I guess the movie I watched on Mnet just coincided with this song...
I think when one thinks about Apartheid not having experienced the extremeness of it you dont understand in that sense, you think of the "apartheid" but not the random arrests for no reason,etc.etc...
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sara Groves, I saw what I saw, Inspired by her trip to Rwanda
I saw what I saw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OSdP6PqsbJY
I saw what I saw and I can't forget it
I heard what I heard and I can't go back
I know what I know and I can't deny it
Something on the road, cut me to the soul
Your pain has changed me
your dreams inspire
your face a memory
your hope a fire
your courage asks me what I'm afraid of
(what I am made of)
and what I know of love
we've done what we've done and we can't erase it
we are what we are and it's more than enough
we have what we have but it's no substitution
Something on the road, touched my very soul
I say what I say with no hesitation
I have what I have and I'm giving it up
I do what I do with deep conviction
Something on the road, changed my world
Love... Hard!
1 Corinthians 13
Love
1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Love
1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
... :(
Well this life musing isn't "a" musing.
Had fight with my mother, which I dont know how others just manage to push it away and move on, but in my case doesnt relieve the hurt...It's like the cartoons where the grey little cloud above doesnt go away...
3 miracles answered this weekend, but it is tough for me to trust when it comes to family, or should i say me, seeing as I'm the cause of this one today...
I guess I seek to be heard or acknowledged and not in terms of money or things done, but just in terms of being listened to and interested in.
and yes I should be out of the house by now, but this has been a lifelong wish?
And if I dont see that I am, you're welcome to point it out. It's not my way or the highway...
"And love to me is when you put down that one more thing and say
I've got something better to do
And love to me is when you walk out on that one more thing and say
Nothing will come between me and you
Not even one more thing" - Sara Groves, Just one more thing
I know that I'm as much to blame for the hurt that goes and comes around.
I just wish that there was space for good honest conversation, so things can be sorted out,and a wish from all parties for things to be sorted out...
Anyway God, you have been faithful to me so far...
I pray Father that you will continue to keep your hand on this family on each of us individually, that you will continue to humble and speak to us and teach us to live how you should, protect us from the onslought of the enemy and help us never to give up. Esp. Me Lord. Help me to know how to react to situations.
And teach me Lord
in Jesus name
Had fight with my mother, which I dont know how others just manage to push it away and move on, but in my case doesnt relieve the hurt...It's like the cartoons where the grey little cloud above doesnt go away...
3 miracles answered this weekend, but it is tough for me to trust when it comes to family, or should i say me, seeing as I'm the cause of this one today...
I guess I seek to be heard or acknowledged and not in terms of money or things done, but just in terms of being listened to and interested in.
and yes I should be out of the house by now, but this has been a lifelong wish?
And if I dont see that I am, you're welcome to point it out. It's not my way or the highway...
"And love to me is when you put down that one more thing and say
I've got something better to do
And love to me is when you walk out on that one more thing and say
Nothing will come between me and you
Not even one more thing" - Sara Groves, Just one more thing
I know that I'm as much to blame for the hurt that goes and comes around.
I just wish that there was space for good honest conversation, so things can be sorted out,and a wish from all parties for things to be sorted out...
Anyway God, you have been faithful to me so far...
I pray Father that you will continue to keep your hand on this family on each of us individually, that you will continue to humble and speak to us and teach us to live how you should, protect us from the onslought of the enemy and help us never to give up. Esp. Me Lord. Help me to know how to react to situations.
And teach me Lord
in Jesus name
Sunday, March 30, 2008
My Love...
God You are absolutely amazing...
You not only hear but listen
Not only listen to my words but my heart
You care so much deeper than what I know or understand
Thank you for so faithfully taking care of me
I need much taking care of :)
Thanks for bringing a smile on my face
And a tear to my eye
Thanks for being slow to anger, abounding in love
Thank you for the riches of your kindness, tolerance and patience
Thank you that Your kindness lead and leads me to repentance
Thank you for beautiful music, for beautiful friends.
Thank you for my family
God help me to handle the hurt amidst the joys
Lord strengthen me to face misunderstanding, strong words, selfishness
Lord you see my heart, Lord, you know the heart of man
therefore who am I to think I am holier than thou
I know that i will be held accountable for every thought, word and action
that makes me scared a bit, is that what will happen Lord
how much sin is there then still in my heart that I've forgotten to not only confess but repent of...
Lord, here am I
I say I love people yet i hide under a rock when those very people do what people do
And yet I cannot give my life for money, ambition, etc.
I dont want to be a copy, or stand in someone else's space.
Lord come and define me
Etch your path, your dreams in my heart.
Lord and as I seek them and first and foremostly you
Give me the strength to take the steps I need to take
Lord Give me the ability to rest in You and Your peace
God, help me to know how to deal with Man...
Lord give me a greater capacity in Love
Lord first and foremoste a greater capacity of knowing and loving you
Oh and not just dealing with man,
but myself Lord...
Lord You are Holy
And I am Yours
By your Spirit, help me become the me You want me to be
Amen....
This Peace lyrics
Sara Groves
So many words to say, but I'm opting for silence
So many days to live
I thinking I'm sitting this one out
Cause something I've been chasing finally stop to let me catch it
Something I've been longing for and dreaming about
It's a whisper in my ear
It's a shiver up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace
It's something so elusive
Something close but far away (amen)
It's the home that I can't live in yet somewhere in outer space
And sometimes I barely miss it when I walk into the room
The curtains are still swaying and I feel the air move
And it whispers in my ear and it shivers up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace
No time to grab a camera
No time to write it down
Just time enough to breathe it in
And linger
It's a whisper in my ear
It's a shiver up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace
This peace
You not only hear but listen
Not only listen to my words but my heart
You care so much deeper than what I know or understand
Thank you for so faithfully taking care of me
I need much taking care of :)
Thanks for bringing a smile on my face
And a tear to my eye
Thanks for being slow to anger, abounding in love
Thank you for the riches of your kindness, tolerance and patience
Thank you that Your kindness lead and leads me to repentance
Thank you for beautiful music, for beautiful friends.
Thank you for my family
God help me to handle the hurt amidst the joys
Lord strengthen me to face misunderstanding, strong words, selfishness
Lord you see my heart, Lord, you know the heart of man
therefore who am I to think I am holier than thou
I know that i will be held accountable for every thought, word and action
that makes me scared a bit, is that what will happen Lord
how much sin is there then still in my heart that I've forgotten to not only confess but repent of...
Lord, here am I
I say I love people yet i hide under a rock when those very people do what people do
And yet I cannot give my life for money, ambition, etc.
I dont want to be a copy, or stand in someone else's space.
Lord come and define me
Etch your path, your dreams in my heart.
Lord and as I seek them and first and foremostly you
Give me the strength to take the steps I need to take
Lord Give me the ability to rest in You and Your peace
God, help me to know how to deal with Man...
Lord give me a greater capacity in Love
Lord first and foremoste a greater capacity of knowing and loving you
Oh and not just dealing with man,
but myself Lord...
Lord You are Holy
And I am Yours
By your Spirit, help me become the me You want me to be
Amen....
This Peace lyrics
Sara Groves
So many words to say, but I'm opting for silence
So many days to live
I thinking I'm sitting this one out
Cause something I've been chasing finally stop to let me catch it
Something I've been longing for and dreaming about
It's a whisper in my ear
It's a shiver up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace
It's something so elusive
Something close but far away (amen)
It's the home that I can't live in yet somewhere in outer space
And sometimes I barely miss it when I walk into the room
The curtains are still swaying and I feel the air move
And it whispers in my ear and it shivers up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace
No time to grab a camera
No time to write it down
Just time enough to breathe it in
And linger
It's a whisper in my ear
It's a shiver up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace
This peace
My future Birthday Song...
Every Minute
- Sara Groves
I am long on staying
I am slow to leave
Especially when it comes to you my friend
You have taught me to slow down
And to prop up my feet
It's the fine art of being who I am
And I can't figure out
Why you want me around
I'm not the smartest person I have ever met
But somehow that doesn't matter
No it never really mattered to you at all
And at the risk of wearing out my welcome
At the risk of self-discovery
I'll take every moment
And every minute that you'll give me
And I can think of time when families all lived together
Four generations in one house
And the table was full of good food
And friends and neighbors
That's not how we like it now
Cause if you sit at home you're a loser
Couldn't you find anything better to do
Well no I couldn't think of one thing
I would rather waste my time on than sitting here with you
And at the risk of wearing out my welcome
At the risk of self-discovery
I'll take every moment
And every minute that you'll give me
And I wish all the people I love the most
Could gather in one place
And know each other and love each other well
And I wish we could all go camping
And lay beneath the stars
And have nothing to do and stories to tell
We'd sit around the campfire
And we'd make each other laugh remembering when
You're the first one I'm inviting
Always know that you're invited, my friend
And at the risk of wearing out my welcome
At the risk of self-discovery
I'll take every moment
And every minute that you'll give me
Every moment and every minute that you'll give me
Every moment and every minute that you'll give me
Every minute
- Sara Groves
I am long on staying
I am slow to leave
Especially when it comes to you my friend
You have taught me to slow down
And to prop up my feet
It's the fine art of being who I am
And I can't figure out
Why you want me around
I'm not the smartest person I have ever met
But somehow that doesn't matter
No it never really mattered to you at all
And at the risk of wearing out my welcome
At the risk of self-discovery
I'll take every moment
And every minute that you'll give me
And I can think of time when families all lived together
Four generations in one house
And the table was full of good food
And friends and neighbors
That's not how we like it now
Cause if you sit at home you're a loser
Couldn't you find anything better to do
Well no I couldn't think of one thing
I would rather waste my time on than sitting here with you
And at the risk of wearing out my welcome
At the risk of self-discovery
I'll take every moment
And every minute that you'll give me
And I wish all the people I love the most
Could gather in one place
And know each other and love each other well
And I wish we could all go camping
And lay beneath the stars
And have nothing to do and stories to tell
We'd sit around the campfire
And we'd make each other laugh remembering when
You're the first one I'm inviting
Always know that you're invited, my friend
And at the risk of wearing out my welcome
At the risk of self-discovery
I'll take every moment
And every minute that you'll give me
Every moment and every minute that you'll give me
Every moment and every minute that you'll give me
Every minute
Do not be anxious in anything...
Philippians 4: 6 - 7
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I really need to make this verse a reality in my life. Been stressing this weekend on 2 occasions about stuff, and then it turned out not to be so bad or not an issue at all! But just blogging today to just say I'm cool, not 100% but really enjoying the merciful, never forsaking me, God that I serve. He has come through for me on 2 occasions. And Lord I just praise you for that.
Thank You for not giving up on me. Thank you for taking your time to build me, I really really love you. And God, I'm far from perfect. But I am Yours! And You are mine, and if you are prepared to love and choose me, and you will be working in my life, then what am I afraid of.
As I told the kids today at School of Rock.
If you live with God he will make you as close to him as a shadow is as close to a person, you must make him your Your den (like in aan aan?) Even when you are afraid, scared of the dark,etc. He will cover you with His feathers.
Because we love him, He will protect, honour, rescue us, because We acknowledge his name
Psalm 91: 16
With long life, you will satisfy me....
(and show us Your salvation)
Lord I ask you to be my centre, to be my Prince of Peace, to teach me Your ways.
Lord I ask you to be the shade on my right hand Lord, Lord to be so close that in the midst of the storms, or confusion, I will know you're with me, for me, and will sort this story out. That is Know, Revelation, Heart knowledge...Love you Lord
Chan
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I really need to make this verse a reality in my life. Been stressing this weekend on 2 occasions about stuff, and then it turned out not to be so bad or not an issue at all! But just blogging today to just say I'm cool, not 100% but really enjoying the merciful, never forsaking me, God that I serve. He has come through for me on 2 occasions. And Lord I just praise you for that.
Thank You for not giving up on me. Thank you for taking your time to build me, I really really love you. And God, I'm far from perfect. But I am Yours! And You are mine, and if you are prepared to love and choose me, and you will be working in my life, then what am I afraid of.
As I told the kids today at School of Rock.
If you live with God he will make you as close to him as a shadow is as close to a person, you must make him your Your den (like in aan aan?) Even when you are afraid, scared of the dark,etc. He will cover you with His feathers.
Because we love him, He will protect, honour, rescue us, because We acknowledge his name
Psalm 91: 16
With long life, you will satisfy me....
(and show us Your salvation)
Lord I ask you to be my centre, to be my Prince of Peace, to teach me Your ways.
Lord I ask you to be the shade on my right hand Lord, Lord to be so close that in the midst of the storms, or confusion, I will know you're with me, for me, and will sort this story out. That is Know, Revelation, Heart knowledge...Love you Lord
Chan
Saturday, March 29, 2008
I was part of getting someone arrested Last night...
And was sad afterwards for his part, but am realising beating up McDonalds security guard is an offence. He was drunk and said sorry but this is not just brawling? (that the word?) between 2 friends, but actually fighting with the security and manager. Anyway, I stayed till the situation was subdued.
Funny Friday Night
Funny Friday Night
Things I like...And would like to do...etc...
this list will be edited as I go along
1) Cherry Blossom (Japanese and black print on clothing dresses etc. or even the different in black and white print)
2) I would like to ride/learn to ride or even own my own horse...
3) Own/ Live on a farm. Note not be a farmer though, but maybe more specifically the Strawberry Farm in Polkadraai Rd... :)
4) Grow up. In a sense. Though scared, dont want to loose my childlikeness too
List will continue shortly...
FEZI...this is me acknowledging you reading my blog...Hopefully we can hang at picnic tomorrow :)
Chan
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
On second thoughts...
On Second Thoughts, I'm continuing to have faith that God is doing a new thing in my life in 2008 and even this whole negative yucky experience, is going to yield a deepening relationship even with the Spirit as through it I have learnt to understand Him, me and sin a bit better...
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be withouth You
Here in my life
Here in my life...
(Here in my life - Saviour King - Hillsongs)
May you continue to lead me Spirit cause as many are led by the spirit are sons and daughters of God!
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be withouth You
Here in my life
Here in my life...
(Here in my life - Saviour King - Hillsongs)
May you continue to lead me Spirit cause as many are led by the spirit are sons and daughters of God!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Where I'm at today and in general...
Waiting for God to confirm some things for me...
I know that without faith it is impossible to please God, but I also know that He is able to make my head knowledge into heart knowledge and I'm awaiting that Divinely inspired revelation.
Basically thought I almost fell in a certain area but didnt, because was tempted and when wanting to act on it i strongly sensed the Holy Spirits conviction and another scripture came at the right time without me thinking it at so I knew the Holy Spirit was shouting out at me... I then went on with my life not really thinking about it because in my mind it was a victory, told a friend but that was about it, then on Sunday at church, I worshipped my lungs out and then at the end of the service after Fire Burns while singing I know who I am, all of a sudden that event came to memory, and I couldnt sing any further even though I tried and knew that I need to go and confess this sin. Spoke to Pastor Landie who brought light and truth to the whole situation and I realised its so much worse than what I thought, now this is not a condemnation feeling but more a sadness. Because what I thought was conviction was almost the Holy Spirit crying out cause darkness and light do not mix and so now me a bit sad because I'm thinking I grieved the Spirit and that is the unforgivable sin, and even if its not that, I know I hurt him a little. Anyway... It may seem I'm exaggerating,but the way I am feeling is that if I lived in the biblical time I would be wearing sack cloth now, and while I'm around people I'm happy and can enjoy that moment, but when alone, I'm so aware that I've hurt God and I really need to know that He has forgiven me, and that now that I understand the depth of what I've done that I will not do it again, and I need to knwo that God will help me in this because I do not want to do that again. Also I realise that where i am is so far from where i should be in terms of maturity as a christian and even in my relationship with God. It's like spurts of closeness, and breakthrough, but not the depth there should be after 9 years, And yes i know God's timing is not ours, etc.etc...
but I guess the bottom line is, that I love God, and having said that I want my life to reflect that statement... I want Him to be first and foremost and Him to be my refuge and my God in whom I trust. I want Him to be my best friend. And ja I want to walk from Glory to Glory as each year goes by. God I long to know you better, And be the child you call me to be.
psalm 32 really spoke to me today...
However I want to live this word, and the fruits will show if I am and seeds take time to germanate... Holy Spirt, will you help me. In jesus Name
Something I shared with a friend today...(taken from my qt...and chat)
This is what I wrote this morning
My God, may my life be a home for Your spirit.
May He feel at home in my heart
Lord, Confirm your love for me, Chandre
Lord affirm me
For only in You I find my identity and myself....
"therefore let everyone who is Godly pray to you while you may be found"
God are you able to be found? By me...
Have I grieved You spirit or are there still new mercies for me this morning
Thats some of what I've been writing this morning, it's not all bad...
and an sms I sent :
I think I know what you mean, that yes, we should all the time be grateful and mindful of what He done but even more so in this season
should we be humbled, thankful, broken because of what He has done. Me personally is aware that I need to go to next level with God, that way I 've been living till now, is not even halfway to where it should be, like m ssempa said, we should cry when we repend & even repent and cry for others sins and here sometimes it's like I just put a plaster on my sins. May me be the child of GOd I should be...
And this song really really blessed my heart today! On repeat a copuple of times
Sara Groves
You Did That For Me lyrics
I don't have to cry anymore
I don't have to worry about what's in store
I've walked that road exhausted and poor
I don't have to cry anymore
And I don't have to know it all
I don't have to be so proud and stand so tall
I climbed that mountain only to fall
I don't have to know it all
You did that for me
Oh, you did that for me
You wore the chains so I could be free
Yeah, yeah
You did that for me
And I don't have to be ashamed
Hang my head or shoulder the blame
Wondering if my life's been in vain
I don't have to be ashamed
Oh, you did that for me
Oh, you did that for me
You wore the chains so I could be free
Yeah, yeah
You did that for me
Man of sorrows
Well acquainted with grief
Drug down to the city dump
Spread eagle on a cross beam
Propped up like a scarecrow
Nailed like a thief
There for all the world to see
You wore the chains so I could be free
Yeah, yeah
Oh Lord, you did that for me
Oh Lord, you did that for me, You wore the chains so I could be free
I know that without faith it is impossible to please God, but I also know that He is able to make my head knowledge into heart knowledge and I'm awaiting that Divinely inspired revelation.
Basically thought I almost fell in a certain area but didnt, because was tempted and when wanting to act on it i strongly sensed the Holy Spirits conviction and another scripture came at the right time without me thinking it at so I knew the Holy Spirit was shouting out at me... I then went on with my life not really thinking about it because in my mind it was a victory, told a friend but that was about it, then on Sunday at church, I worshipped my lungs out and then at the end of the service after Fire Burns while singing I know who I am, all of a sudden that event came to memory, and I couldnt sing any further even though I tried and knew that I need to go and confess this sin. Spoke to Pastor Landie who brought light and truth to the whole situation and I realised its so much worse than what I thought, now this is not a condemnation feeling but more a sadness. Because what I thought was conviction was almost the Holy Spirit crying out cause darkness and light do not mix and so now me a bit sad because I'm thinking I grieved the Spirit and that is the unforgivable sin, and even if its not that, I know I hurt him a little. Anyway... It may seem I'm exaggerating,but the way I am feeling is that if I lived in the biblical time I would be wearing sack cloth now, and while I'm around people I'm happy and can enjoy that moment, but when alone, I'm so aware that I've hurt God and I really need to know that He has forgiven me, and that now that I understand the depth of what I've done that I will not do it again, and I need to knwo that God will help me in this because I do not want to do that again. Also I realise that where i am is so far from where i should be in terms of maturity as a christian and even in my relationship with God. It's like spurts of closeness, and breakthrough, but not the depth there should be after 9 years, And yes i know God's timing is not ours, etc.etc...
but I guess the bottom line is, that I love God, and having said that I want my life to reflect that statement... I want Him to be first and foremost and Him to be my refuge and my God in whom I trust. I want Him to be my best friend. And ja I want to walk from Glory to Glory as each year goes by. God I long to know you better, And be the child you call me to be.
psalm 32 really spoke to me today...
However I want to live this word, and the fruits will show if I am and seeds take time to germanate... Holy Spirt, will you help me. In jesus Name
Something I shared with a friend today...(taken from my qt...and chat)
This is what I wrote this morning
My God, may my life be a home for Your spirit.
May He feel at home in my heart
Lord, Confirm your love for me, Chandre
Lord affirm me
For only in You I find my identity and myself....
"therefore let everyone who is Godly pray to you while you may be found"
God are you able to be found? By me...
Have I grieved You spirit or are there still new mercies for me this morning
Thats some of what I've been writing this morning, it's not all bad...
and an sms I sent :
I think I know what you mean, that yes, we should all the time be grateful and mindful of what He done but even more so in this season
should we be humbled, thankful, broken because of what He has done. Me personally is aware that I need to go to next level with God, that way I 've been living till now, is not even halfway to where it should be, like m ssempa said, we should cry when we repend & even repent and cry for others sins and here sometimes it's like I just put a plaster on my sins. May me be the child of GOd I should be...
And this song really really blessed my heart today! On repeat a copuple of times
Sara Groves
You Did That For Me lyrics
I don't have to cry anymore
I don't have to worry about what's in store
I've walked that road exhausted and poor
I don't have to cry anymore
And I don't have to know it all
I don't have to be so proud and stand so tall
I climbed that mountain only to fall
I don't have to know it all
You did that for me
Oh, you did that for me
You wore the chains so I could be free
Yeah, yeah
You did that for me
And I don't have to be ashamed
Hang my head or shoulder the blame
Wondering if my life's been in vain
I don't have to be ashamed
Oh, you did that for me
Oh, you did that for me
You wore the chains so I could be free
Yeah, yeah
You did that for me
Man of sorrows
Well acquainted with grief
Drug down to the city dump
Spread eagle on a cross beam
Propped up like a scarecrow
Nailed like a thief
There for all the world to see
You wore the chains so I could be free
Yeah, yeah
Oh Lord, you did that for me
Oh Lord, you did that for me, You wore the chains so I could be free
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
wow!
Small Straws In A Soft Wind by Marsha Burns -- March 19, 2008:
I speak to you, My people, and tell you that I see you in your dilemma. I know your heart when you feel as though you have no place and do not fit. I understand your sense of isolation, for you are not going through anything that I Myself have not endured. Yet, you will also fulfill your destiny as I fulfilled Mine. Do not fear that you will be forsaken because I am with you always and will not leave you alone, says the Lord. Be courageous and stand strong, for you will soon find your niche. Take heart, and rejoice. It will be as though you, as a piece of the puzzle, will be put in place.
Luke 9:58 And Jesus said to him, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head."
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Definitely what i needed
Oh and I am not forsaken was also another word to rejoice in at the concert
as well as Oh that men would praise him - me praying for all the lost i know...
I speak to you, My people, and tell you that I see you in your dilemma. I know your heart when you feel as though you have no place and do not fit. I understand your sense of isolation, for you are not going through anything that I Myself have not endured. Yet, you will also fulfill your destiny as I fulfilled Mine. Do not fear that you will be forsaken because I am with you always and will not leave you alone, says the Lord. Be courageous and stand strong, for you will soon find your niche. Take heart, and rejoice. It will be as though you, as a piece of the puzzle, will be put in place.
Luke 9:58 And Jesus said to him, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Definitely what i needed
Oh and I am not forsaken was also another word to rejoice in at the concert
as well as Oh that men would praise him - me praying for all the lost i know...
Monday, March 17, 2008
Let the Redeemed of the Lord SAY! SO!
I was able to go to the Israel and New Breed concert last night and I'm not normally one to use these terminology but it was "Off the hook" Jason blessed me with half my ticket, got to see Liesl and Lesley-Anne again, and Dave from Ambassodors who I met initially at the Drayc Jazz Evening... Petula sat next to me, or rather Danced next to me we were right in the last row on the balcony so had a clear view and dancing space, but was most of the time not even looking at the stage but really praisig my lungs out... More highlights: Natalie physically laying hands for me during prayer, 2004 Tarryn and her prayed for me from their house, but now it was real hands and God's power.Shaun being on my case to come even though I was going to pass, and yet it seems I was meant to be there and lastly just seeing all my spiritual family there, Pastor Carlton and Pastor Landy, Lucinda and Bertram, Keziah and Zoe, Ronelle...
In particular what stood out for me was
I know who I am - If I know who I am, I wont react the way I do to situations. I am His, in Him I find my identity, my peace, my redemption, my strenght to continue, so instead of allowing circumstances to make me feel like an ostrich just wanting to hide my head in the sand... I need to work on who I am in Christ even more...
Yes Lord, Yes Lord! - I'm saying Yes Up front to what you going to ask me Later, Yes Lord I will forgive, Yes Lord, I will run for your purposes, Yes Yes Lord Amen!
I am a friend of God, He calls me friend - Wow... Why do we forget this. God calls us friend! I love the fact that Israels Musics are about the basics of who God is, Who we are in Him, What his thoughts are towards us. Sometimes we are running so fast, or flying so high we need to just come back to the drawing board, and be reminded that God knows who we are, He has not forgotten us, He is a friend that sticks closer than a brother, why am I sad about what people do when He will never never forsake me, I need to get that right first, Who He is. Also an absolute blessing when his son sang and danced... "God almighty, Lord of Glory, You have called me friend" I love children, I love the fact that God wants us to become like that little boy towards him in our worship and in our lives...
With Long Life - I believe I am healed! Praise God, Life, not death! to my body...I will Praise you Lord, Forever, Forever!
"Change me Lord and I will Change the world"
wow...God this our prayer that you would change us Lord....Change us, so we can rise up a mighty generation with the fragrance of you and the radiance of You on our faces to change a hurting world...
I was running, and you found me
I was blind, and you gave me sight
You put a song of praise in me
I was broken, and you healed me
I was dying, and you gave me life
Lord, You are my identity
I know who I am
I know who I am
I know who I am
I am yours
I am yours
And you are mine
Jesus you are mine
I am forgiven, I am your friend
I am accepted, I know who I am
I am secure, I’m confident
That I am loved, I know who I am
I am alive, I am set free
I belong to you and you belong to me
In particular what stood out for me was
I know who I am - If I know who I am, I wont react the way I do to situations. I am His, in Him I find my identity, my peace, my redemption, my strenght to continue, so instead of allowing circumstances to make me feel like an ostrich just wanting to hide my head in the sand... I need to work on who I am in Christ even more...
Yes Lord, Yes Lord! - I'm saying Yes Up front to what you going to ask me Later, Yes Lord I will forgive, Yes Lord, I will run for your purposes, Yes Yes Lord Amen!
I am a friend of God, He calls me friend - Wow... Why do we forget this. God calls us friend! I love the fact that Israels Musics are about the basics of who God is, Who we are in Him, What his thoughts are towards us. Sometimes we are running so fast, or flying so high we need to just come back to the drawing board, and be reminded that God knows who we are, He has not forgotten us, He is a friend that sticks closer than a brother, why am I sad about what people do when He will never never forsake me, I need to get that right first, Who He is. Also an absolute blessing when his son sang and danced... "God almighty, Lord of Glory, You have called me friend" I love children, I love the fact that God wants us to become like that little boy towards him in our worship and in our lives...
With Long Life - I believe I am healed! Praise God, Life, not death! to my body...I will Praise you Lord, Forever, Forever!
"Change me Lord and I will Change the world"
wow...God this our prayer that you would change us Lord....Change us, so we can rise up a mighty generation with the fragrance of you and the radiance of You on our faces to change a hurting world...
I was running, and you found me
I was blind, and you gave me sight
You put a song of praise in me
I was broken, and you healed me
I was dying, and you gave me life
Lord, You are my identity
I know who I am
I know who I am
I know who I am
I am yours
I am yours
And you are mine
Jesus you are mine
I am forgiven, I am your friend
I am accepted, I know who I am
I am secure, I’m confident
That I am loved, I know who I am
I am alive, I am set free
I belong to you and you belong to me
Saturday, March 8, 2008
today...
Had lovely worship with hillsong Savior King Dvd.
And while singing
"I love you Lord,
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You're all I need"
I realised what you're all I want, all I need means... or rather i rediscovered it's meaning. Cause sometimes on may think how can you say that God is all that I want and all that i need when I knwo that perhaps I want a husband, or a new job, or some need to be met, etc.etc. So am I just singing that and putting aside the things that I know I also am desiring, or Does it means that you need to not want those things anymore? Because God should be the only thing we want or need. What if we already married? Where does that fit in...
Well while singing I realised. God is all that we need, And should be all that we want. He is the only one who can fill that space in our hearts, who can meet our need for anything, not with something, but with Him, He is all that we should want and need, and as we find God and he is all we want and all we need, we find the other things and relationships secondary to Him too, in Him we are blessed, our friendships and material goods and jobs are blessings over and above what we really needed, which is him.
He is all we need. Without him, we may have everything, yet still be empty. The more we get the more we desire. But with Him and more of Him we become more content, more complete, He does become our everything and at that point all the other things are added, over and above what we have already received. Jesus Christ.
Also had lovely family time today. I braced myself about comments about my weight, cause even though you got a comment last week, and there is no way you can lose 15 kilos in one week, walking in your swimming costume is going to bring on comments, but this time because I braced myself for it, I still had a good time regardless. Most of our De Wet family pitched for Candices Thankyou, Congratulations Party on becoming a CA. And it was fun. Uncle Leon was splashing every one wet, I got hurt twice, in weird ways... the first time bumped my head and was about to pretend that nothing happened not realising the sound was so loud that everyone heard :) The second time was going to run and jump in the pool next to Uncle Leon and splash him wet, but just before I could jump, he turned around saw me was about to splash me, I jumped out of the way, bumping my toe against the wall and about to fall forwards, but managed to grab Uncle Edgar just before I fell. he got a huge fright too :) But otherwise the day was fun, full, Just a bit sad afterwards or Krapperig, when hearing a bit of low self image talk from some, but I suppose it took me years to get where I am now, so need to give them space to grow that way too.
Tomorrow it's my dad's birthday, so this weekend is really family time.
Me tired, should go to bed soon :)
And while singing
"I love you Lord,
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You're all I need"
I realised what you're all I want, all I need means... or rather i rediscovered it's meaning. Cause sometimes on may think how can you say that God is all that I want and all that i need when I knwo that perhaps I want a husband, or a new job, or some need to be met, etc.etc. So am I just singing that and putting aside the things that I know I also am desiring, or Does it means that you need to not want those things anymore? Because God should be the only thing we want or need. What if we already married? Where does that fit in...
Well while singing I realised. God is all that we need, And should be all that we want. He is the only one who can fill that space in our hearts, who can meet our need for anything, not with something, but with Him, He is all that we should want and need, and as we find God and he is all we want and all we need, we find the other things and relationships secondary to Him too, in Him we are blessed, our friendships and material goods and jobs are blessings over and above what we really needed, which is him.
He is all we need. Without him, we may have everything, yet still be empty. The more we get the more we desire. But with Him and more of Him we become more content, more complete, He does become our everything and at that point all the other things are added, over and above what we have already received. Jesus Christ.
Also had lovely family time today. I braced myself about comments about my weight, cause even though you got a comment last week, and there is no way you can lose 15 kilos in one week, walking in your swimming costume is going to bring on comments, but this time because I braced myself for it, I still had a good time regardless. Most of our De Wet family pitched for Candices Thankyou, Congratulations Party on becoming a CA. And it was fun. Uncle Leon was splashing every one wet, I got hurt twice, in weird ways... the first time bumped my head and was about to pretend that nothing happened not realising the sound was so loud that everyone heard :) The second time was going to run and jump in the pool next to Uncle Leon and splash him wet, but just before I could jump, he turned around saw me was about to splash me, I jumped out of the way, bumping my toe against the wall and about to fall forwards, but managed to grab Uncle Edgar just before I fell. he got a huge fright too :) But otherwise the day was fun, full, Just a bit sad afterwards or Krapperig, when hearing a bit of low self image talk from some, but I suppose it took me years to get where I am now, so need to give them space to grow that way too.
Tomorrow it's my dad's birthday, so this weekend is really family time.
Me tired, should go to bed soon :)
Friday, March 7, 2008
OH How could I forget...
Today was my first day of sharing word in the school....
I met with the Christian Fellowship and shared Isaiah 60, and encouraged them to arise and shine their lights despite being young, despite their own opinions of themsleves, that we are all history makers, I was a history maker today... but the biggest smile for me was just knowing I am in the right place, I dont have all the answers in terms of fulltime ministry, but I know that being on a school is where I feel at home and want to be. So got to deal with my debts so I can start studying next year, or may continue this, God will show me.
I met with the Christian Fellowship and shared Isaiah 60, and encouraged them to arise and shine their lights despite being young, despite their own opinions of themsleves, that we are all history makers, I was a history maker today... but the biggest smile for me was just knowing I am in the right place, I dont have all the answers in terms of fulltime ministry, but I know that being on a school is where I feel at home and want to be. So got to deal with my debts so I can start studying next year, or may continue this, God will show me.
what a wonderful...week
Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom He has redeemed from the hand of the enemy.
Psalm 107:2
One morning this week woke up with the song in my head, Let the redeemed of the Lord say so by Israel and did the new thing I do when christian songs are in my head, sing it cause maybe there's a reason. I sang, and later I played it and the afternoon i went to the library (first time since 2004 the only reason why I was still on the system was because of a R1 fine! can u believe it)and took out learn to speak Italian in 3 months and Stormie Omartion's biography called Stormie
The book begins with the above scripture.
Also for the next 2 days couldnt put it down till it was finished and her life has really spoken in mine, how God really delivers us and plans to prosper us, but there is a cost, and sometimes he takes us back to things we thought was dealt with to give us a deeper level of breakthrough...
God you really spoke to me through this book! And Lord thanks so much for not giving up on Stormie, but also thank you Stormie for sharing your testimony with us!
Also Forgiveness isnt easy, i never used to struggle with it that much before but find lately its not easy to just forgive and go, but with God's help wanting to have clean hands and a pure heart, and lots of prayer, it is possible and it doesnt have to turn out hte way we think, when we include him. I still take mroe days now before I sort thngs out, but I think for now that is ok, cause I first wanna make right with God before people...
I have to admit i stil have some hurt, and fear of trusting, but I know that I'm going to continue walking with You God on this one and I know I know, I know you are faithful!
Psalm 107:2
One morning this week woke up with the song in my head, Let the redeemed of the Lord say so by Israel and did the new thing I do when christian songs are in my head, sing it cause maybe there's a reason. I sang, and later I played it and the afternoon i went to the library (first time since 2004 the only reason why I was still on the system was because of a R1 fine! can u believe it)and took out learn to speak Italian in 3 months and Stormie Omartion's biography called Stormie
The book begins with the above scripture.
Also for the next 2 days couldnt put it down till it was finished and her life has really spoken in mine, how God really delivers us and plans to prosper us, but there is a cost, and sometimes he takes us back to things we thought was dealt with to give us a deeper level of breakthrough...
God you really spoke to me through this book! And Lord thanks so much for not giving up on Stormie, but also thank you Stormie for sharing your testimony with us!
Also Forgiveness isnt easy, i never used to struggle with it that much before but find lately its not easy to just forgive and go, but with God's help wanting to have clean hands and a pure heart, and lots of prayer, it is possible and it doesnt have to turn out hte way we think, when we include him. I still take mroe days now before I sort thngs out, but I think for now that is ok, cause I first wanna make right with God before people...
I have to admit i stil have some hurt, and fear of trusting, but I know that I'm going to continue walking with You God on this one and I know I know, I know you are faithful!
Monday, March 3, 2008
a rev i had last night that really touched me
Arise Generation
No Longer Forsaken
Arise, Arise, Arise
God will never leave me nor forsake me, never. He will never reject us.
No Longer Forsaken
Arise, Arise, Arise
God will never leave me nor forsake me, never. He will never reject us.
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