You see my problem....

and this is just the one hanging side...and i'm having seperation anxiety...



but even though i just wore it twice, what shoes will i wear with the pink 3/4 pants and shirt...???

At the same time, I think my cupboard, my life and my weight is bursting at the seams so I have to get rid of some of it

Job...

I blogged on Esther the other day, but then it didnt save the draft and the computer bombed when I tried to post it but will have to update all the previous books a next time. But just want to blog my current readings and observations. Began Job last night. And just read chapter 1. and then so far today 2 - 4.

But anyway...let me share my revelations about Job so far...

Before Job, what God has really been impressing on my heart was the difference between EVERYBODY and the people that were after God's heart and the measure of how much they followed and wanted all of God's ways to be done was the measure of in a sense His kingdom coming... Like in Kings/Chronicles. There were some who did God's will (or as the word says they followed in the ways of their father david) BUT they did not remove the high places, so you'd see that their children or grandchilren end up serving idols...and then there were those who wholeheartedly served God and went on to change the whole community as well... but then at sometimes for some pride crept in etc, and for others they stayed on the path... But for me reading that God really impressed his pattern and ways, it was about dependancy on God in everything and in every season of life, not just some of the time but all of the time (king solomon was some of the time and it lead to the splitting of the kingdom)...

So I read Ezra and Nehemiah and Esther (will blog about that shortly) and this sense of really seeking God's face, favour,etc, is still strongly impressed. for success in terms of being the person God wants. And then I get to Job...


Job1

1 In the land of Uz there lived a man whose name was Job. This man was blameless and upright; he feared God and shunned evil. 2 He had seven sons and three daughters, 3 and he owned seven thousand sheep, three thousand camels, five hundred yoke of oxen and five hundred donkeys, and had a large number of servants. He was the greatest man among all the people of the East.

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8 Then the LORD said to Satan, "Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil."

(Even God considered Job to be one of his best servants at the time...!)

Job was already living the right life, and had all that he valued taken away from him, from his children, his animals, and later his health. What was his response.

20 At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship 21 and said:
"Naked I came from my mother's womb,
and naked I will depart. [c]
The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
may the name of the LORD be praised."

22 In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing

So before this I was saying that to live right and to be the child of God God wants me to be I need to seek him, I need to live blamelessly, etc.etc. But then along comes Job who is doing all of that already, and yet it didnt mean life was perfect...But even when disaster hit and everything fell apart for him, his response

was still worship. May the name of the Lord be praised. Regardless of what was happening and losing everything He still worshipped God.

This bible reading is really teaching me what God wants from us. I cant say I am even close to being where I should be but I thank God for His ways and teaching me through His word and His spirit for working in me the character that I desire...

Today's thought...

This is so inline with where I am at today...God your will be done in my life. In fact even the scripture I had quoted to someone the other day.

Small Straws In A Soft Wind by Marsha Burns -- September 30, 2008:

This is not a time to be hasty in your decisions. Nor would it benefit you to react emotionally to the things that require your attention. This is a time to get quiet and to come into My presence to find wisdom and guidance. Your most urgent need at the moment is to find rest for your soul that has been bombarded by stressful demands and expenditures of physical and emotional energy. Come to Me to be refreshed and restored, says the Lord.

Psalm 103:2-5 Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits: Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases, Who redeems your life from destruction, Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies, Who satisfies your mouth with good things, so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

(also reading and being challenged by Living Water by Brother Yun and began book of Job which I will blog shortly...)

A date with destiny...

I dont know if it really is, but I felt that way today when meeting this lady for one of Drayc's projects, just the connection between my life and some of what she was sharing, and even the fact that her children were at holiday club. But at the same time, what I was also seeing and asking God for a while now but thinking again today is wanting to get to that point where u not just dreaming but really taking hold of the things, and not saying if, or but, but yes God, I'm going for this... I dont know if that comes in time, age, or God's favour or all, but i wanna mature in that area. Cause there are too many ideas and dreams that just dont materialize... because of fear/pride/etc...

Also chatted and encouraged a guy working at the garage shop today. The usual feeling afterwards, did I do the right thing in terms of chatting so long to a guy, who I know is receiving some of what I am saying but at the same time, do I want to be the only friend and i'm female that he has...But I have decided to let that be Gods worry.God will add more friends and guy friends to his life and I'll share when I can and if I'm comfortable and if not what God wants he will let me know. Just wish guys would give more of themselves to other guys.I suppose it's the same with girls

Update, Update...

* listening to, Stronger -Hillsong -This is Our God....

* Just found out the favourite paint pattern (moyo's on my face) and on one of my favourite pics (first pic, second pic only gives u more of a view of the full pic), means maiden, aka single and looking. the second description being the one everyone knows :) lol. Today was the heritage day celebration at church, it was quite funny at first I teased Ronelle for dressing in another culture, and then I felt left out a bit, not seriously but decided to get in on it too and made my necklase a head band and got a nice purple/pink sarong from one of the girls. Lastly was offered Mopani worms and Pap (which i still havent eaten yet) and I was like No way. and went around offering all the other coloured people which had ten million and one reasons as to why they wouldnt eat it, and me, and then tried Mervyn who immediately popped it in his mouth and crunched it in my face. Anyway, in retrospect I think I should have braved it,so can survive if I go on missions.... But then again should have been mentally prepared. Next Heritage day here I come...




* Also really good about this day. Stansilla got baptised...And it turns out the only other people getting baptised were also youth, Grade 9 and grade 7, awesome hey!

* hung for a short while at Kelly's house and got pink on my nails and with my colouring i must say it looks a bit shocking. also read something cool on her wall... cause been feeling irritated with people who do things for themselves firstly, at the expense of other more important things. But what it said on her wall that good friend dont find(look for) mistakes in other friends, etc.etc. but run from that, or overlook,etc...Just it shouldnt be the first thing i see of those closest to me...

a weight off my back...

Today just went around sorting out stuff. Blogging so in case I forget where all my money went off i can look back on here and remember...

Firstly went to take id photos, then went to traffic department to apply for a new licence (and temporary) which cost R140. The guy was helpful, they don't normally do this work on Fridays.From there I went to pay my blood tests. R310...(the last in a long time!) From there went to collect Ziyanda's dvd in Milnerton then from there went to tech and ordered new student card, which is a bit messed up so I have to go back again, but while paying for that decided to just pay R250 towards the R6000 that I still owe them. Not much, but definitely feel good about paying this off. Now waiting to find out where a friend who approached me about a job opportunity is....

Finished Esther, will be blogging about that soon...

Top 10 Junkfood Options :) in no particular order

Current Favourites (may be old time favourites too)

1 McDonalds (mcdonalds isnt my first option though!
Big Mac Meal no doubt
2 Spur
Guacamole Burger (gaucomole on the side, extra basting on the side, no onion rings just chips, drink with the meal) (and if ribs was cheaper then maybe that instead)
3Mugg&Bean Zevenwacht
Nachos (extra mushroom and chicken)
4KFC
Chicky Meal - the burger and orange juice (perhaps order an extra piece of chicken)
5Steers
Rave Burger with extra cheese, chips and a coke
6Debonairs
Sweet and sour chicken/chicken and mushroom (barbecue sauce)
7Marcels Frozen Yoghurt
Blizzard English toffee, with half flake half fudge and half hot caramel put on afterwards
8 Wimpy
Cheese burger meal
9 Nandos
Pineapple Cheese burger
10 Stikland/Karibas/(and in Cape Town) Lusitania
Chip Roll only white salt and vinegar, no sauce, nothing extra,e.g tomato and garnish