I hope it wasn't so but if it was...?

I hate being the rebound girl

Bad day yesterday...& thought for the day

Lets start with thought for the day:

I hope to never complain again when God gives me a  spirit of peace, instead of laughing, falling over, etc.etc...Cause its' really his supernatural peace that carried me this weekend it really was unexplainable the peace,and i think ti was God doing that so mom's birthday and stuff will be a blessed experience,and Monday that peace (manifested peace) gone again. So now in the struggles and relational stuff I am facing I say Lord, please give me once again, your peace that passes all understanding in Jesus Name...

Now for yesterday:

Well,the day started with communion. Then a disappointment (will not elaborate more here). Then went to Zevenwacht mall to change shoes and do some other things.

1) Banked money (but forgot that mom gave me money too to buy stuff afterwards) so banked too much.
2) Lost phone in toilet (prayed and got it back)
3) ordered food as hadn't eaten since breakfast, only after ate, realised about mom's money. so had to use my remaining money to buy her shopping with, was 50c short,fortunately the cashier allowed me to buy.
4) popped in at someone in Northpine seeing as I was thats side of the world and dont have petrol to drive thru othertimes.
5) got into trouble for coming late with the goods.
6) shoes i went to swop don't fit anyway
7) got negative attitude about almost losing phone and money and everything(didnt even say everything)....(this all happened today now) so bit sad/mad/ but now am choosing instead

to pray for God's peace that passes all understanding...

Profound Question

Do you want to be free?

about love

• Learning in couples i see confidence between each other, being fully themselves and accepting the other person for who they are, one partner isn't trying too hard to impress the other, cause love doesnt have to be forced. Also friendship...my cell leader mails his wife during the day, when something happens and he wants to tell somebody the first friend that he thinks to tell is her...it's not His WIFE, then friends, His wife is his friend.
• Don't want to be like Calley in Grey's with George...
• Hope that I dont keep learning all this stuff in theory then when relationship or temptation or opportunities come I still act in my own way. but Lord thank you for growth and grace so far!

Romans 1:1-17

7 To all in Rome who are loved by God and called to be his holy people:
Grace and peace to you from God our Father and from the Lord Jesus Christ.

 ¹¹ I long to see you so that I may impart to you some spiritual gift to make you strong— ¹² that is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other’s faith.
Similiar to Hebrews 10 :24 ²⁴ And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, ²⁵ not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.  - Saying the same thing. which highlights the importance of building one another up, encouraging one another...

 in order that I might have a harvest among you
fruitfullness, souls?

14 I am obligated both to Greeks and non-Greeks, both to the wise and the foolish. 15 That is why I am so eager to preach the gospel also to you who are in Rome.

for everyone, wise, foolish. why is it that people only go to poor areas to preach, not saying dont' go, i'm saying don't limit where God wants to go? secondly are the greeks the wise? Just pondering cause at the moment my heart going out ot all the problems in greece.

¹⁶ For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile
the gospel is hte POWER OF GOD that brings salvation to everyone that believes. WOW...not just the story we always here, not just truth, but in sharing the gospel you are sharing the power of God that brings salvation to that person who believes...

17 For in the gospel the righteousness of God is revealed—a righteousness that is by faith from first to last,[e] just as it is written: “The righteous will live by faith.”[f]

awesome, awesome, awesome. Righteousness of God, not of me...and it is by faith for the first to the last all! living by faith in God.we receive righteousness...the gospel (good news about Jesus) reveals the righteousness of God! In JESUS we are made righteous!
In Conclusion...

Our walk with God, our faith is a powerful thing, we know the power of God to bring salvation to the lives of others...And God has given us this so that it can be given to Greeks non greeks, wise, poor whoever!whoever believes.. We also need to build one another up. Our righteousness comes from God not from us

did you mean what you said

did you mean what you said
did you mean what you sang
was your song merely words
or emotions

to be in love....

to be in love....
yet to be unsure of the Lord's will.

to love someone,
yet to know that if you hold on you may be hurting them or you?

to have their love returned
yet to know that you have to let it go even if you treasure it so much.

This is all extremely hard, because I do love him.

I have always done the wrong thing in the past. Now I am trying and occasionally failing but trying to do the right thing and the right thing hurts and is scary. I have to let go, but does letting go mean losing someone I actually value?

Or does letting go mean letting go so I can let God interven so that His ways that are higher than my ways can kick in and even maybe redeem this relationship.


I don't have answers. I just have wisdom, love, questions, fears.

Lord give me the strength to do the right thing. Its so scary cause I don't want someone else. But I know that doing things in my own way may lead to disaster regardless. Whether it's him or no one or someone else, God needs to direct it.

Lord help me love. Putting the my needs and desires second to his. Being a blessing instead of a curse. Help me Lord!