord, Keep on waiting on the Lord..." It's so cool that when we wait, our strength is renewed...! So it's not that I'm getting weak from waiting but stronger...

2 girls got saved in cell last night.God is really good, could feel his anointing way after. When praying the sinners prayer the next table was listening intently! Anyway very exciting, It was very clear in the one girls life that God has been drawing her to this point for a while.

What else can i tell you. My hair is black now, took pics on my moms phone which i still have to forward to here. But right now need to be off again...

Wanna start blogging what I learn from my bible readings too so watch this space.

My Latest News Once Again....

Latest news is that I'm not teaching anymore. or for now. they have found an experienced teacher who has been teaching for 30 years and who will be able to get discipline in the class.i said it's fine as I am not there for myself but for the school and learners so if thats what's best for the class then i want that.

How do i feel about all of this. Well I do have peace about it. My mom's coming from hospital monday so it's cool that I will be at home in this time that she is unable to do much. I feel irritated that it seems like the Big Question is back? What next? where am I going, etc.etc. But at the same time i know I ask God, teach me your ways and he teaches me to walk by faith. That I don't need to know the answers to the big questions but to continue to know and walk in him....

Thats all for now.Very tired cause just came home like 15 min ago from a wonderful hangout with some of my bestest friends of all times...

Beauty's Curse and Redemption

Beauty's Curse and Redemption
Chandré De Wet (I hope to work on this further)

She hides deep within
accustomed to glances
The beautiful girl
caught up in romances
Her vision askewed
in her mirror no beauty
Outside a painting
an apathetic smile her duty

Yet inside she screams
her tears are remembered
Her dreams are dwindling
yet crowd pleasing defended
Confused and alone
eyes dimmed to her loved ones
She grasps at the broken
feeling safe in shattered arms

Her beauty not skin deep
it reaches the depth of her soul
Yet she forfeits reality
and only sees a hole
If only her eyes opened
her true value she could know
She'd spend half her time in hiding
her inner self she'd show

She was made for greater pursuits
than her mirror and her loves
For she has greater pursuiter
Unending love from above
Love with power to heal
to remove her blinding scales
Love reaches out ot hold her
though she fears, It never fails

This love will never give up
even when beauty tries to curse
This love increases her value
the consequences reversed
She'll dance and sing and shower beauty
her confidence from within
The hope of glory has reedemed her
the beauty of Christ within

No more hiding, wake up sleeping beauty
there'll always be remaining glances
Your beauty,it captivates us
caught up in His dances
Your eyes are on your maker
His cross beam now your mirror
Your outside beauty trickles
from your inner beauty river!

More Good News...Because I have a good God ;)

ja...2008, 2008, 2008, new beginnings.

GOD IS sooooo faithful, so faithful. I have to give Him glory. I do normally but at least I can do it unreservedly :)

I have more news but just a recap

Monday, January 7, 2008
A kick in the butt in the right direction...

"Only question of course is what I'm going to do, there are many options, study teaching, go fulltime in youth ministry,etc.etc..."

Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Who am I Lord?

I know who I am not, I know that I am not an IT person, I know that i am able to understand and analyse and be logical and get things in class that even amazes me but I know that I am not an IT person, I know my heart doesnt beat for computers :)
But who am I? Right now that is a crucical question, I have peace about leaving even joy. But to where? That is and has always been the question :)
Lord help me to listen in this season, I know you speak, I need to listen.

wooooooohooooooooooooooo God is awesome, awesome, awesome.

Psalm 103 Of David.
1 Praise the LORD, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits-
3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

Anyway, now I dont have much time left to blog long so will just say

In answer to those questions, God has just opened the doors, I've been delivered of things I've been struggling with for years, I've been able to start doing fulltime ministry, that opened the door for me to teach at my old high school and get paid for what I would have been volunteering for, and got that job just in time to pay for my doc appt. which I hadnt been able to make it for since last year cause didnt have all the money. And have read the bible from Gen to Chronicles and all the while as I've been reading I've been growing, in confidence and in faith (makes me think now of that scripture that says Faith comes by hearing and hearing the word of God)and started to say but Hey if God is in me then surely this body should be getting healed, and hadnt been on tablets since about last dec because didnt have money and I've been fine, the weekedns I was too busy not reading the word, rushing and doing too much, had slight pain in my hand but the moment i picked up the bible the monday the pain left...So I was looking forward to my Aug 27 appointment with Dr Pont, my rheumatologist... :) Also a bit anxious the day but on inspection she said there is no need to put me back on the tablets at this stage, and the next day after getting blood test results she said that inflammation in my body is normal and my RF is low 30 something which is much lower :)...So medically my RA is in remission, Spiritually GOD has healed me ....:) And just when I got a bit impatient about the other aspect of my life in the men dept. God just gave me this peace about waiting on him again and i changed my desktop to the pic that I had made in the beginning of the year for my desktop and when I got to church that day we learnt a new song which also answered and encouraged me in the revelation i had had that morning.

Those who wait upon the Lord
Shall renew their strength in our God!...

KEEP ON WAITING ON THE LORD
KEEP ON WAITING ON THE LORD
KEEP ON WAITING ON THE LORD

The more I wait on God,the more I grow and renew my strength. :) ANd I know if I look at 2008 so far, there is now way I could have made what has happened to me happen in my own strenght or ability, and how long have I been praying Lord what is my purpose!!!And this is the year he made it work...And even in answer to the 5 children, I can always adopt. and that is something I have been wanting to do and if you think about it I too am adopted, my dad didnt just marry my mother but adopted me :)

and my relationship with my sis and family is just growing ;)

What more can I say. I serve a good God, a faithful God, a loving God, a patient God, a gentleman God...

13if we are faithless,
he will remain faithful,
for he cannot disown himself

He has shown me this...That he is faithful, even when I am not, faithful and committed to my life :)

I love you Lord. Bless you Lord!.

Chan

p.s some sayings
"Faithful God even if we are not"
" Don't mumble and grumble, Be HUMBLE"