to be in love....

to be in love....
yet to be unsure of the Lord's will.

to love someone,
yet to know that if you hold on you may be hurting them or you?

to have their love returned
yet to know that you have to let it go even if you treasure it so much.

This is all extremely hard, because I do love him.

I have always done the wrong thing in the past. Now I am trying and occasionally failing but trying to do the right thing and the right thing hurts and is scary. I have to let go, but does letting go mean losing someone I actually value?

Or does letting go mean letting go so I can let God interven so that His ways that are higher than my ways can kick in and even maybe redeem this relationship.


I don't have answers. I just have wisdom, love, questions, fears.

Lord give me the strength to do the right thing. Its so scary cause I don't want someone else. But I know that doing things in my own way may lead to disaster regardless. Whether it's him or no one or someone else, God needs to direct it.

Lord help me love. Putting the my needs and desires second to his. Being a blessing instead of a curse. Help me Lord!