Why don't you dig a little deeper...

Kids just love this song, even though sometimes I am tired of singing it again...But the purpose of this blog post is not to talk about children's actions songs but to share where I'm at. Digging deeper. Finally, I am beginning to understand somethings about my life...Its like when u dig u get soft soil but as u go deeper it gets to a point where the sand is so hard u have to use a pike to break it up. I've been digging and digging these years, going to DTS, victory weekends, encounter weekends, deliverance ministry, but still my life was just not working out, not the way other people's do. And people who have fairly simple lives have begun to get frustrated with me. But finally I am beginning to understand what that harder ground is, what the roots of my problems are and can deal with it...

...in God's love.

There are times that my problems overwhelm me. There are times when I say thank you for your grace. Thankyou Lord that I'm not married or have children cause u wanted to heal me first!!!

Although being where I am can be scary, today I am grateful that I am here, because I know I am not without God's love, and I know he will carry me through, even when it doesn't feel like that.

Chan

P.S...

Awesome Sara Groves song...

Hello Lord, it's me your child
I have a few things on my mind
Right now I'm faced with big decisions
And I'm wondering if you have a minute, cuz
Right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I just can't hear you.

I don't doubt your sovereignty
I doubt my own ability to
Hear what you're saying
And to do the right thing
And I desperately want to do the right thing
But right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I just can't hear you.

And somewhere in the back of my mind
I think you are telling me to wait
And though patience has never been mine
Lord, I will wait to hear from you
Oh Lord, I'm waiting on you

Right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I think you're whispering

I hope it wasn't so but if it was...?

I hate being the rebound girl