On generational stuff and curses and and and ....

How many lies must we hear

How many lives will be stolen

How long will we let this fear

Paralyze the church

How long will these renters rule the earth

How many mothers must cry

How many children must die

How long will we just stand by

And watch a careless world

Teach our boys and girls their tyranny

God of land and sea

And the universe

Come deliver me

And every slave that lives upon the earth!

There is a new day coming and it won’t be long

There is a fire burning and a wind that’s strong

There is justice waiting for the child of God

And

It’ll all go down

It’ll all go down

It’ll all go down

Somehow
  Very Sure...

Everything That Can Be Shaken Will Be Shaken...

The Anchor Hope
The wisdom Of The Cross

- Justice Waiting - Jason Upton - 1200 ft Below Sea Level

I'm not constantly fixated on spiritual warefare, but their have been seasons that I've studied and applied and seen the truths, and times that I've had to be aware. This is one of those times.

While I'm not praying renounciation prayers every day or even every year, and I'm learning to be more focused on God's promises, the alternative of just pretending that nothing has consequences, and if you don't think of something it won't affect you is not true either...

The truth is people are being taken out by the devil, lies, and ignorance, and it's not God's fault or God just trying to teach us something. Often times there is grace, and there is light, there are signposts despite our ignorance, but claiming ignorance doesn't prevent certain situations, just as prayer for things that aren't relevant can bear fruit.

I'd rather err on bringing things before the Lord that I see, and asking and praying His will, than just allow situations to take me wherever they want.

Now my personal issue is that I'm not always taking the time to be serious and pray, or always seeing that things are an issue, but what I'm kinda addressing here is denial...

I'm not either saying there is a demon behind every doorpost, or that every action does always have a reaction. I believe there is grace, and I believe certain things have a certain impact on individuals...

But in light of recent events, where one sees a pattern, and an injustice! I ask the question why? And could this have been prevented, and I cut it off on my own life...

I also think about my grandma, where my mom and aunts have prayed for years that she would die in dignity and not in long pain or where they have to clean and wash her, when she was such an independant woman. She then did die at 81, quick, suddenly, she just had a pain earlier the day, and was up chatting till late, then collapsed in that moment. I think years of prayers gave grace for it to happen that way...

I do think we can die prematurely, I do think we can fall into situations that are bigger than us, and it takes wisdom to say Lord, what is happening from the outsiders looking in, as opposed to just saying that person made a wrong choice, or it doesn't affect us...

Even generationally, often times people will see a pattern and make a personal choice not to live that way, so when their children are born, they don't see the example the parents had,  and perhaps don't even know their grandparents, yet still the same temptations come their way and they fall... It is not always isolated.

I'm not saying all of this to say, things happen because we are cursed. I am saying this because I am saddened at "My people perish because of a lack of knowledge". I am saddened at people accepting disease because maybe God is teaching me a lesson... I'm saddened at how much God loves people and have a greater plan for them, yet  us just settling for the real world we see around us. I'm sad that pain, sickness, poverty, issues is a greater reality that the freedom promised in Christ.

And maybe even I am living from this place and not free yet....
And maybe I am passionate about this now in this blog, and then tomorrow I go back to the mundane

But for today I am aware, and reminded, to be sober minded, and to pray His promises in.

Lord I pray for your divine protection on my family and their family, whether they know it or not.

Lord I pray that what the enemy had planned will be turned around for the good of those who love the Lord.

I pray for comfort for my family members...

I pray for me and Alison and Joan, the last of my father's family line...

I pray for your heavenly protection on our lives!!! I pray for health, healing, salvation, deliverance, joy and freedom!

Lord I thank you for my Uncle knowing you, and the beauty of heaven for him! Joy Everlasting...

Amen

(and no the above is not only because of my Uncle's death's or people's questions, but a reflection on alot of things that occured this past time...)

I honestly don't have energy to personally study the spirit of jealousy/ victim spirit documents now.... But I am keeping my eyes open and including God in my life... in this season. Lead me Lord....

Miracles and Mysteries

I thought about sharing this breakthrough that occured in the past few days, then heard about my uncle passing away this morning...

Love in the real sense of the world...

I have offered my heart countless times, even when I knew the risk, mainly because I'm not half hearted. This all or nothing me has not changed despite advice, trying to change, trying to not be. I'm still standing though. Because of an amazing God who somehow shields me despite my best attempts and prayers otherwise.

I can only hope that when the one who sticks around comes, that I will still have this soft trusting heart that I have. That I will still give my all and hope for the best!

I am coming to accept that people I think are amazing, and who have consistently shown they really are amazing, are maybe not for me. The thought of that occasionally brings a slight sadness, but there is still the glimmer of hope that maybe just maybe there is someone who is more than I can ask or imagine, as God promises... That his good and perfect will is what will make me glad, and that as amazing as some of the people seem, they do not compare to what lies ahead.

Its still hard because this artist of the heart always seem to capture beauty. If beauty is in the eye of the beholder, how do I stop seeing? Because I see. Unintentionally. Unavoidably.

Or maybe it's not to stop seeing, but how I see and what conclusions I draw from what I see. I think I've hit the nail on the head there :)

But even that is hard. I try to be realistic, but sometimes hope remains. I try to remain objective, I try to pray things away... but the "Child" in me still hopes and dreams.

I'm not going to even claim to have the answer today. It probably is deep inside somewhere today just ranting and raving, that I still see, and I still love, iow respond to what I see. And while right now I am not seeing and loving, I hope that a day will come soon where seeing and loving is okay. And when that day comes I still see and love,even to a greater measure than before.

I'm ok though, this is not an emo post :) I really am happy in Christ and life is good and growing, Just pondering Love thoughts today :)