I have to say that it's amazing what some Word in you can do. I had quiet time till really late last night or should I say this morning, even falling asleep. But the day today just turned for the better. Yes there was a funny/ wack dream with Ridge Forrester, but besides that God gave me ideas for the rest of the year for youth and today had my second week of Lifegroup with the highschool girls, took my cousin with and it was just fun and great - How to Break Bad Habits. And what came out for most of them was that the Faith part...That they hadnt been trusting in God or themselves and just believed this is the way things ought to be. Also it's just an awesome privilege to be a part of just building good values and the sharing the heart of God with youth because I know the difference it makes, and how life is without God... And not sure if I'm supposed to enjoy lifegroup and doing one on one this much but I do, and believe I grow as much as they do when I do... Also had some time with another girl I'm walking with, long overdue, but I trust God that he will complete the work he has started...That is the cry of my heart... That we do finish strong...
So Lord. One more time, I ask trully that by your Spirit you will enable us to live out this word you call us to. Father inspect our hearts, and reveal to us the iniquity... Convict us by your spirit,and build your kingdom firstly in our hearts and in every sphere that you use us to impact... In Jesus Mighty Name. Jesus, Thanks for giving your life that we may know God even better and that we may experience the Spirit. We are really blessed because of your sacrifice.
Amen
Thursday, July 31, 2008
The face of South Africa- Chandré De Wet
The face of South Africa- Chandré De Wet
The face of South Africa
is a multicoloured face
hair of various ethnicities
eyes from blue to black
many languages,dialects and slang
customs and culture a kaleidoscope
What is a South African?
Can one really define?
Except by the beat in the heart
of the one birthed in this nation
or adopted this as home
White, Black,Coloured, Indian, Chinese...
the list goes on and on...
I am a South African
The face of South Africa
is a multicoloured face
hair of various ethnicities
eyes from blue to black
many languages,dialects and slang
customs and culture a kaleidoscope
What is a South African?
Can one really define?
Except by the beat in the heart
of the one birthed in this nation
or adopted this as home
White, Black,Coloured, Indian, Chinese...
the list goes on and on...
I am a South African
Sunday, July 27, 2008
To Blog or Not to Blog...
Ok again on the relationship Girl Guy topic. We just had a long discussion about this after church, and I'm still thinking and questioning and anylysing or over analysing some of the things. But thats whats bloggings for. Perhaps there is nobody to ask these things, but at least in this way I get it out there, even if it's only for myself to reread later and be amused by the way I thought in the past. But why To Blog or not to Blog? Because in the same way, I dont really want people to read this, and they havent yet invented a free blog that stores info on ur hardrive with all the look and feel and ease of use as my blogspot account but not having to post online to blog...Now thats what I would like. But at the same time, I do have some good friends on my multiply blog which is connected to this,so at the same time, if there is some stinking thinking by someone else that I trust reading it I may get good counsel. Well anyway, hence the dilemma. So I repeat.Not posting for others to read, but to get the thoughts running in my head out. But if the reader comments thats up to them, I would respond, but this is more for me than the reader that I do this.
So whats this about relationships. We just had an awesome conference, which will be my next blog hopefully soon. And someone said before you can be a Father you must be a son. Or before you can be mother, you must be a daughter first, then a wife, then a mother, there is a certain order. Now in the same way. What bothers me is that my male friendship circle is completely small. And yes though I may sometimes go on about the fact that I am 28 and single, that is not why I befriend people or look at people in that way firstly. But in terms of a future relationship or maybe I am just being idealistic which I usually am, I would really just like the person to be friend first. And not be my friend becuase they had other motives, but really a friend for friendship sake. So right now I'm not looking for a husband I'm lookign for a friend. And not a friend to become a husband, just a friend to be a friend? Why? and yes of course sometimes one does long for those things in life, but in the same way, life is good for me, it's not those things above serving God, loving people, and having fun while we at it. Like I said in a previous post, I am not twiddling my thumbs and sighing continuously? Maybe I am just in denial.
But someone did one say that the reason why they dont hang out with females between about the ages and 25 - 30 is because they have marriage on the brain. And yes we speak about it, but I did that at 20, 16? Probably depends on the woman. It's like saying you want to own a Lamborgini? Doesnt mean that you want and have to have it now.
So back to the small friendship circle. Maybe at the same time that is the way things are supposed to be? I dont know. When I watched the Bee Movie, I could totally relate to that main bee. Life is so planned out and organized, and sometimes I wish I could just do it my own way? Not saying ignore what the bible says, but things that we do in the world, are they even biblical? Or as I said above maybe I am just in denial.
In terms of marriage and children, Yes of Course I would have loved to be married before 30 and have more than 2 children...? But Life for Chandre has so many times been the opposite that I've expected and planned, and also with all the hiccups,issues and stuff, I just want Gods will for my life, That is what I want above all, and I think I have borne the fruit of that (maybe this is pride speaking, but i see alot of people say one thing, but they dont really try and live what they say out) but in terms of God's will I've really messed up in the past, and the Lord knows Lord, I want to be pleasing unto you. If it means being single for life? Then I'll be cool with this, or married at 40, or married tomorrow I will be fine. I will deal with it. But it's about what God is wanting not society or even myself. Now typing that part of singleness....Now If I am single for life. Does that mean I will have no guy friends? Cause that's surely how it looks. I think that's what was getting to me today, it's like Guys are keeping at an arms length, becuase htey think all we think about is looking for someone to hook up with. but the more they stay away, the less we learn how to relate to guys and just be a friend and a sister, which is what we will be after marriage too to men. Ok maybe guys are staying an arms lengths for other reasons, but who knows I dont know.
(I have to add that I'm not always immune to not having feelings too, but I act on the desires I have to please God and eventually any confusion does go away, through prayer, being accountable or even speaking to the people involved... Just this is a whole nother blog on it's own, and not connected with the above and below thought/rant)
I saw this talk thats advertised on a phillipino(filipino) every nation youth site. They will be having a talk on the differences between men and women. I think that's a great idea! Dispell some of the myths or misunderstandings.
Which now gets me back to my second thought for the week which is not about relationships but about friendships between guys. Been noticing, I could be wrong, but this is my observation. That guys dont really try and connect with other guys. And its not that they dont have the ability to.Cause that very same guy will pour his heart out to his "girl" friend (not girlfriend) Or if the guy is trying to reach some unsaved guy then he will go all out, but otherwise, unless the other party has pursued the friendship for months even years and invaded the other guys personal space, the introduction and occasional greeting is as far as it goes. So that leaves 2 dilemmas I've noticed as a result:
No.1 and this is the main one I think. Is that guys have an opinion of another guy who is maybe chatting to a girl, or doing something the wrong way, or I dont knwo dressing weirdly,etc.etc.etc. But instead of getting into the guys world and speaking to the person and getting to the heart of the person, they stand at a distance and assume, or even give commands and advice when never having had a normal proper conversation with the person. Like when thinking about this in the week. Was thinking about how Ronelle kept repeating. Discipleship is Relationship, Discipleship is Relationship, It really is. Yes, speak into peoples lives, but value getting to know them as much as correcting them.
2. Girls needing to counselling or speak to guys
Again maybe this is just a woman thing, the speaking to other people. I dont know, most of my life, I've been Chandre, not a girl who must sit one side and drink tea, but I had the freedom to play marbles with my cousin even cricket, and even in the IT world you have to mingle to survive and I wont say that I've been a Tomboy but I was just Chandre. And its only lately that I've been noticing that the opposite sex is really different to women. (Zoning out, multitasking, not bonding with other guys)
So now I'm not sure if what I am thinking is a guy thing like I'm saying and maybe just a specific to the situation thing. But back to problem no. 2 because Guys dont go out of their way to talk to other guys, we see the guy standing alone on the side for a while and talk. Or perhaps it's our friends, brothers,cousins,neighbours, etc. we bring to church and introduce to the guys, but then thats as far as it goes, unless as I said earlier the guy who I am introducing to the rest, really goes out of his way to connect with the guys, which is like " what are the chances" he is the new one. And Like even more specifically, I have these guys phoning my number to chat, who I brought to church, and now I'm beginning to wonder is it because of wrong motives, or is it becuase I was friendly and thats the connection to church that they have. And so I dont really talk long back and feel it's not my place to become best friends with these guys, but then again what if their motives are pure and even I am nto speaking to them? Or what if not? I dont know...
Maybe some of the guys on here can answer....
Anyway I did pray this weekend at the conference. Lord if these are some guy issues that are surfacing now please deal with me, I've never been like a good friend once said a feminista. Always just been Chandre friends with guys and girls and not putting them in that category so dont want to become one now and just lately noticing how different we are and because these arent topics spoken about yet and I guess havent been reading the bible in this mindset cuase this is just this week's thoughts I guess wont have the answer soon, or we'll just have to see. Or perhaps life is categories and boxes and I have to get with the program. I dont know...
Maybe I should just take a vow of silence on this issue again, it worked last time.
Well We'll see...
Chan
So whats this about relationships. We just had an awesome conference, which will be my next blog hopefully soon. And someone said before you can be a Father you must be a son. Or before you can be mother, you must be a daughter first, then a wife, then a mother, there is a certain order. Now in the same way. What bothers me is that my male friendship circle is completely small. And yes though I may sometimes go on about the fact that I am 28 and single, that is not why I befriend people or look at people in that way firstly. But in terms of a future relationship or maybe I am just being idealistic which I usually am, I would really just like the person to be friend first. And not be my friend becuase they had other motives, but really a friend for friendship sake. So right now I'm not looking for a husband I'm lookign for a friend. And not a friend to become a husband, just a friend to be a friend? Why? and yes of course sometimes one does long for those things in life, but in the same way, life is good for me, it's not those things above serving God, loving people, and having fun while we at it. Like I said in a previous post, I am not twiddling my thumbs and sighing continuously? Maybe I am just in denial.
But someone did one say that the reason why they dont hang out with females between about the ages and 25 - 30 is because they have marriage on the brain. And yes we speak about it, but I did that at 20, 16? Probably depends on the woman. It's like saying you want to own a Lamborgini? Doesnt mean that you want and have to have it now.
So back to the small friendship circle. Maybe at the same time that is the way things are supposed to be? I dont know. When I watched the Bee Movie, I could totally relate to that main bee. Life is so planned out and organized, and sometimes I wish I could just do it my own way? Not saying ignore what the bible says, but things that we do in the world, are they even biblical? Or as I said above maybe I am just in denial.
In terms of marriage and children, Yes of Course I would have loved to be married before 30 and have more than 2 children...? But Life for Chandre has so many times been the opposite that I've expected and planned, and also with all the hiccups,issues and stuff, I just want Gods will for my life, That is what I want above all, and I think I have borne the fruit of that (maybe this is pride speaking, but i see alot of people say one thing, but they dont really try and live what they say out) but in terms of God's will I've really messed up in the past, and the Lord knows Lord, I want to be pleasing unto you. If it means being single for life? Then I'll be cool with this, or married at 40, or married tomorrow I will be fine. I will deal with it. But it's about what God is wanting not society or even myself. Now typing that part of singleness....Now If I am single for life. Does that mean I will have no guy friends? Cause that's surely how it looks. I think that's what was getting to me today, it's like Guys are keeping at an arms length, becuase htey think all we think about is looking for someone to hook up with. but the more they stay away, the less we learn how to relate to guys and just be a friend and a sister, which is what we will be after marriage too to men. Ok maybe guys are staying an arms lengths for other reasons, but who knows I dont know.
(I have to add that I'm not always immune to not having feelings too, but I act on the desires I have to please God and eventually any confusion does go away, through prayer, being accountable or even speaking to the people involved... Just this is a whole nother blog on it's own, and not connected with the above and below thought/rant)
I saw this talk thats advertised on a phillipino(filipino) every nation youth site. They will be having a talk on the differences between men and women. I think that's a great idea! Dispell some of the myths or misunderstandings.
Which now gets me back to my second thought for the week which is not about relationships but about friendships between guys. Been noticing, I could be wrong, but this is my observation. That guys dont really try and connect with other guys. And its not that they dont have the ability to.Cause that very same guy will pour his heart out to his "girl" friend (not girlfriend) Or if the guy is trying to reach some unsaved guy then he will go all out, but otherwise, unless the other party has pursued the friendship for months even years and invaded the other guys personal space, the introduction and occasional greeting is as far as it goes. So that leaves 2 dilemmas I've noticed as a result:
No.1 and this is the main one I think. Is that guys have an opinion of another guy who is maybe chatting to a girl, or doing something the wrong way, or I dont knwo dressing weirdly,etc.etc.etc. But instead of getting into the guys world and speaking to the person and getting to the heart of the person, they stand at a distance and assume, or even give commands and advice when never having had a normal proper conversation with the person. Like when thinking about this in the week. Was thinking about how Ronelle kept repeating. Discipleship is Relationship, Discipleship is Relationship, It really is. Yes, speak into peoples lives, but value getting to know them as much as correcting them.
2. Girls needing to counselling or speak to guys
Again maybe this is just a woman thing, the speaking to other people. I dont know, most of my life, I've been Chandre, not a girl who must sit one side and drink tea, but I had the freedom to play marbles with my cousin even cricket, and even in the IT world you have to mingle to survive and I wont say that I've been a Tomboy but I was just Chandre. And its only lately that I've been noticing that the opposite sex is really different to women. (Zoning out, multitasking, not bonding with other guys)
So now I'm not sure if what I am thinking is a guy thing like I'm saying and maybe just a specific to the situation thing. But back to problem no. 2 because Guys dont go out of their way to talk to other guys, we see the guy standing alone on the side for a while and talk. Or perhaps it's our friends, brothers,cousins,neighbours, etc. we bring to church and introduce to the guys, but then thats as far as it goes, unless as I said earlier the guy who I am introducing to the rest, really goes out of his way to connect with the guys, which is like " what are the chances" he is the new one. And Like even more specifically, I have these guys phoning my number to chat, who I brought to church, and now I'm beginning to wonder is it because of wrong motives, or is it becuase I was friendly and thats the connection to church that they have. And so I dont really talk long back and feel it's not my place to become best friends with these guys, but then again what if their motives are pure and even I am nto speaking to them? Or what if not? I dont know...
Maybe some of the guys on here can answer....
Anyway I did pray this weekend at the conference. Lord if these are some guy issues that are surfacing now please deal with me, I've never been like a good friend once said a feminista. Always just been Chandre friends with guys and girls and not putting them in that category so dont want to become one now and just lately noticing how different we are and because these arent topics spoken about yet and I guess havent been reading the bible in this mindset cuase this is just this week's thoughts I guess wont have the answer soon, or we'll just have to see. Or perhaps life is categories and boxes and I have to get with the program. I dont know...
Maybe I should just take a vow of silence on this issue again, it worked last time.
Well We'll see...
Chan
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Lessons on Leadership, Life and I think Love
Let me start with Leadership...
I think I may have mentioned this in a previous post the one on Holiday Club I htink, that leading Leaders is hard? Well I'm going to ditto that again, except today I learnt its' not only leading leaders, but leading versus serving is hard. We had our youth leaders meeting and what I got out of it is that it's not just about going there cause you love youth and God and want to serve, but because of that Love for God and youth you lead the youth. And that is 2 completely different things. Just serving means, being there, doing my thing, befriending, loving, worshipping, connecting etc. Leading means yes doing all of that but even more discipling and taking them there where you've been till they are doing everything I said above and leading others in it. So it means being confident enough and taking the youth from point a to b and having that vision in mind. It means keeping focus. It means having a mind shift. It means you being there first.You cant take them to a place you havent been. Leadership is not easy...(AND SCARY)!But I guess you cant avoid it either. As I told someone in the week. The moment we get saved we become leader. No doubt about it. So the question isnt whether we are a leader or not but whether we are a good leader or working towards, it.etc. Cause people are watching our lives and the way we live shows them how they should be...So I guess for my birthday I probably will be at that Leadership Conference...Though still not so sure but it's leaning on 90%. May have dinner with the family... Or the Sunday Family and Friends bring and share, not sure...
Life.
Have to include a Sara Groves Quote here:
Sometimes it's hard to tell what to keep and what to kill
What of this makes us who we are
All that we love the most, all that we cannot let go
How much of change can we survive?
**** This verse speaks and speaks and speaks to me.
I'm here to re-write this tragedy
One line at a time
Hold on, I'm changing all the scenery
It's okay we'll be fine
Cause we know how this ends
We know there's a better story
**** Can remember the other day singing from this point on and not entirely sure, or trying not to think about the what ifs if it's not fine, if there isnt a better story, but praise God, there is. And he has come through!
There's a better story
Of true love of true grace
There's the hope of glory
And our first chance to be truly brave
It's the place we're going
When we can't stay where we are
It's been hectic. But God has been so faithful! Wow...This is a summary of what I learnt in this time... Obedience is better than Sacrifice... Obedience through Forgiveness, Humility, honour, Respect, Obedience, Trying again, Even if misunderstood, to Honour God first, is better than Walking away Sacrificing the relationship. This goes hand in hand with a quote I once heard. The opposite of love is not hate, but selfishness ( in this case pride)... Love puts aside the pride and humbles themself. God even used the King James Version to just remind me even though I rebel against the king James version. but the bible I had didnt have Philippians so I had to use the KJV. Phil 2
Philippians 2
1If there be therefore any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any bowels and mercies,
2Fulfil ye my joy, that ye be likeminded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind.
3Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves.
4Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.
5Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:
6Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God:
7But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:
8And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.
Servant, Obedient, Humbled, No reputation, No strife, Vain Glory
Love...
Someone asked how does one get more of this sacrifical love.I hope I have it right, but firstly it comes from loving God and letting his love fill and change me. No. 2 Our hearts, as we ask God to Search our hearts, Test our thoughts, See if there is any iniquity in us and to lead us in the way everlasting. As we ask him to teach us his ways. Being mindful that God requires circumcision of heart, and he does not look at appearance but our hearts, So that we would daily, minute by minute bring our hearts before him. Ask him to purify it, thats how this sacrificial love would grow in our hearts...
Oh here was our conversation or bits of it....
11:02pmFriend
so how do i allow that reall sacrificial love to grow?
11:03pmChandré
GOD is all I can say
And it's not easy..
E.g it was easier for me to forgive most
of my life, but since I'm made a point of wanting to work at certian relationships now the pride and stubborness that I never struggled with my whole life is coming in
But becuase of Him, and me wanting to be who he wants me to be, He and I together can do this
Oh ja on another note, I'm reading the bible from the beginning and at 2 Samuel now...One thing I see so far, but it may change in the new testament, it's really has to do with your heart
11:11pmChandré
So as the end of Psalm 139 says Search my heart oh God
I think the best thing for u to do in order to love the way God wants u to love
is firstly to love God and allow his love to fill and change your heart
11:11pmChandré
And then constantly ask God to search your heart
test it
and lead u in the way everlasting.To teach you his ways
11:14pmChandré
Oh by the way my definition of Love... (found this in one of my notes)
4.Believe in love:
Of course, but even bigger than that I believe in God who defines love so I know that my version of what it is isnt even a drop and so am letting him teach me
you should really say God, U teach me and he does!
I think I may have mentioned this in a previous post the one on Holiday Club I htink, that leading Leaders is hard? Well I'm going to ditto that again, except today I learnt its' not only leading leaders, but leading versus serving is hard. We had our youth leaders meeting and what I got out of it is that it's not just about going there cause you love youth and God and want to serve, but because of that Love for God and youth you lead the youth. And that is 2 completely different things. Just serving means, being there, doing my thing, befriending, loving, worshipping, connecting etc. Leading means yes doing all of that but even more discipling and taking them there where you've been till they are doing everything I said above and leading others in it. So it means being confident enough and taking the youth from point a to b and having that vision in mind. It means keeping focus. It means having a mind shift. It means you being there first.You cant take them to a place you havent been. Leadership is not easy...(AND SCARY)!But I guess you cant avoid it either. As I told someone in the week. The moment we get saved we become leader. No doubt about it. So the question isnt whether we are a leader or not but whether we are a good leader or working towards, it.etc. Cause people are watching our lives and the way we live shows them how they should be...So I guess for my birthday I probably will be at that Leadership Conference...Though still not so sure but it's leaning on 90%. May have dinner with the family... Or the Sunday Family and Friends bring and share, not sure...
Life.
Have to include a Sara Groves Quote here:
Sometimes it's hard to tell what to keep and what to kill
What of this makes us who we are
All that we love the most, all that we cannot let go
How much of change can we survive?
**** This verse speaks and speaks and speaks to me.
I'm here to re-write this tragedy
One line at a time
Hold on, I'm changing all the scenery
It's okay we'll be fine
Cause we know how this ends
We know there's a better story
**** Can remember the other day singing from this point on and not entirely sure, or trying not to think about the what ifs if it's not fine, if there isnt a better story, but praise God, there is. And he has come through!
There's a better story
Of true love of true grace
There's the hope of glory
And our first chance to be truly brave
It's the place we're going
When we can't stay where we are
It's been hectic. But God has been so faithful! Wow...This is a summary of what I learnt in this time... Obedience is better than Sacrifice... Obedience through Forgiveness, Humility, honour, Respect, Obedience, Trying again, Even if misunderstood, to Honour God first, is better than Walking away Sacrificing the relationship. This goes hand in hand with a quote I once heard. The opposite of love is not hate, but selfishness ( in this case pride)... Love puts aside the pride and humbles themself. God even used the King James Version to just remind me even though I rebel against the king James version. but the bible I had didnt have Philippians so I had to use the KJV. Phil 2
Philippians 2
1If there be therefore any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any bowels and mercies,
2Fulfil ye my joy, that ye be likeminded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind.
3Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves.
4Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.
5Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:
6Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God:
7But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:
8And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.
Servant, Obedient, Humbled, No reputation, No strife, Vain Glory
Love...
Someone asked how does one get more of this sacrifical love.I hope I have it right, but firstly it comes from loving God and letting his love fill and change me. No. 2 Our hearts, as we ask God to Search our hearts, Test our thoughts, See if there is any iniquity in us and to lead us in the way everlasting. As we ask him to teach us his ways. Being mindful that God requires circumcision of heart, and he does not look at appearance but our hearts, So that we would daily, minute by minute bring our hearts before him. Ask him to purify it, thats how this sacrificial love would grow in our hearts...
Oh here was our conversation or bits of it....
11:02pmFriend
so how do i allow that reall sacrificial love to grow?
11:03pmChandré
GOD is all I can say
And it's not easy..
E.g it was easier for me to forgive most
of my life, but since I'm made a point of wanting to work at certian relationships now the pride and stubborness that I never struggled with my whole life is coming in
But becuase of Him, and me wanting to be who he wants me to be, He and I together can do this
Oh ja on another note, I'm reading the bible from the beginning and at 2 Samuel now...One thing I see so far, but it may change in the new testament, it's really has to do with your heart
11:11pmChandré
So as the end of Psalm 139 says Search my heart oh God
I think the best thing for u to do in order to love the way God wants u to love
is firstly to love God and allow his love to fill and change your heart
11:11pmChandré
And then constantly ask God to search your heart
test it
and lead u in the way everlasting.To teach you his ways
11:14pmChandré
Oh by the way my definition of Love... (found this in one of my notes)
4.Believe in love:
Of course, but even bigger than that I believe in God who defines love so I know that my version of what it is isnt even a drop and so am letting him teach me
you should really say God, U teach me and he does!
Monday, July 14, 2008
Blessings in terms of Holiday Club
1) The Kids and Youth who came! "I read 1 John 1:9 and it doesnt say Stop Oh Yes!" Youth being eager to participate even those who seemed to not be into the fun and games, came back every night! the gifts and just the closeness in the teen program, and in the kiddies of course all the love, all the kids practising memory verses, smiles after club. Complaining it's too short! Parents happy! Parents at Parent evening! Reading the scripture Kevin preached about at Parent evening in Judges after the night by accident.
2) Testimony sharing of the leaders on Thursday night! The jokes! And amazing ability to set up decor and programs in record time with excellence. The angel and mortals...! The enlarged territory of the leaders now after club!
3) Getting the hall for friday night for free, God you are amazing, the function is soma cancelled!
4) Getting OROS from Mcd's the day our Oros ran up which was more than enough!
5) Robyn dreaming about Lucinda making us crunchies and then the next day a lunchbox of crunchies in the kitchen, that a girl in her class blessed us with. ThankYou Lord, that was you...
6) Soup Yes, but Slap Chips and Mcd's the friday!
7) My car not running out of petrol even though I drove up and down on empty with 8 altogether in my car...
Will add more to the list
some of the children...
2) Testimony sharing of the leaders on Thursday night! The jokes! And amazing ability to set up decor and programs in record time with excellence. The angel and mortals...! The enlarged territory of the leaders now after club!
3) Getting the hall for friday night for free, God you are amazing, the function is soma cancelled!
4) Getting OROS from Mcd's the day our Oros ran up which was more than enough!
5) Robyn dreaming about Lucinda making us crunchies and then the next day a lunchbox of crunchies in the kitchen, that a girl in her class blessed us with. ThankYou Lord, that was you...
6) Soup Yes, but Slap Chips and Mcd's the friday!
7) My car not running out of petrol even though I drove up and down on empty with 8 altogether in my car...
Will add more to the list
some of the children...
Thoughts!
Relationships
The funny thing about me is that I worry about things I asked for. For e.g I just found a list I wrote years ago of what I want in my Mr Right...May still add this later but we'll see. And at the end I ask God that when he send's Mr Right that It will be Mr Right. And that God will give me a strogn will if the wrong person comes in my life. So I wonder why no temptation comes, or why it doesnt work out with people who I think is great, but that is what I asked for. That God would keep Mr Wrongs away and reveal to me/give me a strong will if the wrong person comes in my life and he has been pretty faithful in that! By making me not want people, but rather want His will for me
Revelations
This is a hectic scripture I read today...
Joshua says in Joshua 24:15
"But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD."
The people respond by saying in vs 16...
"Far be it from us to forsake the LORD to serve other gods! 17 It was the LORD our God himself who brought us and our fathers up out of Egypt, from that land of slavery, and performed those great signs before our eyes. He protected us on our entire journey and among all the nations through which we traveled. 18 And the LORD drove out before us all the nations, including the Amorites, who lived in the land. We too will serve the LORD, because he is our God."
Then
19 Joshua said to the people, "You are not able to serve the LORD. He is a holy God; he is a jealous God. He will not forgive your rebellion and your sins. 20 If you forsake the LORD and serve foreign gods, he will turn and bring disaster on you and make an end of you, after he has been good to you."
Hectic
21 But the people said to Joshua, "No! We will serve the LORD."
Then Joshua said, "You are witnesses against yourselves that you have chosen to serve the LORD."
"Yes, we are witnesses," they replied.
23 "Now then," said Joshua, "throw away the foreign gods that are among you and yield your hearts to the LORD, the God of Israel."
24 And the people said to Joshua, "We will serve the LORD our God and obey him."
25 On that day Joshua made a covenant for the people, and there at Shechem he drew up for them decrees and laws. 26 And Joshua recorded these things in the Book of the Law of God. Then he took a large stone and set it up there under the oak near the holy place of the LORD.
27 "See!" he said to all the people. "This stone will be a witness against us. It has heard all the words the LORD has said to us. It will be a witness against you if you are untrue to your God."
Hectic Hectic...
Serving God is not easy...Like Pastor said today, not for the fainthearted. Bit of a catch 22 situation. You know you cant without him, yet in you there is no righteousness. Thank You once again Lord Jesus for becoming our righteousness, and that in you we can be faithful to God.
Thoughts on Leading Holiday Club
This was hectic for me.Very different to lead strong leaders than to go out and reach the lost. At times very frustrated that it seemed people werent' listening to me or getting the heart/jist of it. But then sunday was heavily convicted in church. Truth is, if the leaders should listen to me. who should I be listening to.? If I was struggling to have my quiet time and listen to my leader (God) how can I expect of them to listen to me... And yet everytime I took that minute, or 5 or 10 minutes, God intervened...
Just like in Judges, where everytime the people repented God came through...
Straight after holiday club although there were blessings and fruits all I could see is how I failed. But today I'm choosing to look at the positives and learn from the negatives. And believe me there were more positive than negative. Robz even got a job today! (Again is it about me when just looking at the Negative) Had a quick chat with Lesley F and he said I should think about what I learnt about God and what I learnt about me in this time
Humble Pie lessons!
On that note...
Some words that have been standing out for me
Inconveniant.
- An Inconveniant Call - Ps Frank
- Inconvenience - Humility - Going out of your way for someone else - Jesse and me conversation
- Inconveniant to serve and make a difference in someone else's life which is what God is calling us to do, be brave and do it - Ps Phil at Hillsong last night.
Work wise.
Heard the opportunity passed me by which was in some ways again an uncertainty and in other ways a relief. because I was feeling this is a bit hectic to me. Also a bit frustrated (though frustration is not good as can lead to sin) with myself cause I said I need a word from God that I'm doing the right thing and that money will come in. I got not only 1 but 2, but didnt stand on the word! And 7 months later, a bit scared of how it will work out and should actually be having faith now! Is getting a job copping out? God Your will be done!
The funny thing about me is that I worry about things I asked for. For e.g I just found a list I wrote years ago of what I want in my Mr Right...May still add this later but we'll see. And at the end I ask God that when he send's Mr Right that It will be Mr Right. And that God will give me a strogn will if the wrong person comes in my life. So I wonder why no temptation comes, or why it doesnt work out with people who I think is great, but that is what I asked for. That God would keep Mr Wrongs away and reveal to me/give me a strong will if the wrong person comes in my life and he has been pretty faithful in that! By making me not want people, but rather want His will for me
Revelations
This is a hectic scripture I read today...
Joshua says in Joshua 24:15
"But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD."
The people respond by saying in vs 16...
"Far be it from us to forsake the LORD to serve other gods! 17 It was the LORD our God himself who brought us and our fathers up out of Egypt, from that land of slavery, and performed those great signs before our eyes. He protected us on our entire journey and among all the nations through which we traveled. 18 And the LORD drove out before us all the nations, including the Amorites, who lived in the land. We too will serve the LORD, because he is our God."
Then
19 Joshua said to the people, "You are not able to serve the LORD. He is a holy God; he is a jealous God. He will not forgive your rebellion and your sins. 20 If you forsake the LORD and serve foreign gods, he will turn and bring disaster on you and make an end of you, after he has been good to you."
Hectic
21 But the people said to Joshua, "No! We will serve the LORD."
Then Joshua said, "You are witnesses against yourselves that you have chosen to serve the LORD."
"Yes, we are witnesses," they replied.
23 "Now then," said Joshua, "throw away the foreign gods that are among you and yield your hearts to the LORD, the God of Israel."
24 And the people said to Joshua, "We will serve the LORD our God and obey him."
25 On that day Joshua made a covenant for the people, and there at Shechem he drew up for them decrees and laws. 26 And Joshua recorded these things in the Book of the Law of God. Then he took a large stone and set it up there under the oak near the holy place of the LORD.
27 "See!" he said to all the people. "This stone will be a witness against us. It has heard all the words the LORD has said to us. It will be a witness against you if you are untrue to your God."
Hectic Hectic...
Serving God is not easy...Like Pastor said today, not for the fainthearted. Bit of a catch 22 situation. You know you cant without him, yet in you there is no righteousness. Thank You once again Lord Jesus for becoming our righteousness, and that in you we can be faithful to God.
Thoughts on Leading Holiday Club
This was hectic for me.Very different to lead strong leaders than to go out and reach the lost. At times very frustrated that it seemed people werent' listening to me or getting the heart/jist of it. But then sunday was heavily convicted in church. Truth is, if the leaders should listen to me. who should I be listening to.? If I was struggling to have my quiet time and listen to my leader (God) how can I expect of them to listen to me... And yet everytime I took that minute, or 5 or 10 minutes, God intervened...
Just like in Judges, where everytime the people repented God came through...
Straight after holiday club although there were blessings and fruits all I could see is how I failed. But today I'm choosing to look at the positives and learn from the negatives. And believe me there were more positive than negative. Robz even got a job today! (Again is it about me when just looking at the Negative) Had a quick chat with Lesley F and he said I should think about what I learnt about God and what I learnt about me in this time
Humble Pie lessons!
On that note...
Some words that have been standing out for me
Inconveniant.
- An Inconveniant Call - Ps Frank
- Inconvenience - Humility - Going out of your way for someone else - Jesse and me conversation
- Inconveniant to serve and make a difference in someone else's life which is what God is calling us to do, be brave and do it - Ps Phil at Hillsong last night.
Work wise.
Heard the opportunity passed me by which was in some ways again an uncertainty and in other ways a relief. because I was feeling this is a bit hectic to me. Also a bit frustrated (though frustration is not good as can lead to sin) with myself cause I said I need a word from God that I'm doing the right thing and that money will come in. I got not only 1 but 2, but didnt stand on the word! And 7 months later, a bit scared of how it will work out and should actually be having faith now! Is getting a job copping out? God Your will be done!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
While we on the topic
We had a conversation about singleness and waiting,and who is the one etc. Tonight. It was a very funny one, but while we on the topic I thought I'd just put down some points.
In terms of my future husband. Let it be said that I'm not sitting at home twiddling my thumbs and just waiting for Mr Right to come alone. Life is way to hectic. However there are certain dreams in terms of marriage and children and as each year goes by and there isnt even a hint of who it could be it is a bit scary, but then you remember that God is more than enough and just continue with what you know he is calling you to do for now. Not wanting to settle just becuase I'll be 28 in 12 days!
in terms of who. I had a long list of things I like, tall, pink cheeks, musician, Friend!, deep. But. I know what I want is what God wants for me. I like these things, but I'm sure that whoever God has for me even if he isnt one of these things he is what I need and will desire. So, ja I'm not looking for someone to match criteria, I'm saying God, you send who you have in mind for me, and I know he will be the best for me. In the past I've had who I thought was best for me and it didnt work out proving that I dont know what is good for me. So ja, no. 1 I'm not desperate, but waiting, no.2 the one who God has for me is what will make me happy and to that I dont know the answer.
no.3 Doesnt mean I dont get distracted and thats one of the main reasons I would like to know the person now, It kinda answers the who? question.
no.4 I would like the person to be a friend first. I dont want to befriend someone because I like them, I would like it the other way around. However our circle of friends is so tiny and I know it's not one of them,so thats a bit scary, cause maybe I am making a tall order...
So ja, let me continue waiting patiently, I have no idea how things will work out, cause looking at it in the natural there is no clue. Will continue loving God and Loving people and trust that if things change that God's hand will be on it and it wont be too scary for me...
More to follow?
In terms of my future husband. Let it be said that I'm not sitting at home twiddling my thumbs and just waiting for Mr Right to come alone. Life is way to hectic. However there are certain dreams in terms of marriage and children and as each year goes by and there isnt even a hint of who it could be it is a bit scary, but then you remember that God is more than enough and just continue with what you know he is calling you to do for now. Not wanting to settle just becuase I'll be 28 in 12 days!
in terms of who. I had a long list of things I like, tall, pink cheeks, musician, Friend!, deep. But. I know what I want is what God wants for me. I like these things, but I'm sure that whoever God has for me even if he isnt one of these things he is what I need and will desire. So, ja I'm not looking for someone to match criteria, I'm saying God, you send who you have in mind for me, and I know he will be the best for me. In the past I've had who I thought was best for me and it didnt work out proving that I dont know what is good for me. So ja, no. 1 I'm not desperate, but waiting, no.2 the one who God has for me is what will make me happy and to that I dont know the answer.
no.3 Doesnt mean I dont get distracted and thats one of the main reasons I would like to know the person now, It kinda answers the who? question.
no.4 I would like the person to be a friend first. I dont want to befriend someone because I like them, I would like it the other way around. However our circle of friends is so tiny and I know it's not one of them,so thats a bit scary, cause maybe I am making a tall order...
So ja, let me continue waiting patiently, I have no idea how things will work out, cause looking at it in the natural there is no clue. Will continue loving God and Loving people and trust that if things change that God's hand will be on it and it wont be too scary for me...
More to follow?
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