Not going any more and other stuff..

so it didnt work out and i am eagerly trying to sell the ticket i have already bought. However i am sooo lookng forward to that leave, having not taken leave for personal reasons other than studies and sickness this year...

am thinking of starting an organizing blog, inspired by Marcia Francois. keep you posted.

If anyone actually reads this pls pray for me, going through a phase where Im being challenged everyday in areas and not seeing the breakthrough...

But my God is faithful amazing and I love him so mcuh

I'm going to Petermaritzburg (In a singing voice)

YEEEAAAH!

And Durban for one day...(1st time and 1st time in that province)And maybe even stop over in Port Elizabeth but we'll see about that one..Exciting that I'll be in PMB for a sunday so get to experience their His People church :) Hope Colleen them are there, and Aunty Ursula and Uncle Sharrel but if not It's still cool. Candice will be with too. YEAH.

Booked my flight with Mango Airlines. (Last time went with the lime green plane this time with the bright orange one!)Going with Jason and when we come back with Lize it will be Lize, Jason, Candice and me!...

So excited :) :) Something to smile about...(or should i say another thing to smile about)

Need to get my camera fixed!KZN here I come!

Just another song written this year I think? Intricate Detail

Intricate Detail

Before there was me, you predestined me
You determined my destiny
Before I was born, your eyes, they saw me
You wove my unformed body in the womb

chorus
Intricrate Detail, Every hair accounted for
Love without measure, The cross not to much to pay
Angels to keep me, You determine every step I take
God how you love us, You watching over me...

And when I fell, your hands they lifted me
Your blood has washed away my sin
My heart was broken, but in compassion you healed me
As I receive, You come to live within

You watch over me (repeat)


chan(2007)

Dont Give Up - I hope my life speaks

there is a story behind this one, (coming soon!) but basically wrote this and it turns out this is what I need to share with someone else...

Don't Give Up

I hope my life speaks
I hope it gives you a different ending
A different picture
To the one you see

I hope that you see the colour
Even just a glimpse of hope
I hope you will hold on
I hope you know you’ll make it
I did

I hope you’ll let go of the hurt
Let go of the reasons and reasonings
I hope that you’ll know you not alone

I hope you find an ounce of strength
I hope you’ll reach out
I hope you don’t believe the lie
That it’s not worth it

You are more than worth it
You are precious beyond what you can see
You are loved beyond measure
I hope you can see the glimmer of light
Even though ur world is dark
I hope you’ll feel the bit of sun
Even as you drenched in rain

Don’t give up, it’s not worth it
You are more than worth it
I made it and I will not give up on you making it
You can dream
You can hope
You will make it

-chan 11/2007

morning word again...

Psalm 24: 3 - 4

3 Who may ascend the hill of the LORD ?
Who may stand in his holy place?

4 He who has clean hands and a pure heart,
who does not lift up his soul to an idol
or swear by what is false.

Had a revelation in the car on the way to work about this scripture.... (and the song)

Why Clean Hands and a Pure heart...?

Clean Hands = equals what you do, (not quick to shed blood), not doing wrong with these hands, doing the right thing with this hands, in otherwords my life. May my life be right, clean, may I reflect you, in what I do?

Pure Heart = The Motive the heart behind what I do, without the pure heart I could become legalistic or think I am right by the good deeds that I do yet in my heart it is done for the wrong reasons or pride creeps in. But if my heart is submitted to his Lordship, bowed down within, filled with his love, if God roots out the impurities, if I love others, if I allow God to repeatedly inspect my heart and the motives of my heart, then a clean hand life will flow out of that.

Oh God, give me clean hands and a pure heart! in the name of Jesus.

Amen

Morning WORD

My train ride was cool. I asked God that I could have a nice quiet time session and that he would direct my paths, my day and my ride who I end up with. I ended up speeding to the station and sprinting from my car making it just in time to jump on the 7h30 train that stopped at the station. The next one is only 8 so if you miss that you are in a predicament.

I ended up chatting to my cousins friend from school who apparantly listens to Crefflo dollar and stuff although I recall she lived a hectic life, but it was such a nice chat that I took her no and stuff... After that I was reading Numbers because I noticed that ps keeps speaking about Joshua and Caleb and on Monday's meeting he read from there, anyway, I read, but God took me right back to Exodus 20.

The Ten Commandments....

Do you know what happens before and after (I realised this would make a great childrens church lesson) God comes on Mount Sinai in Smoke it looks like a Fire burning on the mountain. Anyone who touches the mountain would die... Moses is the only one who is allowed to go up.

Afterwards the people are so fearful they tell Moses, from now on you speak to us, dont let God speak to us.... And he says No dont be afraid. God is just allowing us to have the fear of him so we would keep from sinning...

What I find awesome about the old testament is that it's like learning something from experience vs revelation... We know alot of the new testament, but when we read stories like this we get the background or where that is coming from...That even right there, God is wanting the people to know him...Even though he is scary to them, Moses says no dont be afraid.

Cause when I read the fire part, I thought about the song Fire Burns.... And how His Fire burns within us, like the Fire burned on the mountain when God gave Moses the commandments. And that is why God says to us, his commandments should now be within our hearts, written on the tablets of our hearts because His fire now is within, not on a Holy mountain...

Also another cool part I read and Joshua was mentioned there was the description of the tent of meeting. It was a place where all the israelites could go and meet and inquire of the Lord. But only when Moses went in the pillar of God would come down and stand at the entrance of the tent, and the people that saw this would worship God...But what was so awesome is the section ends with "Then Moses would return to the camp, but his young assistant Joshua son of Nun did not leave the tent."

I dont know if others had read right into Exodus about Joshua, but there was this young assistant lingering around the tent while and after Moses had left, then already God had prepared a future for Joshua and Joshua was just enjoying God. Sounds similar to the story of David...

May we realise that it's these stolen moments with God,that sets us up for Gods future for us... But also that there is a foundation to the things he tells us, that although in Proverbs it says the Fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, if you go right back to Exodus, Moses says dont be afraid, God is just testing you and allowing his fear to keep us from sinning....

Lastly... Moses told God

If your presence does not go with us, do not send us from here.... What will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?"

Numbers 6:22

The Lord bless you and KEEP you
The Lord make His face to shine upon you
and be gracious to you;

The Lord turrn his face towards you
and give you peace."

whats up with me this weekend...

Hopefully will get my breakthrough tomorrow (today) but It's 1:20 AM and I'm still up and not wanting to sleep...Kinda want alone time this weekend, though lifegroup was great, but for me when I see it happening then that's really fruit...

Anyway hope I meet with you today, Lord... However I guesss that means drawing near to you. And also hope to spend qt soon with G. God's just connecting me with so many great girls...