Monday, December 31, 2012

Thankfulness... and last day of 2012

So on my second last day of 2012, (Sun 30 December) I was in the pit of all pits, after feeling for a while like my life is not making sense, and if this is a movie about my life you would not like the end of it. Was feeling lonely, aware of all my weaknesses, shortcomings and failures, and struggling to connect with God too...

Asked a friend to join me the night to pray, and another friend contacted me in the middle of me going through a slump, and so I said she should come over, she came over and we prayed, and this was the beginning of things changing. My mentor also invited me to join her in 2 days of thankfulness (with other things, not going to write on here till it's over) and she told me about Bill Johnson's book Strengthen yourself in the Lord, and I figured, he may have preached about gratitude in one of his strenght sermons that I have.
I found one, and it was all about worshipping God in the midst of the situation that you going through, and not for the situation, but for who He is. Not just worshiping when you have breakthru, but not for breakthrough too, but because he is worthy. Not because of who I am, but because of Who He is.

This made a lot of sense, because I was sulking and complaining because of my unworthiness... And the result was pushing me further away from God. So I started praising God, for who he is... And that has changed everything, I went to bed smiling, I woke up smiling...I am full of faith for the future and I am trusting. Thank You Lord. For who you are...

I don't know if I will make a thousand, but will begin on Some - inspired by: http://www.benijohnson.blogspot.com/2011/04/1000-things-to-be-thankful-for.html
Gonna go for 100 today (#ok will continue if I want to...)

I am thankful:
  1. For who you are, Lord
  2. For Your  faithfulness towards me
  3. For Grace
  4. For Judy
  5. For Liz's intervention yesterday
  6. For Maria and Aunty Jose
  7. For my mom's consistant being there for me
  8. For Danelle winning Miss Congeniality
  9. For Nicole's gentleness and care
  10. For my Father putting Christ first
  11. For his health
  12. For my Job
  13. For a bonus
  14. For new friends through my collegues
  15. For Adolf and our friendship and sharing
  16. For the great awesome birthday/christmas gifts got from him
  17. For the joy of giving others presents, esp this year having money to give them
  18. For the christmas party in Elsies
  19. For the sweet children and that girl who said thank you so humbly
  20. For Audrey's Mom's heartfelt prayer
  21. For strength to keep giving
  22. For provision to give
  23. For being able to move out
  24. For winetasting at Zevenwacht on Saturday
  25. For chiprolls
  26. For the 2 kilos I lost, for drinking water and walking and enjoying it
  27. For grace to be more health concious
  28. For awesome holy spirit and love of God times when East London team was here
  29. For my dream being interpreted when Bethel team was here
  30. For growing in spiritual warfare and deliverence when bethel was here
  31. For learning about releasing healing and commanding sickness to Go
  32. For awesome community in hop times
  33. For Stephanie and Gershwin getting married
  34. For funny moments and being able to laugh at it, e.g. mailing the whole work place
  35. For seeing zebras mate and going on a game drive at Buffelsfontein
  36. For Heidi
  37. For prayertimes at work as collegues
  38. For seeing Ruth and Sveva this year!
  39. For new lifesaver friends, Vilana and Renaldo
  40. For Vilana getting saved!
  41. For some breakthrough for Ilze
  42. For Ammy getting saved and adding to our lives, and God just constantly intervening
  43. For being able to buy a monitor
  44. For dealing with the mouse/or attempting to however hard it was
  45. For learning to enjoy new foods, and buy my own cheese and stuff
  46. For the specials and awesome christmas trimmings
  47. For Ps Wolfgang from EN London's sermon reminding me about Jesus himself
  48. For a change from night to day from yesterday to today
  49. For the praise and joy in my heart
  50. For awesome Bethel cd's, sermons, and meeting teams and being challenged in my own bedrooms
  51. For praying more in tongues this year
  52. For making stew and food I havent made before
  53. For having at times all sorts of meet in my fridge
  54. For Mcdonalds breakfasts
  55. For going to Sun City and good family time
  56. For grace in family relationships
  57. For mom and dad transforming my place into a more livable place
  58. For seeing God speak to me through dreams
  59. For growing relationships with some people in Church, Ps bev, michael, etc
  60. For breakthrough's in intimacy as a church
  61. For Jenny Ah Chong's cd :)
  62. For Jenn Johnsons passionate worship, Glimpse - Jason Upton, and Heaven invading Earth
  63. For work not being too technical and being able to understand
  64. For passing my ITIL despite all my procrastination
  65. For God helping me have rythm at staff party
  66. For healing a work relationship
  67. For favour in workplace with people here and abroad
  68. For Morrisons chocolate
  69. For Italian chocolate Sveva came
  70. For being able to serve, hang with Maria, Ruth and Debs mom, and taste pudim de leite
  71. For beginning of year  awesome times with deborah and her being here when I got the job
  72. For being able to attend Ruth and Herschel's wedding, and peaceful Mosselbay time
  73. For going away for the first time for a weekend away with big group of friends (dont mean a holiday in the past)
  74. For my hair finally coming right
  75. For being asked to be a partner
  76. For learning lots
  77. For experiencing Your presence
  78. For winning the chopping board
  79. For provision in the little,e.g gifts like shower jel which comes handy.
  80. For awesome gifts too from friends, wine glasses, etc...
  81. For nice times with clayton, tania, sam and carlo and judy
  82. For great times with Selina, liz, lezah, anthea, etc..
  83. For being able to go and experience new places, Darling, Franschoek, Paarl
  84. For random bored Sunday moments with Renaldo, Vilana, etc
  85. For flying in the aeroplane and the girl I met
  86. For health! No flu this year
  87. For little signposts that I am where I am meant to be at work
  88. For the night of the Lloyds at HOP
  89. For my awesome birthday experience at surfside, the grace on the whole day, relationships, food, everything...
  90. For good steak!
  91. For improving family relationships
  92. For the simple joy of watching a movie in my place
  93. For the simple pleasures of entertaining people or taking people on a tour of Kuils River
  94. For the nice time at Zevenwacht with Shaheen and Judy and connections there
  95. For releasing alot of the past church hurt
  96. For Nicole getting a better Job and Danelle's life moving in a positive direction in terms of career and her passions
  97. For some breakthrough for Ronelle too and Shakita passing
  98. For being able to go to Paul Manwaring conference
  99. For christmas message, purpose heart being special
  100. For freedom!
  101. For psychology sessions, and little miracles there too! Marius Falk
  102. For Tina Engel friendship and outings
  103. For closerness with Jodie
  104. For my extended family Boonzaaier and De Wet and all special moments with them
  105. For seeing Ilze Brown and Brent and his 21st
  106. Zevenwacht Wine Farm
  107. Mom's birthday
  108. Boxed Canvas specials

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