Profound Question

Do you want to be free?

about love

• Learning in couples i see confidence between each other, being fully themselves and accepting the other person for who they are, one partner isn't trying too hard to impress the other, cause love doesnt have to be forced. Also friendship...my cell leader mails his wife during the day, when something happens and he wants to tell somebody the first friend that he thinks to tell is her...it's not His WIFE, then friends, His wife is his friend.
• Don't want to be like Calley in Grey's with George...
• Hope that I dont keep learning all this stuff in theory then when relationship or temptation or opportunities come I still act in my own way. but Lord thank you for growth and grace so far!

Romans 1:1-17

7 To all in Rome who are loved by God and called to be his holy people:
Grace and peace to you from God our Father and from the Lord Jesus Christ.

 ¹¹ I long to see you so that I may impart to you some spiritual gift to make you strong— ¹² that is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other’s faith.
Similiar to Hebrews 10 :24 ²⁴ And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, ²⁵ not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.  - Saying the same thing. which highlights the importance of building one another up, encouraging one another...

 in order that I might have a harvest among you
fruitfullness, souls?

14 I am obligated both to Greeks and non-Greeks, both to the wise and the foolish. 15 That is why I am so eager to preach the gospel also to you who are in Rome.

for everyone, wise, foolish. why is it that people only go to poor areas to preach, not saying dont' go, i'm saying don't limit where God wants to go? secondly are the greeks the wise? Just pondering cause at the moment my heart going out ot all the problems in greece.

¹⁶ For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile
the gospel is hte POWER OF GOD that brings salvation to everyone that believes. WOW...not just the story we always here, not just truth, but in sharing the gospel you are sharing the power of God that brings salvation to that person who believes...

17 For in the gospel the righteousness of God is revealed—a righteousness that is by faith from first to last,[e] just as it is written: “The righteous will live by faith.”[f]

awesome, awesome, awesome. Righteousness of God, not of me...and it is by faith for the first to the last all! living by faith in God.we receive righteousness...the gospel (good news about Jesus) reveals the righteousness of God! In JESUS we are made righteous!
In Conclusion...

Our walk with God, our faith is a powerful thing, we know the power of God to bring salvation to the lives of others...And God has given us this so that it can be given to Greeks non greeks, wise, poor whoever!whoever believes.. We also need to build one another up. Our righteousness comes from God not from us

did you mean what you said

did you mean what you said
did you mean what you sang
was your song merely words
or emotions

to be in love....

to be in love....
yet to be unsure of the Lord's will.

to love someone,
yet to know that if you hold on you may be hurting them or you?

to have their love returned
yet to know that you have to let it go even if you treasure it so much.

This is all extremely hard, because I do love him.

I have always done the wrong thing in the past. Now I am trying and occasionally failing but trying to do the right thing and the right thing hurts and is scary. I have to let go, but does letting go mean losing someone I actually value?

Or does letting go mean letting go so I can let God interven so that His ways that are higher than my ways can kick in and even maybe redeem this relationship.


I don't have answers. I just have wisdom, love, questions, fears.

Lord give me the strength to do the right thing. Its so scary cause I don't want someone else. But I know that doing things in my own way may lead to disaster regardless. Whether it's him or no one or someone else, God needs to direct it.

Lord help me love. Putting the my needs and desires second to his. Being a blessing instead of a curse. Help me Lord!

hey hey

Who would think that going without food actually makes you stronger :) But isn't that how God works, saying when you put aside your desires, carnal, needs, etc, for a moment, a time, a season, then I will come through and be your bread, your provision, your strenth. Fasting works people. This is coming from someone who sometimes is lazy to fast, more when I'm out of it, then hard to get back in. But this past 3 weeks, I've seen God coming through, I've seen him work, I've seen him change things, despite my mistakes, failure,etc.etc, simply because of surrending through fasting. Lord, I love you! And I thank you for your amazing strength and grace. Even as I write this, usually my heart would be shattering because of what is occuring in my personal life, but amazingly I am just depending on God and as he comes through and fills me up more, that causes me to depend even more, I am not trying to figure things out when I'm on my mine, replaying events and conversations,etc. I am just doing what I must, and thinking on God, surrendering. It doesnt always feel good, I am having a cold at the same time, so physically not feeling lekka either, BUT, I am blessed. And this in itself is amazing,so Lord thank YOU for your faithfulness, and for being there for me. If I allow myself to delve into the series of events, it doesnt make sense at all, yes there are some big basics we have let go of, and compromised in that could have led to all this muck and leaves uncertainty about the future BUT, at the same time, no matter how I try to do things with sincerity, or the right thing, or with good intentions, it just doesnt work out, and I dont know how to fix things, resolve things, clarify things, move on even, when focused on these things. I am sad that friendships that I have had has to come to this point and the hoper in me hopes that it will be redeemed despite our own choices not on a romantic level but a general friendship I wish the best for you, you wish the best for me as it always was. I do not wish anything to leave behind bitterness, mistrust, fear, and I know when dont deal with things properly thats where it can lead to. But learning to lift my head above this, not look to this, but look to God find my beauty, my confidence, my joy, my strength, my"strenght for today, and bright hope for tomorrow" in HIM, in no one else but him, and he will work together all things for my good. It may hurt, it may not make sense, but as psalm 46 says I will make the Lord my refuge and be still and know he is my God. I am casting my cares upon him for HE cares for me.

Lord thank you for your most amazing faithfulness towards me. Lord I cling to you and love you

Chan

this season

i dont know
i dont know where to go
i dont know how to fix things
i dont know all the answers
i dont know how to make it
i dont know, I dont know

what i've seen
is when i give up
he can work and move

so even in my i don't knows
i'm giving up
God work and move
God keep the pieces of my heart together
And heal me once again

God help me in my relationship with others
Help them in their relationship with me
But mostly God,hold me.
So that I can be ok, even when I don't know.