Thursday, June 20, 2013

Reading the Fathers

Been on an interesting journey, connecting the dots, learning more, but thought I'd pause to blog some of my thoughts and what stood out for me during this research phase I am going through.

In one introduction of the Life of Antony (Vita Antonii) on the blog of Read the Fathers  who was Egyptian Christian who became known as the"first ascetic to live in the wilderness.The Life tells of Antony’s life of prayer in the desert and his wrestling with demons..."

And now the part which stood out for me, in bold:

The Life of Antony is one of the two foundational texts of Western monasticism. (The other is the Rule of St. Benedict.1) Though highly valued by the medieval church, Protestant reformers scorned the text for valuing monasticism and for its accounts of the supernatural. Twenty-first-century readers, no matter whether Protestant or Catholic, are likely to read the text incredulously.

Somewhere else in all my readings which I can't find now, basically been looking at how though Martin Luther brought in Sola Scriptura (and basing things on scripture alone) how that contrasts with experiential christianity. Which really helps me to understand the lenses people look at things through.

Even reading the some out there stories, and reading the "absolute" sounding texts of the Early Fathers, and beginning for myself to understand:

The Word is central and True, but one can learn from the other stories and books written too (well not just any, not the false manuscripts), but when reading the others, see what you can learn from them but also realise that they just have one level of revelation...

For E.g. Tertullian, was the first to use the word Trinity, but also had a big beef with women. Do you throw the baby out with the bath water, no! They had revelations that I can learn from. Same even today, different churches, different nations do things differently. We don't agree with everything, but with some, and we can learn and deepen our own walk with those things.

Somewhere I think in one of Brian Zahnd 's sermons ( I hope it's there, must find it again!) he says something to the effect of " The church is both Catholic, Protestant, Evangelical, Pentecostal, etc... This is the Church.

This has been a blessing and a challenge to me. While we do not agree with all theology, we cannot reject another part of the body of Christ. I am learning to value, build on, yet see where I differ.

Also appreciative to God for suddenly bringing in my path things, books, people, music, ideas that take me deeper into him.

Found the quote: Google Search:

Tweet from Brian Zahnd:

The Church is Catholic, Orthodox, Anglican, Protestant, Evangelical, and Pentecostal. You can either celebrate it or be frustrated by it.


Thursday, June 13, 2013

Thankfulness at the half year mark - June 2013

*Though it really feels like it's end of Feb going to March now...

I am thankful for:

  1. working at my work place for over a year now, I made it
  2. still having the attitude of learning and growing and being challenged and enjoying it
  3. rewards
  4. housemate/friend/partnership
  5. for You Lord
  6. for Your tangible presence
  7. For hearing my prayers
  8. For new church/fellowship
  9. For learning about soaking
  10. For examples of various things in people around me
  11. For my Mom
  12. For being able to go to East London
  13. For the beauty of nature
  14. For working in my family
  15. For Aunty Charlotte's miracle
  16. For glory school, glory girls, ladies retreat
  17. For grace and intimacy
  18. For deborah's morning prayers and joy
  19. For the healings happening at revival, and for Kaedyn being touched
  20. For Firestarters
  21. For turning points
  22. For my matt redman cd
  23. For preparation
  24. For new family at funeral
  25. for Praise and worship and Hallelujahs and Jesus!!!
  26. For Hanlie's food
  27. For Hanlie!
  28. For revelation of forgiveness
  29. For Young adult ladies

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

In my Bubble

Richard Foster
Brian Zahnd
Dallas Williard
Desert Fathers
JI Packer
Brother Lawrence
Brother Andrew
Matt Redman
Jesus Culture
Bethel
Bill Johnson
Christian mysticism
Soaking
Todd Bentley
Revival
Journey of Grace
Freedom
Joy
Healing
Hope
Selflessness
Generousity
Honour.
More

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Thursday, May 23, 2013

On generational stuff and curses and and and ....

How many lies must we hear
How many lives will be stolen
How long will we let this fear
Paralyze the church
How long will these renters rule the earth
How many mothers must cry
How many children must die
How long will we just stand by
And watch a careless world
Teach our boys and girls their tyranny
God of land and sea
And the universe
Come deliver me
And every slave that lives upon the earth!
There is a new day coming and it won’t be long
There is a fire burning and a wind that’s strong
There is justice waiting for the child of God
And
It’ll all go down
It’ll all go down
It’ll all go down
Somehow
  Very Sure...

Everything That Can Be Shaken Will Be Shaken...

The Anchor Hope
The wisdom Of The Cross

- Justice Waiting - Jason Upton - 1200 ft Below Sea Level

I'm not constantly fixated on spiritual warefare, but their have been seasons that I've studied and applied and seen the truths, and times that I've had to be aware. This is one of those times.

While I'm not praying renounciation prayers every day or even every year, and I'm learning to be more focused on God's promises, the alternative of just pretending that nothing has consequences, and if you don't think of something it won't affect you is not true either...

The truth is people are being taken out by the devil, lies, and ignorance, and it's not God's fault or God just trying to teach us something. Often times there is grace, and there is light, there are signposts despite our ignorance, but claiming ignorance doesn't prevent certain situations, just as prayer for things that aren't relevant can bear fruit.

I'd rather err on bringing things before the Lord that I see, and asking and praying His will, than just allow situations to take me wherever they want.

Now my personal issue is that I'm not always taking the time to be serious and pray, or always seeing that things are an issue, but what I'm kinda addressing here is denial...

I'm not either saying there is a demon behind every doorpost, or that every action does always have a reaction. I believe there is grace, and I believe certain things have a certain impact on individuals...

But in light of recent events, where one sees a pattern, and an injustice! I ask the question why? And could this have been prevented, and I cut it off on my own life...

I also think about my grandma, where my mom and aunts have prayed for years that she would die in dignity and not in long pain or where they have to clean and wash her, when she was such an independant woman. She then did die at 81, quick, suddenly, she just had a pain earlier the day, and was up chatting till late, then collapsed in that moment. I think years of prayers gave grace for it to happen that way...

I do think we can die prematurely, I do think we can fall into situations that are bigger than us, and it takes wisdom to say Lord, what is happening from the outsiders looking in, as opposed to just saying that person made a wrong choice, or it doesn't affect us...

Even generationally, often times people will see a pattern and make a personal choice not to live that way, so when their children are born, they don't see the example the parents had,  and perhaps don't even know their grandparents, yet still the same temptations come their way and they fall... It is not always isolated.

I'm not saying all of this to say, things happen because we are cursed. I am saying this because I am saddened at "My people perish because of a lack of knowledge". I am saddened at people accepting disease because maybe God is teaching me a lesson... I'm saddened at how much God loves people and have a greater plan for them, yet  us just settling for the real world we see around us. I'm sad that pain, sickness, poverty, issues is a greater reality that the freedom promised in Christ.

And maybe even I am living from this place and not free yet....
And maybe I am passionate about this now in this blog, and then tomorrow I go back to the mundane

But for today I am aware, and reminded, to be sober minded, and to pray His promises in.

Lord I pray for your divine protection on my family and their family, whether they know it or not.

Lord I pray that what the enemy had planned will be turned around for the good of those who love the Lord.

I pray for comfort for my family members...

I pray for me and Alison and Joan, the last of my father's family line...

I pray for your heavenly protection on our lives!!! I pray for health, healing, salvation, deliverance, joy and freedom!

Lord I thank you for my Uncle knowing you, and the beauty of heaven for him! Joy Everlasting...

Amen

(and no the above is not only because of my Uncle's death's or people's questions, but a reflection on alot of things that occured this past time...)

I honestly don't have energy to personally study the spirit of jealousy/ victim spirit documents now.... But I am keeping my eyes open and including God in my life... in this season. Lead me Lord....


Miracles and Mysteries

I thought about sharing this breakthrough that occured in the past few days, then heard about my uncle passing away this morning...

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Love in the real sense of the world...

I have offered my heart countless times, even when I knew the risk, mainly because I'm not half hearted. This all or nothing me has not changed despite advice, trying to change, trying to not be. I'm still standing though. Because of an amazing God who somehow shields me despite my best attempts and prayers otherwise.

I can only hope that when the one who sticks around comes, that I will still have this soft trusting heart that I have. That I will still give my all and hope for the best!

I am coming to accept that people I think are amazing, and who have consistently shown they really are amazing, are maybe not for me. The thought of that occasionally brings a slight sadness, but there is still the glimmer of hope that maybe just maybe there is someone who is more than I can ask or imagine, as God promises... That his good and perfect will is what will make me glad, and that as amazing as some of the people seem, they do not compare to what lies ahead.

Its still hard because this artist of the heart always seem to capture beauty. If beauty is in the eye of the beholder, how do I stop seeing? Because I see. Unintentionally. Unavoidably.

Or maybe it's not to stop seeing, but how I see and what conclusions I draw from what I see. I think I've hit the nail on the head there :)

But even that is hard. I try to be realistic, but sometimes hope remains. I try to remain objective, I try to pray things away... but the "Child" in me still hopes and dreams.

I'm not going to even claim to have the answer today. It probably is deep inside somewhere today just ranting and raving, that I still see, and I still love, iow respond to what I see. And while right now I am not seeing and loving, I hope that a day will come soon where seeing and loving is okay. And when that day comes I still see and love,even to a greater measure than before.

I'm ok though, this is not an emo post :) I really am happy in Christ and life is good and growing, Just pondering Love thoughts today :)