What would my temple look like?

as asked in the above video...

I would be sitting at His Feet, or he would hold me in his arms, just crushing away all the fear, unworthiness, unlovable feelings. I would know I am loved and I am with Him...

Or my favourite or greatest desire, we would dance together!

lol...read today...

was googling vuvuzelas today then got this...

Federal Transport Minister Anthony Albanese says Tony Abbott is like a walking vuvuzela with his constant negativity about the carbon tax.

The carbon tax is expected to sail through the Senate on Tuesday, while the opposition leader heads overseas for a meeting of conservative pollies.

Asked about Mr Abbott's continued opposition to the tax, Mr Albanese likened him to the loud, monotonous and irritating plastic horns that were used by fans during the 2010 World Cup in South Africa.

"You can't just run around as a walking vuvuzela and make a single noise; `no, no, no', to everything that happens," Mr Albanese told reporters in Sydney.

"And what's occurring with Tony Abbott is when people first hear the walking vuvuzela, it's an interesting sound, it gets your attention.

"But over a period of time, when you realise there's just one noise and it's monotone and it's relentless, think the Australian people will increasingly be agitated by his failure to show any leadership."

Mr Albanese also criticised Mr Abbott for heading to the UK as the Senate votes on the carbon tax.

"This is an important reform and an historic day and Tony Abbott's gone missing ... flown off to London," Mr Albanese said.

and this

http://www.metro.co.uk/news/879624-vuvuzela-parties-final-blow-as-noisy-neighbour-evicted-from-flat

Listening to today

and

Dunno Why but I just love this passage...Deuteronomy 17: 14 -20

Deuteronomy 17

The King

 ¹⁴ When you enter the land the LORD your God is giving you and have taken possession of it and settled in it, and you say, “Let us set a king over us like all the nations around us,” ¹⁵ be sure to appoint over you the king the LORD your God chooses. He must be from among your own brothers. Do not place a foreigner over you, one who is not a brother Israelite. ¹⁶ The king, moreover, must not acquire great numbers of horses for himself or make the people return to Egypt to get more of them, for the LORD has told you, “You are not to go back that way again.” ¹⁷ He must not take many wives, or his heart will be led astray. He must not accumulate large amounts of silver and gold.
 ¹⁸ When he takes the throne of his kingdom, he is to write for himself on a scroll a copy of this law, taken from that of the priests, who are Levites. ¹⁹ It is to be with him, and he is to read it all the days of his life so that he may learn to revere the LORD his God and follow carefully all the words of this law and these decrees ²⁰ and not consider himself better than his brothers and turn from the law to the right or to the left. Then he and his descendants will reign a long time over his kingdom in Israel.

 

So the king:

• Must be appointed because he was the LORD your God's choice.
• Must be from among your own brothers. Do not place a foreigner over you - in our context, must be a believer and must be one of us, not from outside, someone who understands because he is from culture/organization,etc.
• Must not try and create security for himself, protect himself or go back to the world or past saved from for help/advice. For the LORD has told you, “You are not to go back that way again"
• Must not take many wives, or his heart will be led astray.ie. Keep your heart pure, wait for the one God has for you or enquire of the Lord regarding love and dont look around once married, do ur best to stay true to covenant made at wedding
• Must not accumulate large amounts of silver and gold. (wow even if u are a king!)
• Must not consider himself better than his brothers
• Must not and turn from the law to the right or to the left

All the above:

• Must  when takes the throne of his kingdom, he is to write for himself on a scroll a copy of this law,It is to be with him, and he is to read it all the days of his life so that he may learn to revere the LORD his God and follow carefully all the words of this law and these decrees

...

The cool thing about my blog is most people aren't really interested in what I have to say, or reading long things, or reading my long things, so I can blog and blog and blog and safely know (hopefully) no one is reading what I am writing. Of course I don't mind that people read (hence its online and not in some journal) but I do mind when people secretly read and never comment or say read this or that... Esp. if it's people I know...cause that just feels stalkerish...(so hey! let me know if u're reading). Well since no one is saying they are reading, I can nicely continue expressing what is really going on cause I need to get it out and there's no one to speak to....Cause really I can't keep it on the inside it is too much for me. And with friends well...

• Some give off impression own lives are perfect so if they not honest, hard for me to be.
• Some have their own issues so dont want to burden them, then if I say I will share regardless, can sense that I am just adding to their loads
• Some don't want to hear my problems and rightly so. Who wants to be friends with someone who always has issues! well generally i am with ppl who do have and who dont want to have them, but from what I have heard people say and how they act, generally world an christians dont want to be with ppl like that.
• I am being super negative and unfair because maybe there are some friends who do care, and yes I know i can count them on one hand. If the others do let me know. But again I know we're all going through stuff, so hey I'm not holding it against you I am just saying for me, I am alone in what I am going through! Not saying it's your fault or you need to be there.

I have issues and they don't just go away, especially if you want them away and willing to face whatever you need to face, then wisdom has shown that road is longer because it involves dealing with roots. I get that some people are more simple and less complex and can just go out and change themselves immediately upon hearing they need to change,but I am not that person, so I guess that is another issue!

So yeah I'm going through these things and I feel, very,very alone in it.

And am trying to pray in the midst of it and God has brought a bit of cheering through a little 2 year old from George who asked to speak to me on the phone. But the problem is still there, and it always has been and never seems to change. No matter what. And so people, leaders, psychologist, pastors will say. That means You need to change. Yeah, maybe but that doesnt make the things that happen to me right! And I'm running out of ways to handle it, hope, and I just want it to stop hitting me over the head and tramping on my feelings! And so if changing means, I must keep quiet, lay low, not let it get to me, then tell me how. Tell me how not to be hurt. Because really I'm not a sucker for pain! It does hurt! Maybe its because I am hoping this storm will stop! Maybe it's not ever going to stop but about me going through the storm. Then please give me wisdom on how i am suppsoed to think/feel when I'm drowning? I know the "right" thing to do, but how do u stop feeling like you're drowning while doing the right thing. Or when trying to do the right thing you get in so much more trouble!

So if it's me thats the problem, then how do I change that, then thats another problem on my list of problems.
If you hit me on my head am I not supposed to feel pain...No still feel pain?
Ok so then am I supposed to still feel pain and just become numb and surrender till I'm just a shell.
Why am I not allowd to say it hurts? Why am I not allowed to do something that prevents me from being hurt again?

God please help me. You're the only one that I can trust. I am hurting Big time at this moment. And I really don't know how to get over it, through it, around it,etc. I know Jesus went through worse please help that then breakthrough how I feel Lord.

Feels like everyone else world goes on and I'm just left to deal with the mess!

Lord help me. Fight for me, help me do the "right" thing, if there is cause right now I also feel like a terrible sinner!

Die week se denke...

Dit was a bietjie moeilike week en tyd. No matter how much I want to be where I should be I am just so aware, about all my muck, pride, distance, inability to hear, people issues, broken heart issues, fear of man issues, overthinking, dunno how to bridge the gap between god and me, too much on my plate, overwhelmed,etc.etc.etc.. oh and pain esp. at night.

But amidst this whirlwind of life...God has been speaking, reassuring, even if it was just a facebook wall post by a friend, or a song playing in my head.

So it's only Tuesday, but this week these are the little steps God has put on my heart or at least I think it's him or maybe I know its him cause I've been too out of it to come up with this myself.

Yesterday. God woke me up with praise on my heart. In Particular the Song...There is no one like you, - David Crowder Band. And praise I did, also the psalms in 140 something reminded me to praise, to make God my shield...to trust in Him...

Today: woke up with the song Hope of Suzy Yaraei...
I then made an attempt to listen to the song before i face my day cause I know in this past time it has been hard to have hope. Its been a while since I've been the full of hope Chandre I've always been. But after listening to the song, agian and the hope with which she sings it I was stirred and reminded Christ in me the hope of glory! See previous blog for lyrics:
"Hope,call it up now,make it alive,We’v got 2 reach inside for,Hope wont let us down,no room 4doubt,Got 2believe He’s in us!BR:Christ the Hope of Glory!

I heard over the weekend that the way sex slaves cope is to let go of hope. Cause hope makes it hard to face what they need to, easier just to give up hope of ever being free.

People always say to pray and get what u are praying u have to believe have to have faith, have to see what u are praying for, but if u have no hope, how is that possible. What if u are trying but u just cannot see the picture change... So all the changes i want to see requires hope at first, seeing what I don't see - Heb11:1 - faith is the substance of things hoped for.... first have to hope! then faith will be substance of that. but if i lost hope....

Thank God, Christ in me is the hope of glory...and that too as Romans 15: ¹³ May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

This makes it all a bit easier, i am scared, i am overwhelmed, but I do have Christ and the Holy Spirit in me, and as I look to him and trust HIM, not myself, He fills me, overflows me, and as I hold on to that cornerstone inside me! believe he is in me, hope will arise....

Thank You Jesus...

today I got a bit of Wait too... in Jason Upton's song Emma, i think Beyond the Window part...it says "as we wait on him, new wings...so we wait on him, sometimes there's just nothing left to do but wait on him"

Really people when i look at myself ek sien nie 'n uitweg nie! but i will  hope in him, and wait on him even in the midst and in the waiting and praising my Faithful God will come through :)

Amen! You see it works, if u knew how down I was today and now can rejoice...it's just Him! without him I am gemors.

Father, father me...
Chandre

Worship today

Call

My heart is still so far from where it should be
Selfishness and sin creeps in so quickly
And muddles up all my best intentions
Yet still you call, "Follow me!"

You say "Give it up, Lose your Life"
I look around, surely you can't use little frail old me?
But that is exactly how beautiful
your upside down gospel is.

You call cheaters, liars, adulterers and murderers
Zacheus, Judas Peter and Paul
All had the opportunity to meet
and be transformed by you.

A little bit of hope is enough to start a fire
that blazes across homes, communities and nations
You whisper in my ear
"Did you  forget who you are?"

"You are my daughter,(*son)
 You were made in my image
All the days ordained for you were written in my book
before one of them came to be!

I am with you, I will never leave you
And will work all things together for your good
Seek first my kingdom, my peace, my rest and and my call
and all these things, the desires of your heart will be added to you!"

I have a choice to hold onto my life
Let comfort, fear, insecurity, and deep down misery keep me bound
Or let go and say "Yes Lord, Here I am, Send me!"

I let go and let you complete my story, lead me?
One sucks the life out of me,
The other to a life I could not have made on my own,
Christ in me.

Here I stand again on the brink
of myself and your dream
I say "Yes Lord!"
You accept me with my sins and frailty.

Cause only moulded by You will I be
A shiny reflection of Your glory.
I don't know what or how or when
But I surrender once again, My Lord,Father and King

And so the world gets changed
One my one by broken people like me
Upside down gospel,
isn't it? :)

     - Chandré De Wet (21/06/2011)

Thoughts Update...

Been having a tough couple of days, which built up to me falling in old struggles again! But praise God for his faithfulness and me having learnt that the only safe place is in him. I now am beginning to see why God wants us to be like children. So we can take things one step at a time, so we can enjoy the moment, so we can trust with such innocence. So we don't overthink and stress over future and past. And as we do this we hear him, he enjoys us and he leads us. But when don't and want to resolve, or understand things or know what future holds too much, you can stress yourself out so much that it opens doors for enemy to attack you again, cause he knows you're not resting in, trusting in, depending on God anymore, but your own reasoning.

So ja thats that, but today I am better, ok, me falling made me worry that I'm right back in my past, but I'm not cause I know who my God is, and that he is still with me and that makes all the difference, to cry in his arm and realise that I need to keep my eyes fixed on him and in looking at him, peace is coming again.

On another note. Even though for years when ppl would say that one must enjoy your singleness, cause when u're married you won't have the opportunity to do e.g. missions, etc.etc...I always thought/ said yes, you say that now, but they look so happy feels like we're missing out... It's not that I hate being single, I don't. I know how to embrace life where I'm at and sort of make the most of it, but I do at times wish I had a companion and do have dreams, and for the romantic I am, did not imagine life to turn out this way, yet at the same time am grateful to God for letting me sort out my life, cause imagine i had gotten married at 23 as I wanted, would I be divorced today? or overwhelmed?

But lately trying to put myself in married shoes :) I realise what people mean, right now I can up and leave, I can dream and even follow my dream. I am ok with me, i love me, being with someone else makes me vulnerable (maybe that is the purpose of marriage, to die to self?). When I look at the people around me I see some balanced, others I see that esp.as a wife, you have to put your dreams aside. Well one married friend encouraged me it's not that you give up your dreams , its that you make new dreams together....

Anyway I don't think I'm ready. Says the girl who is turning 31 this year and was worried last year about the ten million children she wants :). But I am also learning that life is not about when you think you are ready or not. Its about staying close to God and serving and loving him and doing what he asks you to do. If it's his time, whether I think I  am ready or not, things will work out and he will speak. It's when I'm not staying close that everything looks scary and I'm tempted to take things in my own hands, despite that life has taught me over and over, me in control on life and love things is not a good thing!

So Ja, Hard as it is, I choose to trust you, even when I don't know what my future holds, I don't know how things are going to work out, I don't know where I will be next year :) lol. What I do know is if I stay close to you I will be in the perfect will of God and you make ALL things beautiful in your time, even the difficult, crosses. :)

God you are good. Love you!
Chan

What does worship mean...?

How it started?

Background:

So my friend shares this really hectic worship song with me, that brings presence of God everytime! Song is He's Alive - Suzy Yaraei and after a couple of days, I begin to feel but why do I need something to stimulate me to worship...Note at the same time I have been reading Exodus where Moses is meeting God on the mountain and the elders, and the cloud, and the people below with fear... Yet saying we will DO all that he commands us to do. So I began to say but what is worship, how do I become a John 4 - true worshipper as the bible says God desires. Yes I've heard countless sermons/seminars on it, but at the crux of the matter do I know what it means to worship God and am I a true worshipper. Or do I need other true worshippers worshipping God to kick me into worship mode, etc.etc... So the Sunday I say to my best friend, wish our worship leader could run a series of workshops called the Every Day Worshipper, cause so many times people connect worship with I am a talented singer so let me join the worship team, or Worship is Sunday Morning in the church... Or you have all these things you know in your head is worship, but trully only worship sunday morning. What is WORSHIP ? and how do I be a pleasing unto the Father true worshipper! Then as I was telling her was challenged recalling how an author (Arthur Burk) I like deals with things, like its an easy route to say I want to become a true worshipper, lets ask our worship leader to run workshops! Instead of saying God I am going to set out this time every day to learn afresh what it means to worship you, even if nothing happens in that time! I am going to keep faithfully coming to you, keep searching the word, and keep praying that you would give me a revelation of true worship.

(Just listening to Suzy Yaraei saying "We want to worship you, we want to worship you, with all our lives. All our lives to the next level, All our lives every day every night, all through the day and all through the night to worship You, Like we never could imagine - Oh won't you break us open, We've got so much more for you..." and later "Break us open... Pour out, Pour us out into the world... Teach us to worship you, Pour us out into... A Worship that will change EVERYTHING, change everything everywhere we go, Sounds of Heaven, signs and wonders is the sound of heaven, Oh the voice of the Lord through his people...Break us Open God, Pour Yourself out God, let yourself go, break us now..." )

So began me looking out for clues, revelation in terms of worship... And am going to keep putting them on here as I get them (so far they have been FB statuses) I have to admit in this time of writing I've been going through a bad patch, but that doesnt mean we stop learning and growing and am trusting in His Faithfulness to lead me into worshipping him!

1) Well Firstly in that time, I got, worship is a heart thing. Its a heart that is bowed down before the God of Heaven and Earth, The LORD, I AM, Internally bowed down, surrendered. Thats really at first and foremost what it is?

So put this pic on FB:

And these are my thoughts so far, (more to be added as they come!)

Thoughts:

FB Status: 6 June 2011

[Wont you break us open,We want 2pour it all on you-Suzy Yarei][Purity in victory,we cannot seperate it-Jason Upton][Psalm24-Who may ascend the hill of the LORD?Who may stand in his holy place?He who has clean hands&a pure heart]God break us open,Purify us,that we may b pure vessels of ur glory,worshippin u with clean hands&a pure heart.God search us,kno our hearts.If theres any offensive way in us,lead us in Ur way!

2) Worship is a heart issue, God search our hearts! Pure hearts! So you can fill us! Being a vessel of honour that he can pour through us to the world

FB Status: 6 June 2011

Desiring to be a true worshipper... Worship is also in the way you study. So I will try to study for God's glory, but Lord please help me, in this!

3) Worship is about doing things for his glory, trying to please him and bless his heart in even what I'm doing in the way I respond or make right with my mother, in the way that I offer my studies and try my best even though I'm sucky at it at times, in the way I include him in it, and talk to him about it!

FB Status: 8 June 2011

No time 2grab a camera,No time 2write it down.Just time enough 2breathe it in,& linger-SaraGroves~He was pleasd when he could take up a straw frm the ground 4 the love of God,seekn Him only,&nothing else,not even His gifts-BrotherLawrence~One thing I ask of the LORD,this is what I seek:that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life,2gaze upon the beauty of the LORD&2seek him in his temple-KingDavid

and then my comment:

4) Is this what Worship is, Lingering in God's presence, not seeking anything from him, but just seeking him, not wanting his hand, but gazing in His face.Doing whatever I do, for the Love of Him, not wanting anything back except to keep loving and lingering and dwelling in and with him? I don't know if this is what True worship is, but perhaps herein lies a key :)

FB Status: 9 June 2011

Love visitin YWAM.Got 2 see amazing friends in Muiz 2night,plus sharing night with great homefriends&got 2see my YWAMleader unexpectedly:)& challenged 2not settle-anything thats really worthit in the end requires sacrifice.Also got 2witness a little miracle&hear an awesome testimony.God Help me understand,receive,translate the Common Sense,Words,wisdom that Im getting,need 2hear ur voic,also help me 2embrace ur call.

5) *** that night was a night of Surrender afterwards...Worship. is giving up Your ISAAC. What does this mean, the first mention of the word worship in the bible was when God asked Abraham to sacrifice Isaac. I had to ask myself the next day after crying for 2 days on things I needed to give up, I wonder if Abraham cried! (at least some friends said SURE he did!) Anyway so God promises Abraham his descendants would be like the stars! then God asks him to give up his son!!!...but Abraham trusted, Knew his God!!! First mention - Genesis 22:5 He said to his servants, “Stay here with the donkey while I and the boy go over there. We will worship and then we will come back to you.”  So sometimes worshipping God means giving up your Isaac, the promise God gave you, standing right in front of you, the thing that matters so much to you because GOD COMES FIRST....! and then when you do God can turn it around!!! in to what he wanted in the first place, but do we trust him, that is worship!

(yeah this didnt come easy, 2 days of crying, laying it down, picking it up, fighting with God, but I Will get there, cause God you are and I want you to be first in my life!) - See blogged poem too...

FB Status 10 June 2011

Also really need to learn to Shema!

6) Worship is listening to God, listening, waiting.trusting.

FB Status 10 June 2011

“O afflicted city, lashed by storms and not comforted, I will build you with stones of turquoise,your foundations with sapphires. I will make your battlements of rubies, your gates of sparkling jewels, and all your walls of precious stones. All your sons will be taught by the LORD, and great will be your children’s peace. " Isaiah 54:11 -13

7)Worship is taking stock of the words God has spoken over your life in the past, the promises, the encouragements, the testimonies, the good things, remembering, MEDITATING, and PRAISING him for what he has done in the past!

17 June 2011

FB Status: 17 June 2011
Also those who know recently I've been asking God what does it mean to be a worshipper? well today's video i posted of jason upton gives me the next hint - and very very fitting with what was my struggle today! "Cause Music is not worship, its an expression. Trust ... is Worship"

8) Worship is trusting God!

Quotes from VID

 ‎"Cause Music is not worship, its an expression. Trust ... is Worship" "If you hit the wall in your creativity, Christianity is creativity. Don't be afraid of the death, cause there is ressurection! New levels of glory are never a step up, they're always a step down first..."

 ‎"Jesus says not answering this litany of questions & think all these right ways but Jesus says: Come and follow me, Come and follow me into the unknown. Come and follow me, lay down the certainty. Lay down trying so hard and just come and follow me. Come and be with me."

Funny how all of this ties with what I learnt above....

another part of status on 17 June 2011

Song quoted just b4&overagain says HE IS ALIVE!the God we'r prayin 2 is not DEAD,he is ALIVE,he HEARS,CARES,INTERVENES.Sorry Lord for stresn out like ur dead.Thanku that U R THE ONLY LIVING GOD!(I'v only JUST BEGUN 2 WORSHIP U)

9) Worship is knowing JESUS is alive living like he is alive, that is where it begins!!!

10) Worship is enjoying sharing, encouraging, magnifying God with others (amazing 1 and 1/2 hour chat) with a friend about the goodness of the Lord

11) Worship is not just moping but reminding and stirring up the worship of God even though things seem crappy! ( God is so good - I woke up stressed, scared and in pain, I am going to bed alive and happy in HIM!)

12) and a friends comment now on fb..."To fear God, is to worship him." think it ties in with first part on Exodus. but teach me some more LORD!

 

10 June 2011

Chip Chip Chip
God's chipping away
The chaff and the chaos
the excuses and complaints
Stripping and Pruning
Prodding and Testing
My good intentions
Checking my motives
My promises, My vows
till I'm gold refined by fire

Will I trust in You Lord
Will I let go what I hold onto so tightly
Legitimate needs, Honourable dreams
But idols if not orchestrated by You
why am i fighting your beautymaking process
why am i struggling to surrender
those who trust in you will not be put to shame
i will make the Lord my refuge.
Here I am Lord
I am afraid, I am scared
but I know it's only in You
that I find my rest,all that I am.

Break me, mould me, take away, rebuild me
Teach me, show me, lead me, guide me
Love me, whisper to me, hold me, Comfort me
Anchor me, Bless me, Restore me, Ressurect me
Just don't let go of me
And don't stop working me
Even though I am stubborn at times
May I become all that you want me to be O Lord
Let me become a child, your daughter, your holy people
Let me decrease and you increase
till all all sees
Is Your glory in me.
Christ in me, the hope of Glory!
Don't give up on me Lord,
Keep interceding for me :)

-chandrejoanne

What does worship mean...?

Lol of the day!

Lolololololololol I hope I remember this cause I am still laughing about this. LOL of the day: Sis Calls to ask me why I'm not on FB, I say "at a pc that doesnt connect to internet" she asks "what do u mean u at a pc that doesnt connect to ...internet", Mentioned working at home & I'm about to say wireless not working so well,then think who is being so voorbarig and asking personal questions bout our home & instead ask carefully " Wh wh who? am I speaking to?"

she said it was funny to her too she asks the last question then hears silence.... and then who am I speaking to? if she had known i didnt know it was her, she said would have asked me funny questions e.g. what am I wearing,lol!

depending on you

once again hurt, not by the person but unfortunately the negative spirit she allows to operate in  her life when hurt. anyway, I choose to forgive and release, even though i was and maybe am hurting a bit, in reality God has not called me to be a doormat to handle this, but also not to harden my heart, but to release situation and her to him. Anyway...I don't know if I am getting it right cause I tried to reason and was only hurt, so I am doing the only thing i think i can do and that is to cling on to God..

God you have a plan for me. God despite my need to analyse, understand and all the fear I allow in, may YOUR will be done in my life God. continue to work at me, continue to strip me, God continue to come in!

HAVE YOUR WAY IN MY LIFE, in MY FAMILY LIFE, in work in everything GOD!!!!

Time to Trust...

Some sort of new developments in my life...Well not so new anymore, just not blogged about, developments that revolve around something that i have experienced before but that is completely new this time. Well I'm not going to share until there is something to say BUT what I can say this. All of this has had me running to God, holding back from God, then realising I need to surrender, praying to God, fasting, etc...

Why is it that we say God we want your will to be done, then when something comes that we really want suddenly we hold on/cleave than release it back to God and say Lord still your will to be done! Like Jesus.

Well, I guess in his Fathering, he has room for my growth development spurts, and allows for me to take a bit to learn something & I think at this point in time its learning to release and trust My Father, that he knows best, he knows when, he knows how, he even knows how to get me if I was on the wrong path back on the right one and still grow through it and still praise God through it. I think all of this is just showing me, Chandré, you have to trust God more!... Let go and let God...

So I come before You Father, as your daughter once again, and say Here I am Lord. Have all of me, All my plans, all my dreams. I surrender it all to You Lord. Your will be done Father, in Jesus name.Amen!

Divine Appointments...

Lately God has been intervening in my life in subtle ways... I don't realise it when it's happening but only after or during the divine appointment. E.g. I stop to tell the caretaker at the school wow u still get people with good old fashioned manners, and it turns out he is a grandpa to 1 of the kids who died in the taxi/train accident in Blackheath. So asked if i could say a prayer for him and he said yes... But amazing how if I never made that comment, it would have not occured.

Similiarly went volunteering this weekend in Mitchells Plain, saw a guy who was in charge of the group on Sat, and Sunday when helped out again, was constantly interacting and working in same room as him, when I had to scrub the floor with turps, mentioned I can't use my right hand and he asked why? told him I had arthritis, was healed but pain back in last few months. Turns out he has just recently found out he has a similiar arthritis and we could chat about it...

And so on and so on...

Also 2 little sort out issues have occured with 2 friends, where in the moment I was a bit defensive yet however thanking them for telling me the truth, but as I looked back on those moments, so grateful that God is working in my life through people, things are surfacing, I am growing, here in my city and not just out on the mission field. Thanks God.

So to summarize, as God walked with Abraham, Isaac and Joseph, I have been asking God please walk with me, and though I'm not always aware of it, I have been seeing his hand amazingly on my life in terms of the divine appointments with people... Let us desire God walking closer, let us allow his dealings, let us allow him to use us, Let us learn what it means to be a child of God.

Lovely things :)

Music: The Platters, The Hollies, Carpenters, Peaches and Herb, Manhattans, Cliff Richard, Barry Manilow, Tom Jones, (Michael Buble)

Stuff to do in beautiufl places:http://www.sa-venues.com/things-to-do/westerncape/franschhoek-by-saddle/

thoughts for the season...

* imparting to others: realising in my own life and what i see through others, that we really struggle with imparting what we have learnt to others, we either forget what it was like when we drank milk, or took baby steps, maybe only remembering the glory stories, but not the ignorance, the immaturity,etc,etc...or we remember but don't know how to teach and walk with people from point a to point b...

* wisdom-applied knowledge: sometimes i think God wants me to sit with new revelation knowledge, mull on it, chew it, then put it into practice, work it till i see it happening before or instead of sharing. And maybe that is why people not listening when share, there is greater sense of authority from the person who is actually living out the values he shares. I do know that i tend to share for a need to just share this new thing that i'm learning or going through, but sometimes that can hinder me actually being established in it with God instead, so maybe I should just talk to God.

* what is God to you?  when hear the word God what do you and I think of? Ruler, Superpower, being, creator, Father, what??? so when we hear the scripture Be still and KNOW that I am God... How do we see God and maybe the how we are seeing affects the KNOWING and the being still. if I know he is God and what thatmeans, maybe i will be still at peace,etc...

Ezekiel 36:

 ¹⁶Moreover the word of the LORD came unto me, saying,
 ¹⁷Son of man, when the house of Israel dwelt in their own land, they defiled it by their own way and by their doings: their way was before me as the uncleanness of a removed woman.
 ¹⁸Wherefore I poured my fury upon them for the blood that they had shed upon the land, and for their idols wherewith they had polluted it:
 ¹⁹And I scattered them among the heathen, and they were dispersed through the countries: according to their way and according to their doings I judged them.
 ²⁰And when they entered unto the heathen, whither they went, they profaned my holy name, when they said to them, These are the people of the LORD, and are gone forth out of his land.
 ²¹But I had pity for mine holy name, which the house of Israel had profaned among the heathen, whither they went.
 ²²Therefore say unto the house of Israel, thus saith the Lord GOD; I do not this for your sakes, O house of Israel, but for mine holy name's sake, which ye have profaned among the heathen, whither ye went.
 ²³And I will sanctify my great name, which was profaned among the heathen, which ye have profaned in the midst of them; and the heathen shall know that I am the LORD, saith the Lord GOD, when I shall be sanctified in you before their eyes.
 ²⁴For I will take you from among the heathen, and gather you out of all countries, and will bring you into your own land.
 ²⁵Then will I sprinkle clean water upon you, and ye shall be clean: from all your filthiness, and from all your idols, will I cleanse you.
 ²⁶A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh.
 ²⁷And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them.
 ²⁸And ye shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and ye shall be my people, and I will be your God.
 ²⁹I will also save you from all your uncleannesses: and I will call for the corn, and will increase it, and lay no famine upon you.
 ³⁰And I will multiply the fruit of the tree, and the increase of the field, that ye shall receive no more reproach of famine among the heathen.
 ³¹Then shall ye remember your own evil ways, and your doings that were not good, and shall lothe yourselves in your own sight for your iniquities and for your abominations.
 ³²Not for your sakes do I this, saith the Lord GOD, be it known unto you: be ashamed and confounded for your own ways, O house of Israel.
 ³³Thus saith the Lord GOD; In the day that I shall have cleansed you from all your iniquities I will also cause you to dwell in the cities, and the wastes shall be builded.
 ³⁴And the desolate land shall be tilled, whereas it lay desolate in the sight of all that passed by.
 ³⁵And they shall say, This land that was desolate is become like the garden of Eden; and the waste and desolate and ruined cities are become fenced, and are inhabited.
 ³⁶Then the heathen that are left round about you shall know that I the LORD build the ruined places, and plant that that was desolate: I the LORD have spoken it, and I will do it.
 ³⁷Thus saith the Lord GOD; I will yet for this be enquired of by the house of Israel, to do it for them; I will increase them with men like a flock.
 ³⁸As the holy flock, as the flock of Jerusalem in her solemn feasts; so shall the waste cities be filled with flocks of men: and they shall know that I am the LORD

Thoughts on Dominion...

I thought I should post what's on the brain before I forget

Today My Status on FB was:
thank you God for all you taught me this weekend!!!! Today I will try and take dominion over my life, health, room!, work, new job, relationships, relationship with you for YOUR GLORY!

So I go to bed last night and wake up this morning praying this over my life and ready to change my attitude towards life and work and body, health after a weekend of preaching at Helps Ministry Training on (PASSION, LOVE, COMMITMENT, SACRIFICE = OWNERSHIP) and Sunday Night Evening Service (Work of FAITH, Labour of Love, Enduranec inspired by Hope) - we all as people work, labour,endure  but for us the difference is faith hope and love added to what we do...! Also with this is Arthur Burk teachings on Dominion...(the reason why we dont see it...cause its for his glory not ours) and then YAM prayer... Where there was a word about us Young adults taking Dominion over what God has given us, our lives, our jobs, etc.etc... So after all of that I decide that I am going to do things differently have to change my attitude, have to be intentional, etc.etc...

Then the day starts and I end up being late for work training...! But as I drive, and forgetting the name of the school I stop someone who is going to the school which was a miracle for her, and for me and it was just showing me that despite my shortcomings, God is apart of the agenda in the little thigns even( reminder to self that Stanley at Church said, as he got older start thanking, giving Glory to God for all the things hte little things that happen to us!) But anyway as I am pondering, about work, the revelation of training, my stress and fears about the job even though it is all falling in place nicely I realise this about all of this...

God calls us to take Dominion... That was what was said in the garden in Genesis (how funny we were taught about this so long ago and only now this is making sense to me!) Anyway we are called to rule, designed to rule/take ownership, influence, fix, with Gods help of course, the life/area/situation God has placed in our lives, to let his kingdom come in that area... So yeah we get this, we are hearing this preached this now, but what is needed to actually see dominion not just preach dominion?

Work. Taking Dominion over a difficult relationship, My WEIGHT, etc.etc... is not just a prayer, now I am not saying prayer can't work even on its own, I believe it can, God may be calling you to PRAY regarding a situation and in this case, this is work too, something we are doing, to change the situation...But besides prayer sometimes Seeing Dominion may require more. We may not even see it in our lifetimes, but we labour to take dominion of the earth! And again with Adam and Eve after they fell and didnt take dominion but instead chose to listen to serpent and own desires, work now became toil, the earth produced thorns, it was harder...So taking dominion will not be easy, there will be thorns...it will be hard, there will be resistance... But we are called to take dominion so we must anyway, its just this dominion now includes HARD WORK... :)

Which can make us feel INADEQUATE, UNPREPARED, TIRED, STRUGGLING,  and maybe other people from the work take their identity from it, make Work the objective, so push hard, work hard, but without the heart, or anointing or others procrastinate, Stress!etc.etc...but the bottom line is toil creates in us a UNFINISHED, even INSECURITY WHICH makes us then CRY OUT TO GOD

As we cry out to God for help, HE comes gives us answers, perspective, lifts the load, helps us have purpose in the the labour, moves through us, does something bigger than we thought through it, shows us how it was all him in the first place, we realise our identiy and our call through him intervenng and opening our eyes and lifting us, in the situation...

and DOMINION HAPPENS! it's like the seed that falls to the ground, then dies, and new harvest comes from that... Dominion doesnt come just from Praying, or Working the Dominion, or Struggling with it, but as we take it to God he comes and does all of the above through us with a different mindset, heart, view, strength and courage in us! It's like taking his call, and giving it back to him, and then living out what he calls! I think all is necessary, Just all is not isolated, but works together!

One of the Keys!

Isaiah 33:

⁵ The LORD is exalted, for he dwells on high;
   he will fill Zion with justice and righteousness.
⁶ He will be the sure foundation for your times,
   a rich store of salvation and wisdom and knowledge;
   the fear of the LORD is the key to this treasure.

Hectic Schmectic, and very appropriate.... This week during quiet time, God gave me this scripture, it is quite apt because last week there was alot of high and low moments, really experiencing God's presence, but then falling really deeply but then Sunday (yesterday) looking back I had to say that it was good week regardless! Well thursday night at YWAM Muiz (which was awesome but no time to elaborate on this post) We were just worshiping and exalting God, all the songs were lifting him up, Jesu Phakeme,etc...And at the end of at least 3 songs we all just went silent! Previous Sunday at church we were praising God for 5 min loudly non stop...

This scripture begins with
 The LORD is exalted, for he dwells on high;

Yep that is the starting point. God is good, great, worthy to be praised, lift him up, lift up your praise, whether you do or not he is exalted!

Then
   he will fill Zion with justice and righteousness.

This has been a prayer for me, righteousness, purity, fill me Lord with justice and righteousness. Fill my family, our land, the world too with justice and righteousness.

⁶ He will be the sure foundation for your times,

This weeks earthquakes,tsunamis, so much going on, so much uncertainty and fear, in this times, God will be our sure foundation, he will be the only thing steady...Besides even natural disasters there is a lot going on, emotionally, spiritually... But he will be the sure foundation for us in our times. And even for all our days...

   a rich store of salvation and wisdom and knowledge;

Wow, a rich store, quality, abundance, of salvation (for me, for my family for the situations we find ourselves in, wisdom and knowledge) in Him I will find a rich store of salvation,wisdom and knowledge.

   the fear of the LORD is the key to this treasure.

God is exalted, He will fill us with justice and righteousness, he will be sure foundation in our times, he will be a rich store of salvation, wisdom and knowledge. What is the key to all of this...

The fear of the Lord.

May we revere, honour, hold highly in regard, may we cast down our idols, may we let God break our hearts, may we humble ourselves, May God teach us what it means to fear him so that all of this will be ours, for His glory... May we find ourselves in him.

I love the way it all begins and ends in him!

Suddenly...

I am struck with sadness...and this is not because of Valentine's Day, as I had an awesome funny day. But because of the messed up relationship that I have with someone close to me. I cannot not be in right relationship with people yet that is what she requested and now I am respecting that. And it hurts, and it sucks, maybe I should be ignoring what she said and loving on her anyway...but her words hurt to much.

Anyway God, I give you even this. Please intervene. Lord bless her and keep her, in Jesus name.

Lord keep bitterness from my heart.

Chan

The Crown of Friendship

(still to be cleaned up, spoken about for years, only now made up into words...)


The Crown of Friendship
By Chandre De Wet


Did you know, friendship is a crown... Given to you by God. Adorning your head. So at this stage all the lonely people check out as they feel they don't have a crown, but wait. That crown is not people... The crown is Jesus... We are given a crown of friendship and that crown is Jesus, so even if we have no people in our lives we still have the one main, best, dearest, truest friend, Jesus, and really that is sufficient, enough!...

In time, or through Life, God adds people to our lives (and removes). Every person that he adds to our lives, every friendship, is a jewel on the crown. Sometimes you have big jewels, some are precious and rare. Some people have few jewels on their crowns, some have many, Some have different jewels and sometimes you'll have none...but even if your crown is empty, you are not alone as you have the best friend of all Jesus...and he is the crown that brings you more gems, but ultimately people are just an added blessing to the crown of friendship you already have!