Told you all about how I've been blessed, Gods hand clearly upon my life in getting this job, etc. etc.
Just thought today it could be the other way around too. That God knew this class needed a teacher who wont see only the worst in them but believe the best. I dont know what happened in the 7 months before I came, but I do know that God gave me beauty for ashes... And so therefore he is able to turn the class around.
Anyway, can't say I'll keep you posted because I dont really want to post other people's personal issues on here, but keep praying for 9E, Sarepta and me and the teachers. in Jesus Name.Amen!
Monday, August 25, 2008
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
today....
today, i saw a girl and a boy fight,
piercing eyes, shoving, kicking
and a bag thrown in the face
other children had to help seperate the two
and I had to run to press the button calling the principal
and get the teacher next door before the fight grew out of control or more people joined in
At the same time as I saw the rage I thought, how do I know these children arent being beaten up in the same way at home, and thats the only way they know how to handle the situation.
It was extra sad, when I find out in the office the girl doesnt have parents, and is actually a good girl realising that the way they survive these classes and life is by fending for themselves.
Today I heard a teacher sad, tired and drained
having arrived back from hospital and pouring his heart out into his class
Only to go back to class and see the class more rowdy than before.
Today I heard teachers speaking about how they arent protected and how a learner won a case against the WCED for smoking dagga on the school and another who came to school with a sword and the school was blamed...
If you've never prayed for schools before. Now is the time to start. They are our future and if I go with what I see it looks bleak, but thank God when we look through our spiritual eyes, there is hope to turn the tide, So pray for our schools and if you want to pray for me, pray for the teachers of the school I'm at as well as my grade 9 E.
piercing eyes, shoving, kicking
and a bag thrown in the face
other children had to help seperate the two
and I had to run to press the button calling the principal
and get the teacher next door before the fight grew out of control or more people joined in
At the same time as I saw the rage I thought, how do I know these children arent being beaten up in the same way at home, and thats the only way they know how to handle the situation.
It was extra sad, when I find out in the office the girl doesnt have parents, and is actually a good girl realising that the way they survive these classes and life is by fending for themselves.
Today I heard a teacher sad, tired and drained
having arrived back from hospital and pouring his heart out into his class
Only to go back to class and see the class more rowdy than before.
Today I heard teachers speaking about how they arent protected and how a learner won a case against the WCED for smoking dagga on the school and another who came to school with a sword and the school was blamed...
If you've never prayed for schools before. Now is the time to start. They are our future and if I go with what I see it looks bleak, but thank God when we look through our spiritual eyes, there is hope to turn the tide, So pray for our schools and if you want to pray for me, pray for the teachers of the school I'm at as well as my grade 9 E.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Provision
Well just got back from lifegroup and just hanging with the youth and was blessed yet again. The girls were all saying how financial difficulty affects their lives and then I encouraged them with something I encouraged myself and God encouraged me with...
So let me back track...
On Sunday during tithes and offerings. As I sat there about to tithe and give God what I had to, I thought... What would I say if I was sharing the tithe and offering message. And I was thinking that sort of tithe and offering I do sort of out of duty. I dont hesitate...Ok sometimes slightly when I'm unsure if I did or not, but in general tithing is something I see as part of life there's no question... and when I have I give. But when it comes to being expectant full of faith about receiving or sowing... thats where it comes a bit harder for me. Cause all the time in my head it says dont give because you expect back so I dont really expect back but at the same time it's been grey clouds financially. That and my stewardship that is normally my prayer when tithing. God help me to get a breakthrough in the way I handle my money.... So I start thinking what would I say and this is what came to me:
"Remember when you were struggling to receive God's love....What was God's answer to you to receive it... Love on him. And love on him, you did. And as you began to love God, your heart began to stretch to be able to receive his love, plus the love that he pours back onto you for just blessing him with your love.
In the same way if you want to receive financial breakthrough from God, begin to give. Give your money,and give it with a grateful giving heart. Not because of obligation, duty, or other motives, but develop a giving heart... And as you give, sow, Give yourself, your possessions, time, etc... you are stretching yourself to receive what God will give back to you and pour back into your life. Not because you are doing it to receive but doing it because its a part of who you are. "
I then through my money in the bowl with a different heart. Saying thankyou, Loving on Him, and being grateful. And giving in my attitude.
Little did I know things would change this week. And I as I blogged previously I got a job at the school that I love!
So it's no.1 If you want breakthrough begin to give.
no.2 So in cell this topic comes up again, I spent my last cash today and wondered how I'm going to get to tech tomorrow to write my exam, and so as the girls keep bringing up financial issues ( just realised the connection now with their issues and my breakthroughs ) and how it does affect their lives as it affects their parents moods,etc... I begin to share the revelation of Sunday to them. So encourage them to start giving, time, a smile, money if they have,etc.etc. While I am sharing this the older lady at the next table gives me a smile. After the cell she says she is so inspired by what she has seen and it just made a day of God giving her breakthrough just end even greater...To see the youth are in God. We spoke a little, and she mentioned something about the Seed which she said she will share again if I come and visit her in Klapmuts where she lives. She then slipped an envelope in my hand which I was too embarassed to open there and waited till later, just before she left toopen it. and there was R100. I then ran outside to thank her and as you know I now have what I needed to get to university. God is amazing.
Lastly no 3. He provides for my daily need. He showed me in 2 scriptures Ezra and Solomons rebuilding of the temple (which I will share later) that he will see to my daily need. And he really has been taking care of me on a daily basis.
So let me back track...
On Sunday during tithes and offerings. As I sat there about to tithe and give God what I had to, I thought... What would I say if I was sharing the tithe and offering message. And I was thinking that sort of tithe and offering I do sort of out of duty. I dont hesitate...Ok sometimes slightly when I'm unsure if I did or not, but in general tithing is something I see as part of life there's no question... and when I have I give. But when it comes to being expectant full of faith about receiving or sowing... thats where it comes a bit harder for me. Cause all the time in my head it says dont give because you expect back so I dont really expect back but at the same time it's been grey clouds financially. That and my stewardship that is normally my prayer when tithing. God help me to get a breakthrough in the way I handle my money.... So I start thinking what would I say and this is what came to me:
"Remember when you were struggling to receive God's love....What was God's answer to you to receive it... Love on him. And love on him, you did. And as you began to love God, your heart began to stretch to be able to receive his love, plus the love that he pours back onto you for just blessing him with your love.
In the same way if you want to receive financial breakthrough from God, begin to give. Give your money,and give it with a grateful giving heart. Not because of obligation, duty, or other motives, but develop a giving heart... And as you give, sow, Give yourself, your possessions, time, etc... you are stretching yourself to receive what God will give back to you and pour back into your life. Not because you are doing it to receive but doing it because its a part of who you are. "
I then through my money in the bowl with a different heart. Saying thankyou, Loving on Him, and being grateful. And giving in my attitude.
Little did I know things would change this week. And I as I blogged previously I got a job at the school that I love!
So it's no.1 If you want breakthrough begin to give.
no.2 So in cell this topic comes up again, I spent my last cash today and wondered how I'm going to get to tech tomorrow to write my exam, and so as the girls keep bringing up financial issues ( just realised the connection now with their issues and my breakthroughs ) and how it does affect their lives as it affects their parents moods,etc... I begin to share the revelation of Sunday to them. So encourage them to start giving, time, a smile, money if they have,etc.etc. While I am sharing this the older lady at the next table gives me a smile. After the cell she says she is so inspired by what she has seen and it just made a day of God giving her breakthrough just end even greater...To see the youth are in God. We spoke a little, and she mentioned something about the Seed which she said she will share again if I come and visit her in Klapmuts where she lives. She then slipped an envelope in my hand which I was too embarassed to open there and waited till later, just before she left toopen it. and there was R100. I then ran outside to thank her and as you know I now have what I needed to get to university. God is amazing.
Lastly no 3. He provides for my daily need. He showed me in 2 scriptures Ezra and Solomons rebuilding of the temple (which I will share later) that he will see to my daily need. And he really has been taking care of me on a daily basis.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
My Great News...And isn't God just Great..!
So this year begins with being retrenched which was semi ok for me because last year I had already begun to think about what I would be doing instead if I wasnt in IT and the list had narrowed down to two options... 1)full time ministry and 2)studying teaching. I then said well let me just finish my btech and pay off my debts first, but then got the news that I wouldnt be working there anymore, but at the same time it was just exactly the kind of news one needed to hear to actually pursue your dreams and even my parents at that stage were in agreement, because they were kind of tired of me moaning about IT :) And it wasnt the work or the people cause I quite enjoyed the training and creating things I had never heard of before.But at the same time I so longed to use my energy for the things that I love, giving my life to build up others not businesses. And besides that comments from friends and people I didnt know and even the timing of the news, it was the right moment to step out... (God has this funny way of preparing your for things, but more of that later)
Then after waiting for scripture and getting two(wasnt prepared to step out if i didnt know it was from God) of them I decided to volunteer this youth for the Drayc NGO, and that would be pioneering the school project at my old highschool. I went to the school, met with the Life Orientation teacher, and Christian Union leader, gave one of the lessons there, and then holidays came. After the holidays we were so busy with carnival things that by the time I went back to the school it was June Holidays... After the holiday, there was no more money coming in and my parents were also going through some financial stuff, so basically there was no extra money for my car, or studies next year, or anything, and debits are going off on empty bank accounts. And it seemed that everything is saying now is the time to get a job? But at the same time I was worrying that I did not do my part in terms of finances and knew/or thought that I would regret that I didnt finish what I was starting on the highschool and in ministry? And wasnt sure if this was giving up? Or perhaps a new season or end of that season...?
My parents began to suggest that I get a teaching job seeing as I want to teach and I was a bit scared because I know I don't have a qualification to teach yet. And so I said "o-ok" but didnt really go out of my way yet to look for a job because was still trusting that somehow the finances would come and I would be able to finish the year that I had set aside. Then came a " two week relieving an English teacher post", that my mom heard through one of her clients.That didnt sound too hectic, short term, the teacher supports you,some cash. I started getting my cv ready. At the same time I saw this youth worker post in Franschoek on the net. Which I didnt mind either cause I love Franschoek :)
So now really began to get my cv ready. Then went to the school to inform them of my Btech project and their possible involvement. And also said to the life orientation teacher that I will unfortunately not be able to help them anymore as I need to get a job. And then mentioned that I was applying for the 2 week relieve teacher post. She then told me they are currently urgently looking for a teacher. I must bring my cv in when I come to speak to the principal about the Mxit project. I then sat and cleaned up my cv. Came to meet with the principal yesterday but he was too busy (kids involved in things they shouldnt do. cant wait to be a part of setting that right) and then I had to meet with the deputy principal who didnt know why I was there, and was extremely friendly wanting to know what I've been doing for the past ten years, etc.etc...I then told him why i was there, and the education direction I was heading in. He then said he will give my cv to the principal I will have to share the detail with him, but the only person interested in the post called the day before to say they not taking the job... He arranged that I meet the principal 9h30 today. The principal also called to my house to confirm the time.
I then dressed up. Although it was not an interview? I wasnt sure, and wasnt sure if the heels was too much or should I wear my wonderful Ugs? :) how do u spell this. But dressed properly regardless. I went in the office not knowing what to expect. It wasnt an interview but more a discussion of what will be expected, how much it wil pay etc.etc...And will be signing the contract tomorrow which I have a feeling may be day one too. Hence my mom told me to pack in bread... :)))
Anyway...Isnt God Great...! And the way he prepares you for something... Even my parents just nudging me and letting me know of opportunities... I still get to volunteer ::) Cause I'm there... and I am getting paid and I'm doing something I know I'll love and will give me experience for when I'm done with my studies. And it's so near that I will save lots on petrol and can even walk :)
Anyway. Time for bed. It's funny how everything works out... We have a faithful God. Like the word says. Even if we are not he is faithful. Cause he cannot go against who he is.
Chan
Then after waiting for scripture and getting two(wasnt prepared to step out if i didnt know it was from God) of them I decided to volunteer this youth for the Drayc NGO, and that would be pioneering the school project at my old highschool. I went to the school, met with the Life Orientation teacher, and Christian Union leader, gave one of the lessons there, and then holidays came. After the holidays we were so busy with carnival things that by the time I went back to the school it was June Holidays... After the holiday, there was no more money coming in and my parents were also going through some financial stuff, so basically there was no extra money for my car, or studies next year, or anything, and debits are going off on empty bank accounts. And it seemed that everything is saying now is the time to get a job? But at the same time I was worrying that I did not do my part in terms of finances and knew/or thought that I would regret that I didnt finish what I was starting on the highschool and in ministry? And wasnt sure if this was giving up? Or perhaps a new season or end of that season...?
My parents began to suggest that I get a teaching job seeing as I want to teach and I was a bit scared because I know I don't have a qualification to teach yet. And so I said "o-ok" but didnt really go out of my way yet to look for a job because was still trusting that somehow the finances would come and I would be able to finish the year that I had set aside. Then came a " two week relieving an English teacher post", that my mom heard through one of her clients.That didnt sound too hectic, short term, the teacher supports you,some cash. I started getting my cv ready. At the same time I saw this youth worker post in Franschoek on the net. Which I didnt mind either cause I love Franschoek :)
So now really began to get my cv ready. Then went to the school to inform them of my Btech project and their possible involvement. And also said to the life orientation teacher that I will unfortunately not be able to help them anymore as I need to get a job. And then mentioned that I was applying for the 2 week relieve teacher post. She then told me they are currently urgently looking for a teacher. I must bring my cv in when I come to speak to the principal about the Mxit project. I then sat and cleaned up my cv. Came to meet with the principal yesterday but he was too busy (kids involved in things they shouldnt do. cant wait to be a part of setting that right) and then I had to meet with the deputy principal who didnt know why I was there, and was extremely friendly wanting to know what I've been doing for the past ten years, etc.etc...I then told him why i was there, and the education direction I was heading in. He then said he will give my cv to the principal I will have to share the detail with him, but the only person interested in the post called the day before to say they not taking the job... He arranged that I meet the principal 9h30 today. The principal also called to my house to confirm the time.
I then dressed up. Although it was not an interview? I wasnt sure, and wasnt sure if the heels was too much or should I wear my wonderful Ugs? :) how do u spell this. But dressed properly regardless. I went in the office not knowing what to expect. It wasnt an interview but more a discussion of what will be expected, how much it wil pay etc.etc...And will be signing the contract tomorrow which I have a feeling may be day one too. Hence my mom told me to pack in bread... :)))
Anyway...Isnt God Great...! And the way he prepares you for something... Even my parents just nudging me and letting me know of opportunities... I still get to volunteer ::) Cause I'm there... and I am getting paid and I'm doing something I know I'll love and will give me experience for when I'm done with my studies. And it's so near that I will save lots on petrol and can even walk :)
Anyway. Time for bed. It's funny how everything works out... We have a faithful God. Like the word says. Even if we are not he is faithful. Cause he cannot go against who he is.
Chan
Monday, August 11, 2008
"me"aningful sara groves quotes to "me"
"I saw what I saw and I can't forget it
I heard what I heard and I can't go back
I know what I know and I can't deny it
Something on the road, cut me to the soul
Your pain has changed me
your dreams inspire
your face a memory
your hope a fire
your courage asks me what I'm afraid of
and what I know of love"
"Lord I have a heavy burden of all I've seen and know
It's more than I can handle
But your word is burning like a fire shut up in my bones
and I cannot let it go
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I think of Paul and Silas in the prison yard
I hear their song of freedom rising to the stars
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
...but when I think of all who've gone before and lived the faithful life
their courage compells me
I see the shepherd Moses in the Pharohs court
I hear his call for freedom for the people of the Lord
...
I see the long quiet walk along the Underground Railroad
I see the slave awakening to the value of her soul
I see the young missionary and the angry spear
I see his family returning with no trace of fear
I see the long hard shadows of Calcutta nights
I see the sisters standing by the dying man's side
I see the young girl huddled on the brothel floor
I see the man with a passion come and kicking down the door
I see the man of sorrows and his long troubled road
I see the world on his shoulders and my easy load
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them"
"Loving a person just the way they are, it's no small thing
It takes some time to see things through
Sometimes things change, sometimes we're waiting
We need grace either way
Hold on to me, I'll hold on to you
Let's find out the beauty of seeing things through
There's a lot of pain in reaching out and trying,It's a vulnerable place to be
Love and pride can't occupy the same spaces baby, Only one makes you free
If we go looking for offense, We're going to find it
If we go looking for real love,We're going to find it"
"When anger fills your heart
When in your pain and hurt
You find the strength to stop
You bless instead of curse...
When sorrow fills your life
When in your grief and pain
You choose again to rise
You choose to bless the name
That's a little stone that's a little mortar
That's a little seed that's a little water
In the hearts of the sons and the daughters
The kingdom's coming
In the mundane tasks of living
In the pouring out and giving
In the waking up and trying
In the laying down and dying"
"How can I tell this story again to make you wonder when
You stopped believing
How can I paint a picture of this kind of love
This kind of healing,Oh"
"Sometimes it's hard to tell what to keep and what to kill
What of this makes us who we are
All that we love the most, all that we cannot let go
How much of change can we survive?
I'm here to re-write this tragedy, One line at a time
Hold on, I'm changing all the scenery, It's okay we'll be fine
Cause we know how this ends,We know there's a better story
There's a better story
Of true love of true grace
There's the hope of glory
And our first chance to be truly brave
It's the place we're going
When we can't stay where we are"
"Something changed inside me broke wide open all spilled out
Till I had no doubt that something changed
Never would have believed it till I felt it in my own heart
In the deepest part the healing came
And I cannot make it
And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine
Something so amazing in a heart so dark and dim
When a wall falls down and the light comes in"
"I can tell by your eyes that you're not getting any sleep
And you try to rise above it, but feel you're sinking in too deep...
And I did not come here to offer you cliché's
I will not pretend to know of all your pain
Just when you cannot, then I will hold out faith, for you..
I believe...
It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright
cast your cares..."
"Shine on me with your light
Without you Iím a cold dark stone
Shine on me I have no light of my own
You are the sun, you are the sun, you are the sun
And I am the moon"
"spending my time sleep walking
moving my mouth but not saying a thing
hoping the changes would take by working their way from the outside in
I was in love with an idea...
there's so many ways to hide
there's so many ways not to feel
there's so many ways to deny what is real
And I just showed up for my own life
and I'm standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright!...
Oh the glory of God is man fully alive!
I'm going to live my life inspired...
I'm going to feel all my emotions...
I'm gonna look you in the eyes"
"Oh Love wash over a multitude of things...make us whole"
"We come with beautiful secrets
We come with purposes written on our hearts, written on our souls
We come to every new morning
With possibilities only we can hold, that only we can hold
Redemption comes in strange place, small spaces
Calling out the best of who we are
And I want to add to the beauty
To tell a better story
I want to shine with the light
That's burning up inside
It comes in small inspirations
It brings redemption to life and work
To our lives and our work
It comes in loving community
It comes in helping a soul find it's worth
This is grace, an invitation to be beautiful
This is grace, an invitation"
"I am long in staying
I am slow to leave
especially when it comes to you my friend
you have taught me to slow down
and to prop up my feet
it's the fine art of being who I am"
"at the risk of wearing out my welcome
at the risk of self discovery
I'll take every moment and every minute that you give me"
"and in your hands, the pain and hurt, look less like scars and more like character"
"Oh how the little things
Strengthen my tiny wings
Help me to take on the world
When you love me there's nothing I wouldn't try
I might even fly"
"I dont have to be ashamed
hang my head and shoulder the blame
wondering if my life's been in vain
I don't have to be ashamed...
ooh you did that for me...you wore the chains so I can be free, you did that for me"
"Man of sorrows
well acquainted with grief
drug down to the city
spreadeagle on a cross beam
propped up like a scarecrow
nailed like a thief
there for all the world to see"
"And everything is important
Everything is not
At the end of your life your relationships are all you got"
"And love to me is when you put down that one more thing and say I've got something better to do. And love to me is when you walk out on that one more thing and say nothing will come between me and you. Not even one thing"
"So many words to say, but I'm opting for silence
So many days to live
I thinking I'm sitting this one out
Cause something I've been chasing finally stop to let me catch it
Something I've been longing for and dreaming about
It's a whisper in my ear
It's a shiver up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace...
No time to grab a camera
No time to write it down
Just time enough to breathe it in
And linger"
"I will not let this bitter root grow in me
I will not let you leave that legacy
But it gets so hard when pain is all I see, ooh
And every time I find healing, you making a new mess
And I am learning the real meaning of forgiveness
And I could move and never send you a forwarding address
Or I could learn the real meaning of forgiveness
...and I try to remove myself from your path
and i keep waking up in the aftermath
...but this constant fight is breaking me
...and it gets so hard to know how to trust"
"In the morning when I rise
Help me to prioritize
All the thoughts that fill my day
...Before the snooze alarm
Reminds me that it's morning
Before the dreams have left my head
I want to praise You
I need to praise You
Let the first song that I sing
Be praises to my God and King
(Praise the Lord, Praise Him) "
"There'll be no one there to tell us we're odd
No one to change our opinions of God
Just lots of rocks and this dusty sod
Here at our church on the moon"
"Sit with me and tell me once again
Of the story that's been told us
Of the power that will hold us
Of the beauty, of the beauty
Why it matters"
I heard what I heard and I can't go back
I know what I know and I can't deny it
Something on the road, cut me to the soul
Your pain has changed me
your dreams inspire
your face a memory
your hope a fire
your courage asks me what I'm afraid of
and what I know of love"
"Lord I have a heavy burden of all I've seen and know
It's more than I can handle
But your word is burning like a fire shut up in my bones
and I cannot let it go
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I think of Paul and Silas in the prison yard
I hear their song of freedom rising to the stars
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
...but when I think of all who've gone before and lived the faithful life
their courage compells me
I see the shepherd Moses in the Pharohs court
I hear his call for freedom for the people of the Lord
...
I see the long quiet walk along the Underground Railroad
I see the slave awakening to the value of her soul
I see the young missionary and the angry spear
I see his family returning with no trace of fear
I see the long hard shadows of Calcutta nights
I see the sisters standing by the dying man's side
I see the young girl huddled on the brothel floor
I see the man with a passion come and kicking down the door
I see the man of sorrows and his long troubled road
I see the world on his shoulders and my easy load
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them"
"Loving a person just the way they are, it's no small thing
It takes some time to see things through
Sometimes things change, sometimes we're waiting
We need grace either way
Hold on to me, I'll hold on to you
Let's find out the beauty of seeing things through
There's a lot of pain in reaching out and trying,It's a vulnerable place to be
Love and pride can't occupy the same spaces baby, Only one makes you free
If we go looking for offense, We're going to find it
If we go looking for real love,We're going to find it"
"When anger fills your heart
When in your pain and hurt
You find the strength to stop
You bless instead of curse...
When sorrow fills your life
When in your grief and pain
You choose again to rise
You choose to bless the name
That's a little stone that's a little mortar
That's a little seed that's a little water
In the hearts of the sons and the daughters
The kingdom's coming
In the mundane tasks of living
In the pouring out and giving
In the waking up and trying
In the laying down and dying"
"How can I tell this story again to make you wonder when
You stopped believing
How can I paint a picture of this kind of love
This kind of healing,Oh"
"Sometimes it's hard to tell what to keep and what to kill
What of this makes us who we are
All that we love the most, all that we cannot let go
How much of change can we survive?
I'm here to re-write this tragedy, One line at a time
Hold on, I'm changing all the scenery, It's okay we'll be fine
Cause we know how this ends,We know there's a better story
There's a better story
Of true love of true grace
There's the hope of glory
And our first chance to be truly brave
It's the place we're going
When we can't stay where we are"
"Something changed inside me broke wide open all spilled out
Till I had no doubt that something changed
Never would have believed it till I felt it in my own heart
In the deepest part the healing came
And I cannot make it
And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine
Something so amazing in a heart so dark and dim
When a wall falls down and the light comes in"
"I can tell by your eyes that you're not getting any sleep
And you try to rise above it, but feel you're sinking in too deep...
And I did not come here to offer you cliché's
I will not pretend to know of all your pain
Just when you cannot, then I will hold out faith, for you..
I believe...
It's going to be alright
It's going to be alright
cast your cares..."
"Shine on me with your light
Without you Iím a cold dark stone
Shine on me I have no light of my own
You are the sun, you are the sun, you are the sun
And I am the moon"
"spending my time sleep walking
moving my mouth but not saying a thing
hoping the changes would take by working their way from the outside in
I was in love with an idea...
there's so many ways to hide
there's so many ways not to feel
there's so many ways to deny what is real
And I just showed up for my own life
and I'm standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright!...
Oh the glory of God is man fully alive!
I'm going to live my life inspired...
I'm going to feel all my emotions...
I'm gonna look you in the eyes"
"Oh Love wash over a multitude of things...make us whole"
"We come with beautiful secrets
We come with purposes written on our hearts, written on our souls
We come to every new morning
With possibilities only we can hold, that only we can hold
Redemption comes in strange place, small spaces
Calling out the best of who we are
And I want to add to the beauty
To tell a better story
I want to shine with the light
That's burning up inside
It comes in small inspirations
It brings redemption to life and work
To our lives and our work
It comes in loving community
It comes in helping a soul find it's worth
This is grace, an invitation to be beautiful
This is grace, an invitation"
"I am long in staying
I am slow to leave
especially when it comes to you my friend
you have taught me to slow down
and to prop up my feet
it's the fine art of being who I am"
"at the risk of wearing out my welcome
at the risk of self discovery
I'll take every moment and every minute that you give me"
"and in your hands, the pain and hurt, look less like scars and more like character"
"Oh how the little things
Strengthen my tiny wings
Help me to take on the world
When you love me there's nothing I wouldn't try
I might even fly"
"I dont have to be ashamed
hang my head and shoulder the blame
wondering if my life's been in vain
I don't have to be ashamed...
ooh you did that for me...you wore the chains so I can be free, you did that for me"
"Man of sorrows
well acquainted with grief
drug down to the city
spreadeagle on a cross beam
propped up like a scarecrow
nailed like a thief
there for all the world to see"
"And everything is important
Everything is not
At the end of your life your relationships are all you got"
"And love to me is when you put down that one more thing and say I've got something better to do. And love to me is when you walk out on that one more thing and say nothing will come between me and you. Not even one thing"
"So many words to say, but I'm opting for silence
So many days to live
I thinking I'm sitting this one out
Cause something I've been chasing finally stop to let me catch it
Something I've been longing for and dreaming about
It's a whisper in my ear
It's a shiver up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace...
No time to grab a camera
No time to write it down
Just time enough to breathe it in
And linger"
"I will not let this bitter root grow in me
I will not let you leave that legacy
But it gets so hard when pain is all I see, ooh
And every time I find healing, you making a new mess
And I am learning the real meaning of forgiveness
And I could move and never send you a forwarding address
Or I could learn the real meaning of forgiveness
...and I try to remove myself from your path
and i keep waking up in the aftermath
...but this constant fight is breaking me
...and it gets so hard to know how to trust"
"In the morning when I rise
Help me to prioritize
All the thoughts that fill my day
...Before the snooze alarm
Reminds me that it's morning
Before the dreams have left my head
I want to praise You
I need to praise You
Let the first song that I sing
Be praises to my God and King
(Praise the Lord, Praise Him) "
"There'll be no one there to tell us we're odd
No one to change our opinions of God
Just lots of rocks and this dusty sod
Here at our church on the moon"
"Sit with me and tell me once again
Of the story that's been told us
Of the power that will hold us
Of the beauty, of the beauty
Why it matters"
another blast from the past...
googled my name and for the first time found this...
http://152.111.1.251/argief/berigte/dieburger/2000/05/25/5/18.html
will quote it as well in case they take this link away in future...
"Jeugsport:--
Jeugsport:
Die interkerklike jeuggroep Rock Solid van Kuilsrivier het 'n sportdag op die Sarepta sportterrein gehou. Altesame 34 jeuggroepe het aan die sportdag deelgeneem. Die doel van die jeuggroep is om jong mense in die Kuilsrivier gebied by hul bedrywighede te betrek. Gemeenskapslui, sakelui en individue wat by die groep betrokke wil raak, is welkom om Kim da Rocha by * of Thalia Cloete by * te bel. Agter staan van links: Thalia Cloete, Joselyn Beukes, Chandré de Wet en Kim da Rocha. Voor is Ryan Rodgers en Alwynne Baatjies. Foto: John Stevens "
Wish I could have seen the photo as well :)
Those were the days of bubbling from being new christians, growing at such a fast rate, desiring more knowledge, yet not knowing certain worldly ways were wrong however in that particular year was too busy with building God's kingdom to really notice that much... Of seeing our youth group grow from 6 to 12, 24, over 40...and many get saved...
Thank God that he takes us from glory to glory!
Amen!
Pic taken on that day ;)
http://152.111.1.251/argief/berigte/dieburger/2000/05/25/5/18.html
will quote it as well in case they take this link away in future...
"Jeugsport:--
Jeugsport:
Die interkerklike jeuggroep Rock Solid van Kuilsrivier het 'n sportdag op die Sarepta sportterrein gehou. Altesame 34 jeuggroepe het aan die sportdag deelgeneem. Die doel van die jeuggroep is om jong mense in die Kuilsrivier gebied by hul bedrywighede te betrek. Gemeenskapslui, sakelui en individue wat by die groep betrokke wil raak, is welkom om Kim da Rocha by * of Thalia Cloete by * te bel. Agter staan van links: Thalia Cloete, Joselyn Beukes, Chandré de Wet en Kim da Rocha. Voor is Ryan Rodgers en Alwynne Baatjies. Foto: John Stevens "
Wish I could have seen the photo as well :)
Those were the days of bubbling from being new christians, growing at such a fast rate, desiring more knowledge, yet not knowing certain worldly ways were wrong however in that particular year was too busy with building God's kingdom to really notice that much... Of seeing our youth group grow from 6 to 12, 24, over 40...and many get saved...
Thank God that he takes us from glory to glory!
Amen!
Pic taken on that day ;)
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Remembering Maria
For those of you who know and love Steven Curtis Chapmans music or even dont know and maybe do read more of this... man...this is sad for the family, but we thank God that His hand of grace is upon them
"Boisterous and full of life, she loved flowers, ladybugs, birds, anything with wings, coloring, washing dishes, playing make-believe, the color pink, being "butt-naked", water, and her family. Her life was a picture of God's beauty; her adoption was a picture of God's love; her joy was a picture of God's fullness; and her love was a picture of God's grace. Her family certainly, certainly loved her, and through the love of her family, she became beloved by the entire world."
See the interview here
http://ie.youtube.com/watch?v=wh2VFkF7NLo
:(
Quote that touched me was
"we're told we're family of great faith
but we a family with lots of questions
But isnt that what faith is
faith is living with the questions"
Wrote this part last night(blogger wasnt working)
Once again should be sleeping but just stumbled across the news that Steven Curtis Chapman's youngest daughter has been killed by accident. Seeing a little video made in tribute to her on youtube and they use the song With hope. which is making me a bit sad, cause i guess when Steven wrote that song he never knew that it may happen to his family too... And yes she is in heaven, even i am blessed by the little videos and pictures they have placed on the net, but at the same time I am asking God right now just to cover their family in this time. It cant be easy. And is making me think of something I've been saying a while now after things have happened in my own life, and Rewrite this tragedy has been ministering to me. Just said we are all living bold and the beautiful lifes. Life can be really crappy at times, but through God we know that this is not the way it needs to end but there's a better story...
God thankyou that you are the author and perfector of our faith and rightnow Maria is with you...
Amen
Lastly...When u listen to all the hope in the recording. U wonder can it trully be so? But on one of the interviews I read, Stevens Pastor says that it's the fact that God is real and their faith in God that sustains them in this time. That's true. Outside of the situation I can only imagine that if it were me I'd be devastated. Yet in the worst times of my life and even when my faith levels were low, my Real God. The only living God, came through for me
Father, I commit to You the Chapman Family. Lord Thank you that with you we can grieve with hope, thankyou that when everything just wants to fall apart that is when Your strength is perfect. Love You Lord
*****
so much ashes, yet amidst it there's beauty
so much pain, yet in it lies a crown
so much brokenness, yet through it we are stronger
so much hate, yet we can find unending love
though life is hard, thats not the way the story needs to end
though times are tough, if we would only hang in there
there is a way, a hope, a road that leads to life
there is a God, who feels your pain, and lifts you up
If we can only hold on,
Look into his loving eyes
We'll find the strength
We'll find the breath to live
If we can only hold on,
look into his loving eyes
We'll see his for us
Even now...
His working out the plan to see us through
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercies never will come to an end
They are new every morning
They are new every morning
Great is your faithfulness, O Lord
Great is your faithfulness
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