depending on you

once again hurt, not by the person but unfortunately the negative spirit she allows to operate in  her life when hurt. anyway, I choose to forgive and release, even though i was and maybe am hurting a bit, in reality God has not called me to be a doormat to handle this, but also not to harden my heart, but to release situation and her to him. Anyway...I don't know if I am getting it right cause I tried to reason and was only hurt, so I am doing the only thing i think i can do and that is to cling on to God..

God you have a plan for me. God despite my need to analyse, understand and all the fear I allow in, may YOUR will be done in my life God. continue to work at me, continue to strip me, God continue to come in!

HAVE YOUR WAY IN MY LIFE, in MY FAMILY LIFE, in work in everything GOD!!!!

Time to Trust...

Some sort of new developments in my life...Well not so new anymore, just not blogged about, developments that revolve around something that i have experienced before but that is completely new this time. Well I'm not going to share until there is something to say BUT what I can say this. All of this has had me running to God, holding back from God, then realising I need to surrender, praying to God, fasting, etc...

Why is it that we say God we want your will to be done, then when something comes that we really want suddenly we hold on/cleave than release it back to God and say Lord still your will to be done! Like Jesus.

Well, I guess in his Fathering, he has room for my growth development spurts, and allows for me to take a bit to learn something & I think at this point in time its learning to release and trust My Father, that he knows best, he knows when, he knows how, he even knows how to get me if I was on the wrong path back on the right one and still grow through it and still praise God through it. I think all of this is just showing me, Chandré, you have to trust God more!... Let go and let God...

So I come before You Father, as your daughter once again, and say Here I am Lord. Have all of me, All my plans, all my dreams. I surrender it all to You Lord. Your will be done Father, in Jesus name.Amen!

Divine Appointments...

Lately God has been intervening in my life in subtle ways... I don't realise it when it's happening but only after or during the divine appointment. E.g. I stop to tell the caretaker at the school wow u still get people with good old fashioned manners, and it turns out he is a grandpa to 1 of the kids who died in the taxi/train accident in Blackheath. So asked if i could say a prayer for him and he said yes... But amazing how if I never made that comment, it would have not occured.

Similiarly went volunteering this weekend in Mitchells Plain, saw a guy who was in charge of the group on Sat, and Sunday when helped out again, was constantly interacting and working in same room as him, when I had to scrub the floor with turps, mentioned I can't use my right hand and he asked why? told him I had arthritis, was healed but pain back in last few months. Turns out he has just recently found out he has a similiar arthritis and we could chat about it...

And so on and so on...

Also 2 little sort out issues have occured with 2 friends, where in the moment I was a bit defensive yet however thanking them for telling me the truth, but as I looked back on those moments, so grateful that God is working in my life through people, things are surfacing, I am growing, here in my city and not just out on the mission field. Thanks God.

So to summarize, as God walked with Abraham, Isaac and Joseph, I have been asking God please walk with me, and though I'm not always aware of it, I have been seeing his hand amazingly on my life in terms of the divine appointments with people... Let us desire God walking closer, let us allow his dealings, let us allow him to use us, Let us learn what it means to be a child of God.

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