The Grace to be Gracious...

Uuuhhhmmmmmuururrggghhh Sigh...

That is me introspectively looking inside of me, and feeling I don't have love or grace in me to be gracious, yet that is what my names mean and what he gives me all the time Grace...grace despite my mistakes, shortcomings...So why can't I be gracious to others and is it not maybe that some of the grace he is giving me is to be gracious to others...

*frustration from not understanding...

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Ek het jou nodig, hier by my heeldag, die wêreld oorbodig.
Ons twee 'n taakmag, niks kan ons keer.
Hy's in beheer, Hy's ons Weerman, Stuurman, Leidsman.


Holy Spirit,
Rest Upon me
Make all that is not of you flee
As Your anointing breaks yokes.

Conundrums.

I press into you,
You press into me
Discernment is heightened
All muck is revealed.

The world is insensitive.
or if I euphamize it, street smart.
things outside seem volatile
far from the peace in my heart

Yet as I respond to your beckoning
you trully are my safe place
For this grace I am grateful
Now allow myself in your embrace

The worlds between how God sees me and how people see me.

I've been struggling recently with this a little. It seems whenever I am lonely from people, God affirms me even more, yet I do struggle with how can what God be saying is true, when I get the exact opposite response from people. And yet I know God loves me, and yet I love myself... That is not the question here. And yet why do I care? And yet do I want to fit into the worlds way, or am I bigger than that...?

I think the issue comes in when I open up to new things. I'm totally fine, on my own. Ok, that is an exaggeration, but truth be told, I enjoy reading, blogging, dreaming, watching series now, etc... Doing my own thing. I am found when I'm with God, I receive, he makes me " When the time comes, I'll be the one asking why...Why did I ever doubt you"... So when I'm in him, I am content... but then when I open up to relationships, I am always dissappointed when dissappointment comes. Maybe its cause I dont expect it. Or maybe its cause I'm stepping out and taking a risk...But why does it seem everyone else fits in so much easier, Why does it seem that others aren't walking alone...

And why I am I focused on the nots (nao's), instead of the ares...(Ser/Estar's)

Because the truth is God is doing pretty amazing things in my life at the moment, and I am sad at a few things people didn't do...

Lord, please help me in this.

In Blue Like Jazz, he says Jazz Music doesn't resolve...and Yet it seems thats sometimes what I want in my life...

Your will be done my Lord. Your kingdom Come.

Chan

Meus Spoonerisms

So funny did it again this morning... Instead of Shanghai Chicken I said Changhai Shicken...

The other day it was Acon and Begg.

Previously Bappy Hirthday...

I will keep adding more as I discover I do it.

Travel

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Ignoring things doesn't make it better. It seems so at first, but then should it occur again, the frustration comes out even more.
Dealing with things doesn't make it better either, in fact it makes it worse.
I don't know what to do.

Aprendo Portugues

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