I make known the end from the beginning...

Today I had an awesome revelation which ties in with some other ones that I havent added yet...

It first started with something negative... I really put off this project I had to do till the very last minute, I took a day's leave at work to work on it but only began working on it 2pm...and it had to be submitted online before 7pm (after I've had the project for 2 months. The topic of the project was Bad Management leading to Business Failure. And because of the very short time I had, I handed in a project that has a well referenced, well written, in my own words, INTRODUCTION, but the rest of the essay was pretty sloppy and I didnt even get a chance to do the conclusion. In my head I am still sitting with the thoughts of I want to write this and that, but I just have to tell myself just get over it, accept the bad mark I'm going to get...

With that outline sketched, I begin thinking "why do I do this to myself" Why do I go out last night when I know I have this project due? Why do I not do it until the very last, Why do I feel I can only do it when it's at the last minute... I then thought perhaps the project should have been "Bad Management leads to Personal failure" I would probably have written a book of mistakes, because till today I find myself falling sometimes for the same situations I thought I have overcome! And then I got a little bit sad... And knew Dont think that! Or dont think to write that report on how I disordered I am, even got a chronic disease out of stress!...

Well just then without me choosing to think about it, God brought to memory this scripture that Pastor Gavin always preaches about...

Isaiah 46:10 A
10 I make known the end from the beginning,
from ancient times, what is still to come.

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That Stopped those negative thoughts right in it's track...I may keep falling and look at my past and say look how I messed up... But God when he made me He made known the end from the beginning, In otherwords If God wrote the little essay I thought about writing (which in fact he did in His book) He begins with the conclusion first...He already wrote the ending before he started with the beginning... So all these challenges and setbacks are nothing compared to the Glory He has ahead for me! So I am just going to keep getting up and moving forward... Doesnt matter if I am falling more than others, or less than others, or whatever... I know that my God has made known my end from my beginning, and as Jeremiah 29:11 says He knows the plans He has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, to give me a HOPE and a FUTURE.

Now I'm thinking of that Mary Mary Song.

I Just Can't GIVE UP NOW...
Come to far from where I've started from...
Nobody told me, the road would be easy...
But I DONT believe, he's brought me this far, to leave me...

And so I said there were revelations I had that I didnt write down yet, I guess its because I'm still in the moment with them still mulling on it and trying to live it (because thats what counts at the end of the day, not how much you know, but how much you live!)

I've been wrestling with some things in this past time,things that I'm not entirely sure how to handle. Things that remind me of the past, yet it's different and I'm different, but at the same time it's so easy to go from being ok to not ok. Things that have been making me feel like I can't go to God, not because I cant go to God, but because I'm already thinking what I think God is going to say... I think?

Anyway it started Sunday with God saying through the Parable of the talents and my pastor phrasing God's response to the third servant exactly the way I tend to think and then get a response from the people I have said this to...

Matthew 25:24 -27
24"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.' 26"His master replied, 'You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? 27Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

Well the way Pastor Gareth phrased it was this servant says to the "Master, I knew you are a hard man..." And the Master says, Well seeing as you already made up your mind that I am like that, why didnt you at least then put the money in the bank"

A couple of things stood out, there's at least 2 important people (my mom being one) in my life who I've already said this is what I thought they thought and they immediately respond "So if that's what you think I'm going to say/do/think?...". It immediately resonated in my mind that I do that... And then it hit me that I was doing that to God, in this situation that I'm struggling with (without knowing that i was doing it, but I was doing it) I had already decided that I cannot take this to God, because if I do this is what he's going to say...(it wasnt in so many words, but because there was fear to go to him I can look back and say that I was already deciding what God is going to say/do/etc. about my situation)... And also I felt that I first need to make the situation right before I can go to him, which isnt right either (and although i knew that I should go to God regardless - head knowledge) I was feeling like I can't...And yet God is not man, He is constant, he doesn't love me more when I'm good and less when I'm bad, He loves me regardless... Why was I afraid. To get anywhere, even in this situation I need him, whatever the outcome is... And so I cannot be all Good with God and then when I hit a storm then all of a sudden I'm back to my initial I'm challenged by my view of God, because you see, God doesnt change, in fact the bible says he remains faithful, even when we're not!. Because that's who he is...

So Sometime in the week I thought it's not good enough that I have a couple of scriptures somewhere in the back of my head that gives me goosebumps, it's time that I actually take it to heart and live it and believe it, and remind myself of that word, so that when storms come I know who God is, I remember the word I cling on the word... Some of the scriptures that God has given me in the past couple of years: (it's not good enough to say oh that is such a pretty scripture, it's to know God is saying this to me, therefore this is what he wants to do in my life, this is what He decided already for me even before I was created)

Isaiah 54:10
Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,"
says the LORD, who has compassion on you.

(Thought of this scripture again today. God is saying, Chandre EVEN THOUGH, the mountains are shaken, My UNFAILING LOVE for you will not be shaken. Even if it feels the world is falling around you, even though you keep falling, and you keep facing storms, I have made a COVENANT -wow- of PEACE with/for you... So that covenant will not be removed!)


11 "O afflicted city, lashed by storms and not comforted,
I will build you with stones of turquoise, [a]
your foundations with sapphires. [b]

12 I will make your battlements of rubies,
your gates of sparkling jewels,
and all your walls of precious stones.

(God wants to build me up again, every wall in my life he wants to build up again with precious stones, despite all the bruises, hurts, mistakes, even my own, he will build me up again, and further it says Great will be my Childrens Peace, the promise is not just for me but for my children and my childrens children - God you are awesome!)

So Just to recap...

God has made known the end from the beginning... He already wrote the end... He has those plans to give us a hope and a future, before we even thought, breathed, lived. So when I'm going through this stuff, who am I going to believe, am I going to believe me, or my past, or the storms, or am I going to look to God who remains faithful, even when I'm not who is constant, who has promises for me, who is not a man that he could lie...

Oh yes, then sometime in this revelation he showed me again the scripture of Isaiah

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts

His thoughts are not my thoughts, His thoughts are Higher than my thoughts...I cannot decide with my carnal mind what God is going to do an think, it's so cool beacuse this chapter where this comes from begins like this:

Isaiah 55
Invitation to the Thirsty
1 "Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.

That's God's heart... All who are thirsty, come... I dont think the way you do, in fact my ways are higher than your ways - which again goes with one of the 2 scriptures God has given me for 2007

Proverbs 3
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight

Dont depend on the way you think, Trust him...

Ok, I think this is all about Tuesday and then I had dance theory and Lucinda gives us Luke 6:46 and before she even reads it I think I know this already "Why do you call me Lord Lord and do not do what I say..." But just before she reads she said listen with your ears, but also listen with the ears of your heart...I decided to try that, and though I didnt think I can get new revelation on this scripture, than I already know it's about if you going to say He's your Lord you have to do the word and not just hear it... But inside I asked God to please show me something new in that scripture

Luke 6:46

46"Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say? 47I will show you what he is like who comes to me and hears my words and puts them into practice. 48He is like a man building a house, who dug down deep and laid the foundation on rock. When a flood came, the torrent struck that house but could not shake it, because it was well built. 49But the one who hears my words and does not put them into practice is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. The moment the torrent struck that house, it collapsed and its destruction was complete."

What stood out for me was the storms that are still going to come. You not just going to read the word and never face a challenge. We going to face challenges! But are we just reading the word and saying wow what a lovely scripture, and then going back to daily life and then being totally surprised when storms hit, and maybe being hit off your feet. Or do I take the word and Storm or no storm, and put it into practice, make it become a part of me, not just a nice thought, wishful thinking, pipe dream, but Yes, GOD says in His word, I am the apple of his eye, I am the Head and not the tail, I am his beloved, He says neither death, nor life, nor sickness, nor angels nor demons, etc.etc...NOTHING can separate me from the Love of God which is in Christ Jesus. If I live this way, if I put the word I receive in practise then I will stand, but if I just hear the word, that's not enough...It's not enough to stand... And storms will come in fact they come daily... What we learnt at dance on this is, that all God asks of us is to build a strong foundation, that's how we stand.

Ok so that's Tuesday...

Last night, I thought agian about this situation, all the ifs, and buts and hows? how is it going to work out Lord? And God just whispered - Surrender.

Before i get the answers I need to surrender, I need to stop fighting, and kicking and screaming, and shaking my head (ok this sounds a bit extreme, but I'm picturing someone pushed into the deep end of the pool and can only doggy paddle)...well I need to stop doing that when I come to God... because if I just surrender. just stop fighting. Just stop pushing, stop looking away. And just Stop. I will see Hey, it's my Father!... I will see his eyes of love... I will know that God knows whats best...
Before we go to the point of how its all going to work out, we need to get to the point of TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART! in ALL your ways acknowledge him. its at the point of surrender that we can hear God's heart for us. Its when we give up or like people always say it's when I let go and let God...That's when he can do something even greater in my life that i could even imagine...It's when it becomes Your will be done Lord...Even Jesus. when he thought of the cross, it became too much, he was so anxious he sweated blood. But when he thought what laid beyond the cross, that his death would bring us life, that we would all be able overcome whatever threatens to make us fall, if he goes through it, He said "Yet not my will Lord, but your will be done"

Ok, so That was last night, my answer will come when I surrender... And then as said before today's revelation was the end from the beginning.

I dont know if anyone else who reads this will understand, I trust you can see how the thread runs through all of this... Again a little summary...

SUMMARY

Storms are going to come. And we may fall, in fact we may fall repeatedly. In fact, if you going to grow in your knowledge, that knowledge is going to be challenged. It's going to be tested (James 1 - count it pure joy when you face trials - because you know the testing of your faith produces perseverance). However Dont wait for the trials to come before you live out the word. Dont just hear the word, Live it, put it into practise. Those are God's words to you. It's not just a good idea, he actually wants to build you up. He actually wants to heal you. He meant it when he made that covenant with you but from your side you need to take that word and make it part of your life, build a solid foundation. And then when you are tested... You're going to be challenged, you going to look at your past, you may say why am I falling in this again, maybe I'll never make it through this... But that's not what God says...He says No, my child I already know the end, Get with me and I will make sure that though the mountains are shaken, my love for you will never be shaken.. My covenant of peace (the rebuilding restoring type of peace) will never be removed. But also know this, in those storms, satan may challenge your view of God, in fact that is the very thing he did to Eve, but didnt God say this? But God said this because he knew you'd be like him if you ate this, that's why he did this... Yes, friend...The enemy is even going to try and bring doubt about who God is and what he said about you...But you gotta know that God's ways arent yours, his thoughts, are higher than your thoughts... I once heard a saying " Don't doubt God, rather doubt your doubts..." And it's so true...

2 Tim 2: 13
if we are faithless,
he will remain faithful,
for he cannot disown himself.

Thats who he is...Faithful... Know your word. Live your word. Know God through the word. Doubt your doubts. Dont believe the lies. About God or about yourself. He loves you more than the whole world put together...Unfailing love.

The ball is in our court. God will not stop loving us. But we need to act on what we believe. Theres so much more he wants to do through us... The word says it is for Freedom that Christ set us free. Not to still sukkel with the same old same old. Let's take this walk to a whole nother level...

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